Here and Now...What's Happening?

[Flash]

Thanks Carmody, those musics are extraordinary on my bigger sound system here.

Posted by Carmody (here)

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=LqRZ2_w56U0

Reminds me of the time I did 9 hours of crazy high speed driving in a blizzard, on closed highways..with this one on repeat the whole time:

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=1ga_noF6Dxw

(the last two minutes are missing, and those two minutes are what makes the 'flow' work.

We can get confirmation at times, and we did with this one, with some of you dreaming of the whole thing. (my crazy driving)(Which I love. It's a meditation of the 'now')

Why do we love this Inception bit so much? (1.3 million hits, so far)

Probably... we want the relief, we want the trueness of the knowing. We want out of the pressure, we want the mediation, the now in perfection, the escape, the leaving. To me, never mourn the dead, as when they are gone, they are, in that moment, more alive than you are now. To walk in the city, with that song on headphones, to ride the buses, the subways, to travel to the roofs of buildings, to catch the glint of the light, to feel the bustle of the night, to fly through them on wings of knowing and peace. Ah, there is not much like it. This the mercy and the peace the dead know, that we do not. Only the mediation of it can take us to it's edge. The relief from.... time.

To remember and be in it every day, that is one method that helps. to always take out the time.. to ... lose time. To find time gone, non existent. To take that past, and the projection to future, that search for reflection - to take that burden off.

One of the top comments:

It's all a nightmare. I wait for it to end. But this roller coaster I'm riding is too long of a ride. I've forgotten the minor uphills that determined how fast I'd go down. All I know is I want to get off this ride. Or at least enjoy it. It's beginning to be too much to bear. It's going to fast and too far down. And I've lost control. Sometimes I just wanna jump off. But I'm too afraid I'll hurt the passengers that I've rode the entire way with. The one's I've gotten to connect with. I don't know how the rest of this roller coaster will be like. And I don't know how it will end. All I can do is wait. And brave through. Make the best of it. I refuse to chicken out. I'll face the fears of the roller coaster. And stay with those passengers for as long as I can.

A bit of update on me: I am steadily losing weight with the aim of getting back at my original form lol (with quite a few years more), and i started a physical training to put myself back in shape, it seems that this time I am geared towards the right ways of doing it - went to hypnotherapy for help in these and also for régressions.

I am starting to feel the inner changes and lots of flashes on patterns i have, family patterns, exceedingly interesting, albeit emotionally difficult at times - example: i was talking to Milneman yesterday and all of a sudden, without warning, choking tears rolled down, i could not hold it - he sent me to drink water, was really soft and gentle, this guy is real nice believe me.

Other major change, I started dating again - this is litterally and earthquake change for me. I do not know if it will work out with this men, but gosh it is good to have a men around me filled with male presence. Whatever happens, he woke me up in regards to my needs and desires and definitely my feminine side is rising up - i am getting away from the yang side that i had to use for survival with my daughter. Discovering who I am in life interplays.

Thanks to men for their mere existence. lol

[PurpleLama]

I used to think, the whole point of the roller coaster (re: carmody's above post) was to learn to lift that sucker off the rails with my jedi mind powers. Now I know, in order to keep that sucker off the rails, so true flight is possible, is to show others how to use their own jedi mind powers, so they can help. So it goes.

[Calz]

Posted by PurpleLama (here)
I used to think, the whole point of the roller coaster (re: carmody's above post) was to learn to lift that sucker off the rails with my jedi mind powers. Now I know, in order to keep that sucker off the rails, so true flight is possible, is to show others how to help with their own jedi mind powers, so they can help. So it goes.

Some of the newer ones catch on quicker than most of the rest of us ...

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An eight year old explains what crystal grids do to clear negative energy


By Laron

Within this seven minute video, eight year old Adam discusses information based upon a number of crystal based grids which he has designed and created and how they can help to transmute dark energy into positive based energy. Adam goes on to say that he connected into the crystals themselves to understand how to put together these grids, and what the purpose was of doing this.

The video description explains that it took Adam about 10 minutes to build these grids which contain such crystals as Amethyst, Apophyllite, Celestial Smoky Quartz, Clear Quartz points, Vogels, and several Lemurian Seed Crystals.

I just want to add that I have done two courses on crystals and one of my teachers was able to connect into the crystals, similar to how Adam explains it. This is not as unusual or unbelievable as it may sound to some and this is exactly the type of thing I expect to occur more frequently in the future, easpecially for young people, as we move more fully into the astrological based age of Aquarius.

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=U5sSlfvsgYA

http://www.transients.info/2014/05/a...t-crystal.html

[Calz]

Great tune ... but also and perhaps more importantly a true statement of the power of love ...

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=ZsDyCiFHrpA

[ThePythonicCow]

Posted by Carmody (here)
I've never mentioned it, but for months, I've had this outside my door, for about ..12 hours, minimum, almost every day. For the past 2-3-4 months. A long time now. Longer, actually.

You must have some big, strong arms to be holding that big ol m-f-in jack hammer .

[PurpleLama]

Posted by Calz (here)

Posted by PurpleLama (here)
I used to think, the whole point of the roller coaster (re: carmody's above post) was to learn to lift that sucker off the rails with my jedi mind powers. Now I know, in order to keep that sucker off the rails, so true flight is possible, is to show others how to help with their own jedi mind powers, so they can help. So it goes.

Some of the newer ones catch on quicker than most of the rest of us ...

______________


An eight year old explains what crystal grids do to clear negative energy


By Laron

Within this seven minute video, eight year old Adam discusses information based upon a number of crystal based grids which he has designed and created and how they can help to transmute dark energy into positive based energy. Adam goes on to say that he connected into the crystals themselves to understand how to put together these grids, and what the purpose was of doing this.

The video description explains that it took Adam about 10 minutes to build these grids which contain such crystals as Amethyst, Apophyllite, Celestial Smoky Quartz, Clear Quartz points, Vogels, and several Lemurian Seed Crystals.

I just want to add that I have done two courses on crystals and one of my teachers was able to connect into the crystals, similar to how Adam explains it. This is not as unusual or unbelievable as it may sound to some and this is exactly the type of thing I expect to occur more frequently in the future, easpecially for young people, as we move more fully into the astrological based age of Aquarius.

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=U5sSlfvsgYA

http://www.transients.info/2014/05/a...t-crystal.html

no, cal, just like I was telling another one, earlier, its like the old ts elliot quote, about "the willing suspension of disbelief", only in this case, its what you used to believe about yourself. suspend the mf-er. suspend it.

then, come talk to me. you are *not* what you think you are, you are *not* what your eyes see, you are *not* what your mind thinks.

need I remind you, you are the first, the *very first*, person I contacted on this forum. you, no one else. eagle was the second, carmody was the third.

so it goes. you are more than you think, my friend. your spirit is no less strong than my own. I know this. others know this. you need to take to steps back, look at your self, and mf-in OWN this sh!t. it is yours, after all.

[Calz]

Posted by PurpleLama (here)

no, cal, just like I was telling another one, earlier, its like the old ts elliot quote, about "the willing suspension of disbelief", only in this case, its what you used to believe about yourself. suspend the mf-er. suspend it.

then, come talk to me. you are *not* what you think you are, you are *not* what your eyes see, you are *not* what your mind thinks.

need I remind you, you are the first, the *very first*, person I contacted on this forum. you, no one else. eagle was the second, carmody was the third.

so it goes. you are more than you think, my friend. your spirit is no less strong than my own. I know this. others know this. you need to take to steps back, look at your self, and mf-in OWN this sh!t. it is yours, after all.

Well this wasn't how I was expecting to share this but it appears my wife of 18 years is leaving me.

Not because I have done anything "wrong" mind you.


I built the perfect storm.


We married when I was 40 (1st for both) and she was 24.


Now ... I am 58 and she is 41.


I work overnight shift leaving her alone at nights (check out the stats for shift workers getting divorces).


We married in 1996 ... I started waking up with 911 ... she didn't.


*THAT* I offer for forum members to consider.


A partner who still is firmly in the matrix despite years and years of prodding.


Plan for your kids college when the economy is clearly gone???


Take a mortage for a new house for 30 years when clearly things are falling apart?


(etc ... use your imagination for dozens of family situations).


... and now ... after all this time she suggests I have a problem and must talk to someone ...


get it???


I am destroying the whole family due to my views about "reality".


I understand completely where she is coming from based on my understanding of the "matrix". She really has done nothing "wrong".


She has no clue about my perception of reality.



Anyway ... sorry to ramble and dribble ... I have had many remarkable people come into my life to try to help Reilly.


I didn't realize I was the "first" you reached out to although I clearly knew how much you have tried to reach out to me.


At the moment I am in a rather nasty disposition.


My kids mean more to me than anything in the world and my contact with them is suddenly threatened.


While I promised to share aka 1 style ... this isn't quite what I had in mind.


Sorry (very much) to all.


...


as a side note ... do you (Purple) have a "halftime score" on how the battle going???


Cal

[RunningDeer]

Posted by Calz (here)

Posted by PurpleLama (here)

no, cal, just like I was telling another one, earlier, its like the old ts elliot quote, about "the willing suspension of disbelief", only in this case, its what you used to believe about yourself. suspend the mf-er. suspend it.

then, come talk to me. you are *not* what you think you are, you are *not* what your eyes see, you are *not* what your mind thinks.

need I remind you, you are the first, the *very first*, person I contacted on this forum. you, no one else. eagle was the second, carmody was the third.

so it goes. you are more than you think, my friend. your spirit is no less strong than my own. I know this. others know this. you need to take to steps back, look at your self, and mf-in OWN this sh!t. it is yours, after all.

Well this wasn't how I was expecting to share this but it appears my wife of 18 years is leaving me.

Not because I have done anything "wrong" mind you.


I built the perfect storm.


We married when I was 40 (1st for both) and she was 24.
Cal

Cal, I'm sorry for the upheaval you and your family are going through. I hope this phase passes without much drama.

At another level, you've each graduated from the learning that was contracted. And I'd respectfully say congratulations to you both.

There's 20 years difference between ex-hubby and myself. We were in different worlds. Today, I see it's not so much the age that made it so, but the life paths were too divergent. He's still a dear, dear friend. I actually can share a lot more with him now, than the 19 years we were together.

L,
Pauler

UPDATE: PS I agree with the PurpleLama. My hope is that you can see what I see in you, without loosing a lot of time.

[1inMany]

Oh Cal. I am so sorry to hear that. Oh, man. That is so, so hard to go through, I can just imagine. Some similarities, but I still cannot fathom.

I am so sorry.

Hugs and so much love, my friend.

Here if there is anything I/we can do.

[ulli]

Cal,
I'm really sorry it has come to this for you.

YI think your wife needs to watch that video of the woman holding the dummy at the Boston Marathon bombing.

But whatever is going to happen, your belief that things WILL turn out ok
for all involved will actually stir the ship through this storm.

And if you can't believe it, I can. I've survived two divorces., and none of my worst fears have come to pass...on the contrary.
How often I have been given confirmation that there is a loving presence overseeing it all.

The greatest challenge was when I realised that if I wanted to see my son (and he didn't want to return to Costa Rica)
I would need more than just a two week trip to Barbados...I would need to be there for longer periods.

Whatever is required, the universe can and will shift to accommodate you and yours.

[PurpleLama]

Cal, I feel you bro, I do. A heavy load it is, the IRL you describe. Wizardly advice? If it suits you, do your galdurned best to give her what she wants, and stop trying to wake her up. One hard earned lesson of mine, people wake up in their own time, if at all, if they even do at all. I love you man. If you have a line, and would like a sounding board, shoot me a pm and I will gladly give over my number again, I am usually free after 8 most evenings. Thats a sincere proposal, please make use of it. It is in earnest, this hand I offer. I am some years your junior, as time and jokes have told these last few years, but what little wisdom I hold has been hard learned, hard earned, but it is not wisdom I can offer, now, it is just a sincere hand, an honest ear. Take advantage of it, dude. Srsly.

[ulli]

Cal, I checked your chart. (Yes, I still have it on file.)
Sorry, but all I can see right now is that you have something clouding your judgment.
I honestly can't see a major life upheaval.
I see Jupiter square Mercury/Sun...which means that you both need to shift a little...not just your wife.
Jupiter Mercury square alone can cause reality to look distorted, and usually exaggerated.
Remember how many predictions have NOT come true.

[Calz]

Thank you so much my friend (for Reilly ... but thank you always ulli).

Soon ... perhaps.

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Posted by ulli (here)
Cal, I checked your chart. (Yes, I still have it on file.)
Sorry, but all I can see right now is that you have something clouding your judgment.
I honestly can't see a major life upheaval.
I see Jupiter square Mercury/Sun...which means that you both need to shift a little...not just your wife.
Jupiter Mercury square alone can cause reality to look distorted, and usually exaggerated.
Remember how many predictions have NOT come true.

this is all on my wife ... not me.

(nuther update: to be clear the "all on my wife" was *NOT* a blame assessment but rather my reaction to ull looking at *my* natal chart. I bear most all of the responsibility for creating our shift work situation. As for a separation of reality perception that is something that simply is ... no blame ... sh!t happens).

[gripreaper]

Calz, there's not much anyone of us can say that you wont hear a 100 times in the next few months. All we can do is hold the space for you to feel this experience as deeply as possible, even if the only place you can have your feelings is in your car on a deserted road, all alone. Let the feelings flow my friend. Clarity comes much later. For me, the grief poured out non stop for two years, but the clarity did come.

[ThePythonicCow]

Posted by ulli (here)
YI think your wife needs to watch that video of the woman holding the dummy at the Boston Marathon bombing.

With the sound turned off !

[Calz]

Posted before ... but one of my favs ...

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=LJM2GhkR_RY

[RunningDeer]

Does anybody know what this very big, little critter is? His body's at least 3 inches/7.62 cm. He was basking in a not so safe place on my deck. A lotta birds come calling "The Lady" for freebies.

[Calz]

Posted by PurpleLama (here)

If it suits you, do your galdurned best to give her what she wants, and stop trying to wake her up.

Good advice ... that which I started taking a few years ago.


But it comes up again ... again ... again in married life.


So many variations.


...and tell me ... what appears to matter most is being truthful and honest.


... where does that fit in when truth will always cause a fight???


Cal

[RunningDeer]

Posted by Calz (here)

So many variations.


...and tell me ... what appears to matter most is being truthful and honest.


... where does that fit in when truth will always cause a fight???


Cal

I’d appreciate the answer to that, too. The best I’ve got is that everybody’s truth is different. And it takes big love for all parties to be in a place where most ‘stuff’ just...does...not...matter.

'Agree to disagree' is a good thing. (in theory) Though, I've not had much success with it.

[PurpleLama]

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=cD7a3HbgqJE