Here and Now...What's Happening?

[ulli]

Posted by Ol' Roy (here)
Sorry about that, Ulli! Too many beers! I jumped to too many conclusions! Please forgive me, you and Paula!

I figured as much. I forgive you. Having an ol' (drunk) Roy in the Village adds spice to life.

[Carmody]

https://projectavalon.net/forum4/show...l=1#post967838

Shifts and end games.

[LAB]

I've been getting figuratively smacked in the face repeatedly by repetitive numbers. I'm not really into numerology at all, its just a rabbit hole that's never appealed to me. But it is beginning to bug me a little. Does anyone have a quickfire set of principles to help untangle this or am I better off just ignoring it?

[Playdo of Ataraxas]

Cowboy Neal at the wheel...

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=4LoJv25eIrc

[RunningDeer]

Posted by Ol' Roy (here)
Sorry about that, Ulli! Too many beers! I jumped to too many conclusions! Please forgive me, you and Paula!

<3

[RunningDeer]

Posted by LAB (here)
I've been getting figuratively smacked in the face repeatedly by repetitive numbers. I'm not really into numerology at all, its just a rabbit hole that's never appealed to me. But it is beginning to bug me a little. Does anyone have a quickfire set of principles to help untangle this or am I better off just ignoring it?

…that’s never appealed to me.…or am I better off just ignoring it?

Can’t make that decision for you, LAB. But…'lmgtfy', i.e., let me google that for you.

[Ernie Nemeth]

Interesting wedding this weekend for my neice. Had to boycott the ceremony in protest of the seat assignments. I was not seated with my parents (whom I haven't seen in eight years), my aunt and cousin (whom I haven't seen in twenty-five years) and my sister. Instead me , my daughter and her mother were seated with strangers at the far back. Who replaced us at my parents table? My sisters best friend and husband...wait for it...and my ex-girlfriend (who is my replacement on that side of the family)[they kept her and shunned me]! So sad, so shocking, so cruel.

I'm still walking around in a daze. My parents are here till Wednesday but they didn't bother to set up another meeting with me, though. They asked everyone else if they could meet up but not the first born son! I admit I am devastated. I'm thinking about something very drastic in response to this outrage and insult. But like usual I will probably let it slide, excuse them for not knowing any better and stay hung on the cross like a martyr.

I know I never post so I'm sorry for the intrusion. But if I didn't I'd probably blow a gasket. The above is my side of the story, they have their own and my father made it clear that I am wrong again as usual - it was not my function so I should have took my lumps...

[Flash]

Posted by Ernie Nemeth (here)
Interesting wedding this weekend for my neice. Had to boycott the ceremony in protest of the seat assignments. I was not seated with my parents (whom I haven't seen in eight years), my aunt and cousin (whom I haven't seen in twenty-five years) and my sister. Instead me , my daughter and her mother were seated with strangers at the far back. Who replaced us at my parents table? My sisters best friend and husband...wait for it...and my ex-girlfriend (who is my replacement on that side of the family)[they kept her and shunned me]! So sad, so shocking, so cruel.

I'm still walking around in a daze. My parents are here till Wednesday but they didn't bother to set up another meeting with me, though. They asked everyone else if they could meet up but not the first born son! I admit I am devastated. I'm thinking about something very drastic in response to this outrage and insult. But like usual I will probably let it slide, excuse them for not knowing any better and stay hung on the cross like a martyr.

I know I never post so I'm sorry for the intrusion. But if I didn't I'd probably blow a gasket. The above is my side of the story, they have their own and my father made it clear that I am wrong again as usual - it was not my function so I should have took my lumps...

Why don't you clearly, calmly but with emotions tell them that you miss them tremendously and wish you could be with them, despite past mishaps.

I do not know what the past problems were, but if asking for your needs in a calm but heartfelt fashion, often people do understand.

I have seen lately someone who has a mental disease, being absolutely difficult in family meetings, yet, because he deeply asked for forgiveness (many times had to over his lifetime) and told them he cares for his Relationship with them, they still took him in for family meetings. And believe me, he makes a nightmare with it usually, for years on. He lost his girl friend though and I bet they would take her in at their table too if she would ask.

My thinking

ps: I do not mean you are sick or anything, since I do not know anything of your life, I am just bringing this story as an example of hearfelt demands.

[RunningDeer]

Posted by Ernie Nemeth (here)
So sad, so shocking, so cruel.

I'm thinking about something very drastic in response to this outrage and insult. But like usual I will probably let it slide, excuse them for not knowing any better and stay hung on the cross like a martyr.

So sad, so shocking, so cruel.
…and stay hung on the cross like a martyr.

So, so sorry, Ernie

Crowbar and step ladder in hand
Spikes out once and for all
Let’s you and me
Go for a brewski and fries

[ulli]

@Ernie. When my former sister-in-law (Barbados hotel family) married a multi-millionaire my ex-husband and I were shoved in a corner as well, having to share the table with the Anglican bishop and his wife.
The thought that we were being shunned and dumped did cross my mind, but what's the point in wallowing and getting stressed?
So instead I made the most of the moment, enjoying the drunken Bishop's spilling out the most incredible gossip about British royalty (which at the time happened to be about the hospitalization of Princess Margaret's then boyfriend Roddy Llewellen) while Mrs. Bishop kept hissing at him sideways to shut up as he could be sued for libel. It was all too funny....

It took me years to realize what made my in-laws uncomfortable about me, enough so to banish their second-born along with me to the far corner.
Of course the obvious reason was that I was a German and my sis-in-law was getting married to a Jew, and they wanted to keep any controversial issues under control, but now that I'm older I can see in retrospect that IF had I always played by the rules of high society it could have been quite different.

Weddings are notorious for people getting drunk, and saying stuff that should have been kept under wraps.
And even though I was not a heavy drinker I was known for being quick-witted and sarcastic. It took me years of suffering before I understood that I had hurt many people with my comments back then.

So try and get some insights here, and don't wait for decades like I did, and see your part in this bigger picture.

[Ernie Nemeth]

Flash, that is exactly what they think - that I am mentally deranged and should be on meds - like the rest of the universe. Of course the fact that I am more knowledgeable on virtually any subject they can think of doesn't help - since I am supposed to be insane.

[Flash]

Posted by Ernie Nemeth (here)
Flash, that is exactly what they think - that I am mentally deranged and should be on meds - like the rest of the universe. Of course the fact that I am more knowledgeable on virtually any subject they can think of doesn't help - since I am supposed to be insane.

Well, the insane friend I am talking about is in MENSA, has a very high IQ and he thinks that his brain processes much faster much more information and other do not understand bright people.

To tell the truth, I have seen and lived with high IQ people my whole life, and most are quite mentally stable, albeit sometimes desperate about the average human or a bit asocial because of boredom with average.

My friend hid his mental illness with the excuse of being overly intelligent. Nobody understood.

To tell the truth, he is so intelligent that it took me a while to understand what was going on, until he stopped his medication. OH LA LA! this was tough. His had nothing to do with high IQ but everything to do with mental illness.

His brain is fast, his knowledge good enough (lol not as much as mine in terms of knowledge) but the track his mind takes and the conclusions he arrives at are all but sane, his mind processing is fast, but pretty much off, completely outside reality or even outside remotely semblance of quantum thinking or quantum physic or spiritual development, whatever. He was off.... going the wrong path, and unstoppable because he thinks he is thinking right and fast.

He raised his children who are all traumatised by his behavior, life long trauma PTSD syndromes, and he does not even see it. They are the ones lamenting or inheriting from the mother lolllll.

Being intelligent, he still manages to hold a job and pay his condo fees, so nobody bothers him. And he won't get help, except for anti derpressants which is not the appropriate thing for him.

Natural medecine will work for depression Ernie, will work for many other things, but won't work if the brain has been irremediably damaged. And the person in it can't see it, as we cannot see the matrix while in it.

One day I told a friend "African women who had clitorectomy will never know what is a clitoridian orgasm, no more than a woman without children will ever know what is to have a child" to which she answered "ouf, you are hurtful" (she did not have a child). Same with mental illness, if you are not thinking straight, albeit you maybe fast, you do not know about it.

All this to say: you can be right, your family can be right, anyone can be right. And you are all wrong to be right.

I would look at the situation under a different angle if i were you and heartfully ask for forgiveness for having maybe hurt people unknowingly, and therefore ask for being a full family member.

Then I would wonder what in my own behavior caused their distress (nobody throws a family member out without having been quite distressed). Take the opportunity to look in depth and thank them for the life lesson.

Then I would see what I can change to make it better. The rest is theirs.

Finally, I am truly sorry for this to happen to you Ernie.

[Ernie Nemeth]

Thanks Flash - that won't happen. I am not big enough for that because I am hurt. See, I am the victim. It has been my role all my life. I know nothing else. Try as I may I cannot change that.

Oh well, I'll stop posting. Thanks for letting me bleed off some steam. I have no one in real life to do it with. Not many years left now, I'll be fine. This last weekend has aged me, my health blocks are failing. I'll be sick soon. All my bones ache. Time to go crawl back in my hole.

[Flash]

Posted by Ernie Nemeth (here)
Thanks Flash - that won't happen. I am not big enough for that because I am hurt. See, I am the victim. It has been my role all my life. I know nothing else. Try as I may I cannot change that.

Oh well, I'll stop posting. Thanks for letting me bleed off some steam. I have no one in real life to do it with. Not many years left now, I'll be fine. This last weekend has aged me, my health blocks are failing. I'll be sick soon. All my bones ache. Time to go crawl back in my hole.

you can get back healthy and not pay victim / aye, what is the word in English "bourreau" tormentor maybe, the victim / tormentor patterns. Unless you want to die in this pattern.

I am not big enough because I am hurt IS THE EGO TALKING. Not your soul. Your soul wants it to be different, just reach for it and leave the nasty little ego complainer to dry without emotional water.

Others are not here to get you, no more than you are here to be the black sheep. Stop accepting this and see what can be done. NOW.

[Flash]

Interesting, I was pushed out of a wedding too, outside Canada (my country), being put on side tables and not even showing up in my husband's family pictures (his brother was getting married). By that time, I had gotten quite overweight and did not know how it impacted on his family's mentality. But the most important I did not know was that an uncle was a very reknown actor in his country and they did not want newspaper gossips about the fat foreigner in the nephew's wedding.

They protected themselves and the uncle's career.

I kind of never truly digested it though, it is still on my stomach...... hum, I should truly let go of that one.

Posted by ulli (here)
@Ernie. When my former sister-in-law (Barbados hotel family) married a multi-millionaire my ex-husband and I were shoved in a corner as well, having to share the table with the Anglican bishop and his wife.
The thought that we were being shunned and dumped did cross my mind, but what's the point in wallowing and getting stressed?
So instead I made the most of the moment, enjoying the drunken Bishop's spilling out the most incredible gossip about British royalty (which at the time happened to be about the hospitalization of Princess Margaret's then boyfriend Roddy Llewellen) while Mrs. Bishop kept hissing at him sideways to shut up as he could be sued for libel. It was all too funny....

It took me years to realize what made my in-laws uncomfortable about me, enough so to banish their second-born along with me to the far corner.
Of course the obvious reason was that I was a German and my sis-in-law was getting married to a Jew, and they wanted to keep any controversial issues under control, but now that I'm older I can see in retrospect that IF had I always played by the rules of high society it could have been quite different.

Weddings are notorious for people getting drunk, and saying stuff that should have been kept under wraps.
And even though I was not a heavy drinker I was known for being quick-witted and sarcastic. It took me years of suffering before I understood that I had hurt many people with my comments back then.

So try and get some insights here, and don't wait for decades like I did, and see your part in this bigger picture.

[dan33]

Redford, Newman and his daughter during the shooting BUTCH AND SUNDANCE.

[dan33]

I read it this morning.
(en dos palabras im - presionante)

A great HUGH to ERNIE

http://http://www.freedomtek.org/en/texts/nikola_tesla_interview_1899.php

[ulli]

Posted by dan33 (here)
Redford, Newman and his daughter during the shooting BUTCH AND SUNDANCE.

I love this photo, Dan. Two worlds in one. Better than any UFO picture I've ever seen.

[ulli]

Posted by dan33 (here)
I read it this morning.
(en dos palabras im - presionante)

A great HUGH to ERNIE


http://http://www.freedomtek.org/en/texts/nikola_tesla_interview_1899.php

There were two "http://" in the link, so it couldn't open.
Oh, it is the same interview I believe I posted it a while ago. Yes, very interesting.

[RunningDeer]

Posted by ulli (here)

Posted by dan33 (here)
I read it this morning.
(en dos palabras im - presionante)

A great HUGH to ERNIE


http://http://www.freedomtek.org/en/texts/nikola_tesla_interview_1899.php

There were two "http://" in the link, so it couldn't open.
Oh, it is the same interview I believe I posted it a while ago. Yes, very interesting.

Interview with Nikola Tesla from 1899 (hidden for 116 years)

It’s a good article. This was a couple of my hi-lighted parts:

1) In it Tesla’s pulls no punches and reveals the great conspiracy of science that was well under way, the suppress the ether and the introduce a new fake science to conceal it as well as suppress the work of Tesla Himself.


2) Tesla: Yes, these are some of my most important discoveries. I’m a defeated man. I have not accomplished the greatest thing I could.
Journalist: What is it, Mr. Tesla?

Tesla: I wanted to illuminate the whole earth. There is enough electricity to become a second sun. Light would appear around the equator, as a ring around Saturn.

Mankind is not ready for the great and good. In Colorado Springs I soaked the earth by electricity. Also we can water the other energies, such as positive mental energy. They are in the music of Bach or Mozart, or in the verses of great poets. In the Earth’s interior, there are energy of Joy, Peace and Love. Their expressions are a flower that grows from the Earth, the food we get out of her and everything that makes man’s homeland. I’ve spent years looking for the way that this energy could influence people. The beauty and the scent of roses can be used as a medicine and the sun rays as a food.

Life has an infinite number of forms, and the duty of scientists is to find them in every form of matter. Three things are essential in this. All that I do is a search for them. I know I will not find them, but I will not give up on them.