Here and Now...What's Happening?

[Guest]

I'm truly sorry for your hurt and pain.

I love you.

Big Ernie


Nora

[Violet]

Lab, would you like to share the numbers with us?

[Dennis Leahy]

Posted by Ernie Nemeth (here)
...

Oh well, I'll stop posting. Thanks for letting me bleed off some steam. I have no one in real life to do it with. Not many years left now, I'll be fine. This last weekend has aged me, my health blocks are failing. I'll be sick soon. All my bones ache. Time to go crawl back in my hole.

Ernie, do you garden? If so, can I recommend immersing in it.

[araucaria]

Posted by dan33 (here)

Posted by Playdo of Ataraxas (here)

Posted by Carmody (here)
"who's driving the Dreambus?" is also essential viewing.

Oh the irony. The makers of the film keep slamming anyone who loads it on any given forum or location, and they charge money for a film which purports to be enlightening. And it is, it is quite good.

The mirrored insanity, the sheer contradiction of the money part.... is not lost on me.

A film that everyone should see, held, nay, forced behind a paywall..like coca-cola wanting everyone in the world to buy a coke.

Which is totally contradictory to the spirit of the film.

Why, Cowboy Neal is at the wheel, of course! "We are 4 dimensional beings in a 3 dimensional body in a two dimensional world....."

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=b58tNqSUv0I

Jack, Carolyn and Neal.





http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0080854/

They say the hardest typo to spot is the one right next to the one you just found. I answered the next post and hardly noticed this one – also because the reference was lost on me. What did happen though was this. Having bought Big Sur quite a few years ago for unobvious reasons of my own, and never really got into it, it finally caught my eye on Sunday (June 7) and this time I let it take me all the way to hell and back. (I’m not sure how deliberate the choice of Monsanto for a character’s name was…). Hell and back sounds like a long trip, but Jack Kerouac captures it in half a sentence. Since it’s about seeing things with fresh eyes, I’ll give you it (and a little more) in French

et moi, désespéré et harassé, je reste assis, au soleil, et je ferme les yeux; et sous mes paupières s’insinue la paix bienheureuse du Paradis. Elle vient et répand sur moi, de sa douce main, une suave bénédiction aussi bienfaisante qu’infinie. Je m’endors.

[Violet]

Here and now recovering from turbulencies, and it's only 14.45. I better stay locked up here and don't move. Too much unpredictability in the air.

This morning at breakfast, our toddler asks for some olive oil over his boiled egg. When it was his brother's turn, he heard him say no to the olive oil, and all of a sudden his own plate didn't appeal to him anymore. It appeared to him now smeared by the olive oil he had just enthusiastically asked for. I tried to ignore it but he then threw over his plate, spilled the sliced eggs all over and almost pushed over the milk as well. Then starts...the scream (which basically is the only reason I don't wake them up - even - earlier to get things managed in time).

At this point it's 7.30 AM. Older one is done eating and is just sitting around. I ask him to go prepare his rucksack, and he loses it. Only elementary school, already getting harder everyday to ask him to do things. I made step-by-step cards for every occasion (morning routine, bathroom rituals, coming home checklist). He just doesn't like to be addressed. He stands up mumbling angry words and finds that his apple box has been replaced by his brothers' spare one, because of circumstances. He doesn't understand why I did that and continues on exploding. I tell him that if he doesn't calm down, he will not be able to hear me explain. He doesn't want me to explain and starts running around the kitchen nervously, by now in fumes. I'm sad at this point because I can't calm him down. He's in tears and raging. I repeat that he should calm down, and he now runs away to another room. We have to leave for school in 15 minutes. Meanwhile youngest one is still screamin' and hollerin' about the egg deal, he did not have breakfast yet because he was too busy...screaming. Plus he's not dressed for school yet because I can't dress him before he's eaten the eggs. He's not such a clean eater, as you may have deduced. Plus, he now wants to give the eating another go, 10 minutes left.

I try to get the older one to continue on preparing himself and he says I should shut it. Okay, that's it, I say. And then he says the meanest thing - which of course is no more or no less than emotional manipulation - he says: look at you, you're making everyone sad, first my brother, now me, this is all your fault.

And dad was not home this morning because he had to drop off his parents in a faraway place. Still thinking if/how I will tell him because of older one maybe playing us out against each other.

Later on, when I went to get the children at midday, I almost got run over by a truck that was leaving an enclosed parking (bad visibility, they should install mirrors at the exit). He just did not step on his brake (where did I see this before?) and when I skilfully manoeuvred around him, he had the nerve to shout that this was not a bicycle path!

He must be a big fan of Magritte:



And I was not to be late at school. So, I said the necessary words and left the man to figure out the possible meaning of color coding on sidewalks.

We only just got the autism diagnosis. When I got the children from school, they were all happy and jolly, again...as if nothing had ever happened.

[Flash]

Sorry for the autism diagnostic Violet. The good news is that it is most probably high functioning autism, which mean your child may have a pretty normal life once over the basic childhood autism hurdle.

With autism, everything has to be ritualistic, they get pretty insecure pretty fast - like the egg/oil change for example may do it. And of course, one's mood will contaminate the other's, even if the other is not autistic. Routine and do's and don't will have to be quite steady and firm. You will have help, you are in a develop country. Take all the help you can and do ask for parental respite help (baby sitting) and do go away with your husband at times, to make sure you both can handle the situation together.

I am happy mine is grown up and basically fine all over now. But I do understand.

Posted by Violet (here)
Here and now recovering from turbulencies, and it's only 14.45. I better stay locked up here and don't move. Too much unpredictability in the air.

This morning at breakfast, our toddler asks for some olive oil over his boiled egg. When it was his brother's turn, he heard him say no to the olive oil, and all of a sudden his own plate didn't appeal to him anymore. It appeared to him now smeared by the olive oil he had just enthusiastically asked for. I tried to ignore it but he then threw over his plate, spilled the sliced eggs all over and almost pushed over the milk as well. Then starts...the scream (which basically is the only reason I don't wake them up - even - earlier to get things managed in time).

At this point it's 7.30 AM. Older one is done eating and is just sitting around. I ask him to go prepare his rucksack, and he loses it. Only elementary school, already getting harder everyday to ask him to do things. I made step-by-step cards for every occasion (morning routine, bathroom rituals, coming home checklist). He just doesn't like to be addressed. He stands up mumbling angry words and finds that his apple box has been replaced by his brothers' spare one, because of circumstances. He doesn't understand why I did that and continues on exploding. I tell him that if he doesn't calm down, he will not be able to hear me explain. He doesn't want me to explain and starts running around the kitchen nervously, by now in fumes. I'm sad at this point because I can't calm him down. He's in tears and raging. I repeat that he should calm down, and he now runs away to another room. We have to leave for school in 15 minutes. Meanwhile youngest one is still screamin' and hollerin' about the egg deal, he did not have breakfast yet because he was too busy...screaming. Plus he's not dressed for school yet because I can't dress him before he's eaten the eggs. He's not such a clean eater, as you may have deduced. Plus, he now wants to give the eating another go, 10 minutes left.

I try to get the older one to continue on preparing himself and he says I should shut it. Okay, that's it, I say. And then he says the meanest thing - which of course is no more or no less than emotional manipulation - he says: look at you, you're making everyone sad, first my brother, now me, this is all your fault.

And dad was not home this morning because he had to drop off his parents in a faraway place. Still thinking if/how I will tell him because of older one maybe playing us out against each other.

Later on, when I went to get the children at midday, I almost got run over by a truck that was leaving an enclosed parking (bad visibility, they should install mirrors at the exit). He just did not step on his brake (where did I see this before?) and when I skilfully manoeuvred around him, he had the nerve to shout that this was not a bicycle path!

He must be a big fan of Magritte:



And I was not to be late at school. So, I said the necessary words and left the man to figure out the possible meaning of color coding on sidewalks.

We only just got the autism diagnosis. When I got the children from school, they were all happy and jolly, again...as if nothing had ever happened.

[RunningDeer]

Posted by Violet (here)
Here and now recovering from turbulencies, and it's only 14.45. I better stay locked up here and don't move. Too much unpredictability in the air.

This morning at breakfast, ...

Bless you, Violet and your family. :teddybear hug:

[Violet]

Thank you, Paula, Flash, I have to resist the temptation to wish this can be all over soon. Inasmuch as possible, I do want to enjoy their childhood with them, not have it be over too fast. And them being with me while they are still children, and me having the privilige to look through their glasses at the world. Children have cool glasses. When they grow up, they will build their own lives and probably see me less, I want to have something to look back on.

Above, I pictured a snapshot. It sounds unbelievable but, the evening was quite enjoyable really...That's how it goes. The wobbles are very steep and sharp (especially the screaming), and you can't predict when it's coming. You can prepare all you like, be as well-intended and loving as you wish, when it comes, it's there. I guess for them it's not a big deal, now they scream, now they cry, now they laugh, move on...but it is draining. We're in this alone, we have a fragmented family. Occasional meetings are (for me) very intense, because I wish, I wish, oh I wish so much and why can't we all just live in peace, but it's superficial; when it's over, it's back to business.

I do have conversations with the kids about what happened when things are stable again. The goal is to express our feelings both ways, get an understanding of what happened and how it may be done differently in the future. However, if you have too many of these conversations it becomes ridiculous, so I do skip where I can.

I updated my WtMo-album with a new quick sketch image from June 5th, and for Lab I have this number: 17.

And I had an interesting bit of text by Jung that I was going to paraphrase, because it's a Dutch translation, but I'll save it for later.

And now, I think I'll go watch a movie and get in early.

Post-update: forgot to say bless you too, Paula.

[PurpleLama]

http://thomassheridanofficialblog.bl...sta_9.html?m=1

[RunningDeer]

FYI: SabreToothMom is requesting assistance. Please see post 207 for details.

"...So if anyone is so inclined to send some prayers and/or good vibes my way while I'm here in limbo, I would be so thankful...

thank you.... "

[dan33]

[RunningDeer]

Posted by dan33 (here)

Dan, the pictures don't come up because you have a double "http://http:" in the address. If you go back to edit your post you'll see that extra "http:". Here's a visual of one of your addresses:

Suggestion: delete the "http:" before you add your address:

[Playdo of Ataraxas]

Posted by PurpleLama (here)
http://thomassheridanofficialblog.bl...sta_9.html?m=1

Harumph!

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=8C8_YTIqQXk

[Guest]

Mercury turned direct at 3:33 pm PST. Yes!!!!

Neptune is station and turns retrograde in 9 degrees Pisces tomorrow at 2:08 am PST. Easier to "see" more clearly. Neptunian Lucidity
Feeliing, sensitive, psychic, healing, spirit communication and much more aware (inward & outward) that includes above & below -the veil(s) thins, lifts.... For those who already have natal Neptune retrograde you're inclined to be more sensitive than you already are.

Watched Tom's Pele report today and thought of you Violet being a Gemini.
Mars is in conjunction with Sun in Gemini and new moon in Gemini on Tuesday.

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=njff6j04VWI

Sitting on my front porch in a beautiful Spring twilight evening in the forest . It's so calm but so alive. The birds are calling from their places in the trees they sound very happy.


Love

Nora


and Flash and PL Hugs

[Stephanie]

Posted by Violet (here)
Thank you, Paula, Flash, I have to resist the temptation to wish this can be all over soon. Inasmuch as possible, I do want to enjoy their childhood with them, not have it be over too fast. And them being with me while they are still children, and me having the privilige to look through their glasses at the world. Children have cool glasses. When they grow up, they will build their own lives and probably see me less, I want to have something to look back on.

Above, I pictured a snapshot. It sounds unbelievable but, the evening was quite enjoyable really...That's how it goes. The wobbles are very steep and sharp (especially the screaming), and you can't predict when it's coming. You can prepare all you like, be as well-intended and loving as you wish, when it comes, it's there. I guess for them it's not a big deal, now they scream, now they cry, now they laugh, move on...but it is draining. We're in this alone, we have a fragmented family. Occasional meetings are (for me) very intense, because I wish, I wish, oh I wish so much and why can't we all just live in peace, but it's superficial; when it's over, it's back to business.

Post-update: forgot to say bless you too, Paula.

Dearest loving, caring Violet,
you really are more wonderful and stronger than you realize.
Sending you calming strength and patience, for all the moments of your days,
and unifying hugs of harmony and balance, for you and yours.

May all your wishes come true.

Like Flash, you will see the results of being such an amazingly wonderful parent.

[Carmody]

It is possible to nail down the fundamentals in two or three posts.

In a world with negative pressures, after reading the posts....one can see why it gets pushed out of people's minds.

https://projectavalon.net/forum4/show...l=1#post968856

That fear contraction in the hindbrain, as a first principle filter in the avatar....forcing all else out of existence.

[Flash]

Yes, accepting and processing paradox is one of the difficult training of the brain, it takes a while, for those who do it.

Adding critical thinking to it is yet more training. Emotional brain often takes over through fear or discomfort and then you have what you described below.

Repetition is needed. Security feeling is needed. Both are being worked on us but in opposite direction: repetition of violence and everything that makes us thrilled but insecure on one hand, and abolition of critical thinking time/potentials on the other hand. Paradox therefore standing alone creating fear and endless search for security.

But.... there is a limit to it, after a given threshold, even the dummies get enough and reject first the paradox, then the imposed entrainment. I hope.

Posted by Carmody (here)
It is possible to nail down the fundamentals in two or three posts.

In a world with negative pressures, after reading the posts....one can see why it gets pushed out of people's minds.

https://projectavalon.net/forum4/show...l=1#post968856

That fear contraction in the hindbrain, as a first principle filter in the avatar....forcing all else out of existence.

[meeradas]

Trip has been totally different from the planned...
e.g. Caminito del Rey has to be reservated now, after its re-opening, and not a single day isn't fully booked...
(who wants to go anyway: El Chorro is worth a trip even without the camino.)
Thus, relaxation suggested & emphasized itself naturally:


[the only thing "doable" at 42°C]












[ha! How bout a nice lil cuppa meat?!]












[to remove all doubts about my whereabouts]

[dan33]

The Dolby Atmos technology allows up to 128 audio tracks plus associated pan metadata to be distributed to theaters for optimal, dynamic rendering to loudspeakers based on the theater capabilities.

Dolby Atmos enables acceleration and reconstruction of DNA in galactic time. HaN technology.
DOLBY. We have been here for millions of years.









THANKS PAULA!

[dan33]

Posted by dan33 (here)

...but the good news is, Meeradas is Jumping!


"... and, that's him, Meeradas. I gave him your hat".

"He wears it with dignity.
A question. Why is he jumping so much this boy?"

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=Zmony8hsgu8