Pre-emptive good-bye and thanks so much

[Lost N Found]

Calz, I am brought to tears over this thread. It is hard to say in words what true feelings from heart and soul express. I for one do not believe we will stop or be put down, Our lives, love, essence will continue no matter what the dark side tries to do. This Jade Helm thingy I see more as a psyop and yes it could be some what real but I live in one of the States that it is suppose to take place and I have not seen any of the fear porn stuff that is all over the internet these days. I also do believe that this internet will continue simply because where life is life will always find a way to continue, that is somewhat a quote from one of those Jurassic movies but It has a solid ring of truth.

Some one else I know has stated that they fully intend to be around for the duration of this existence here in this plane of flesh and soul searching. Well I do also. I have stated to my closest loved ones that they, the dark ones if you will can have this flesh but they will not get the soul, so that in itself gives peace and I can find that bright light to guide me through this dark time of SHTF stuff. There is always the light figures here and always will be. This forum will be here even through the rough times. There are so many lights, It is way bright and you are surrounded by this. I may be wrong in my thinking but you are a part of the whole we are all part of the whole. Another light brother has said that we should all look in the eyes of the children and keep them safe to come into their own, May not of stated that right but I do agree with it. Here is something to listen to if you get the chance, The Moody blues Album Children's, Children's, Cgukdreb's, will bring peace.

Stay here and you have said that. Know that the love flows like a river and jump in. Love from a brother

[Calz]

Most of my time here was spent trying to keep the "vibes" light despite what the times seem to suggest we now face.

I don't mean to bring anyone down or take away from what fuels those with continued optimism.

I fully understand that "reality" trickles down to 3D physicality and it seems my view is limited to looking at the ground level.

Some I know and trust are quite convinced things will result in a dramatically positive outcome.

I hope they are right ... after facing up to a lifetime of lies at most every level ... I now simply look at what I can "see".


Those with deeper metaphysical understandings or suggest we are simply jumping timelines ... hey ... good on ya.


I look at what appears remarkably obvious ... and wonder why it isn't clear to everyone else.


There are no saviors coming ... up to us.


I won't list any more reasons beyond what I already have in this thread (there are many) ... I will simply offer hope that I am wrong for believing such ...


I have zero doubt Gaia will be fine as well as our souls.

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=m8hTm-0Pf84

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=pyEkaGUQ5Tw

[araucaria]

Since we're quoting Tolkien, remember the job only gets done through the nasties:

Posted by araucaria (here)

Posted by Silkie (here)
Hopefully, their desire for self-preservation will lead to their own downfall.

p.s. Once Upon a Time in the West; one of the best movies ever made.

Or The Lord of the Rings (the book):

Posted by araucaria (here)
The illusion of a crowning moment of ultimate achievement is actually the cause of your undoing. This is the message at the end of The Lord of the Rings where the actual final clutching of the coveted ring sends both Gollum and the ring toppling into the abyss. There is no ultimate prize, just what people in business call milestones.

[Ernie Nemeth]

I'm not going to butter you up. It's not my place. I follow you , though, and I know some of your story. You have always kept the peace and held to higher standards than most here.

I am not going to survive a systems crash if food and shelter and rule of law disintegrate. I don't want to. My sensibilities will not allow me to live in such a world.

But I am not the least bit afraid. I don't worry about death - it will come when it comes. Just like I will not have my chest cracked open for a bypass or new heart valves or any of those incredibly invasive medical procedures most would go for. And no radiation and chemo treatments either. And no pills or drugs. So I am already set to die if I become unhealthy - unless a healthy non-invasive alternate therapy is available instead. I have no faith whatsoever in our medical system. Yet I have to pay 60% of my taxes for our healthcare system that I will never avail myself of no matter what.

Rumors rarely affect me negatively. I don't believe most of their stories anyway. Sure there are aliens, why wouldn't there be? Yes there is most likely a breakaway society where most of our taxes and goods disappear to fund and outfit. Yes there are agendas on this planet that has nothing to do with humanity. So what, it's been like that since way before recorded history. They lie and cheat and mislead the public - hell, my father is the first one ever to lie to me, it's human nature, they say. Who cares.

God is dead because our god is too little. Not because there is no god. The bugger is very good at hide and seek and we're it!

Every country on earth is in debt up to their eyeballs. Why? Why is there no country on the planet with a surplus from taxes collected from these bankers and their massive profits? Why? - because we don't ask that question. Where is all this money. Canada just made a $16bln payment to its central bank, Greece injected, what?, $112bln? Where's our cut in the form of taxes? I got to say this again - IF ALL THE COUNTRIES IN THE WORLD ARE IN DEBT.....WHO THE FUUUUCK HAS ALL THE MONEY?!?

I could go on.

Calz, don't go! We will regret it. And so will you.

[RunningDeer]

Posted by Calz (here)
Some I know and trust are quite convinced things will result in a dramatically positive outcome.

I hope they are right ... after facing up to a lifetime of lies at most every level ... I now simply look at what I can "see".

I spent a couple of hours in the state forest today. I caught myself saying this is what it’s like to be happy and peaceful for no reason. Then I watched myself cancel it out and replace it with a belief that it’s impossible to sustain this quiet-intensity. Then inner knowing reminded that happy and peaceful is “the normal”.

Now I get it. Anything that may or may not happen is okay because now I get it. Carefree. Worry-free. All the rest is a mind game.

I walked out of the forest both tall and rooted into Mother herself. I'm filled with..."I’m as prepared as I can be, need to be. This spirit-filled body holds the space and that’s plenty enough."

RunningDeer ♡

[onawah]

Calzy, please take heart, my bet is we will still be here to share more insights in the days and months and years to come.
It is precisely because of many of the kids who are being born and coming of age today that I am hopeful.
So many of them seem to know a lot more than the rest of us, whether they are saying what they know or not.
I don't think the kids who are coming here from far away are coming here with any intention of being martyred, but of ushering in a new day, and the ones who are coming back, who have been here before, are probably going to be catching on quickly when the new leadership takes charge, and it's going to be something to see!

Posted by Calz (here)

Posted by Paul (here)

Posted by Bubu (here)
And what do they gain or lose if a very small number of perceptive people survive or thrive or not?

Beats me ... but I wouldn't mind if me and my kin were amongst the survivors .

In other words, I'm not doing this for the ultimate goal of influencing the gain or loss of the bastards in power. I'm doing this for the benefit of myself, my kin, humanity and all that's good.

I tried ... and tried ... desperately to convince my wife to take our family abroad (as Bill has suggested) but to no avail.

The hold of the matrix is so strong.

She thinks I should ... see someone about my problem ...


I am ready to cross ... no problem there ... my pain is that I have two children and what have we left them with???

[Rocky_Shorz]

Posted by Calz (here)
No not leaving ...

Not to sound dramatic ... 5 days until Jade Helm 15 "officially" starts.

Cal

Bush has a broken neck after his Cartel started robbing Californians...

you think I get pissed about gas prices, imagine if they took my internet away...


they aren't stupid, the illuminati understand who and what I am and are on egg shells hoping I don't go Postal...


don't worry my friends, no huge changes are going to happen, we are going through a gradual transition.


ETs handed the technology to Russia to turn our carriers into floating bathtubs...

the war machine is done, Plasma energy is out of the bag...

these wimpering wimps, are losing their control over us.


We have Trump moving into the white house for two reasons...


one to sign the bankrupcy, and move to the new system

the other is to walk up to Obama, shake his hand, and say...


You're Fired...


then his career will be complete...

[3(C)+me]

I worked damn hard to get to the place that I am at now, I thank source daily because I can sleep with no worries. I gave up a lot, went through some brutal changes, had to let some long term friends go and had to deal with my shadow self and all those parts of myself I hide from myself for so long.
I am not going anywhere anytime soon. I am going to stick around to see how it all goes because I want to be here for the big show or long transition.
I am going to be here come rain or shine.

[Lost N Found]

Well Calz, Looks like there are so many folks that want your presence around. See, you can be here and we all gather down in the river to pray. Well I can't say much more than I am glad you are here and I will be here for all of us no matter what. All of these Posts give heart and do give positive feelings. Just a gift, It is hot here and the beer is cold. I see the blue sky and feel the love and light and know that we all will be here to give. CCCME we all work damn hard to get where we are now and I just enjoy it. Thank you all for being here in this time.

[Bob]

So Calz good buddy... I still remember yur great post on Tot welcoming me there..

Bob is in the house???

sweet!!!

Sure gonna miss ya.. party on dude!

[Desire]

You are protected Calz.Feel it

love you
Desire

[Calz]

Posted by Ernie Nemeth (here)

God is dead because our god is too little. Not because there is no god. The bugger is very good at hide and seek and we're it!

Ernie you are one of the ... sensitive ones.

You have access to information that many do not.


That said ... psychic information need be balanced.


I held off in a music thread ... but will post this here in hopes that members will not misunderstand the intent.


The concept of "god" is so varied and so misunderstood.


Enki or Enlil ... angry jealous god or loving god???


... or something much GREATER???


My honest opinion is the globalists will follow through on their holographic trickery whether regarding false flag asteroid attacks (aka deathbed admissions) or those darn pesky invading aliens.


Who wrote the bible?


Who changed the bible over the years?


Why are so very many convinced of bible prophecy that they are oblivious to anything else?


Why are so very many (name one country who is not) eagerly marching towards bible prophecy for the "end of the world" ...


wait ... what ... ???


wake up peeps ... time grows short.


Posting a song that needs an alert to religious and language sensitivities.



It'll piss many off ... if you don't want to go there then don't ... you know ... like not facing what we as humanity must now do ...


(my view of the "Creator" has nothing to do with this ... "She" is Gaia and that is another story ...)


(oooops ... guess I have gone just a bit off topic)

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=6TdmFfigXSo

[Ernie Nemeth]

The reason so many believe those prophecies or any other dogma is because it is easier than searching for your own truth.

Avalon has disavowed me of so many lies and introduced so many obscure topics that it was only natural that one day I would question my most fundamental beliefs. It worked! And I am grateful.

Like I've recently said a few times, there are some with such long agendas that unless you've been exposed to it in some intimate way it is hard to believe some can plan so far in advance and then stick to it.

I like to think that the side of good has such forethought. When they are needed, truly needed, they will be there - ready to do what must be done. Actually, I think most of us will.

I heard it said recently that only 2.5% of humanity is good, the rest straddle the fence or are downright evil. I don't think so. I think almost everybody is good, they are just under a spell - they'll snap out of it when the time is right, I know they will. And when that day comes there will be so much goodwill wafting around that everyone will suddenly have a change of heart.

Until that time, we have only each other.

I know I come across as a bit of a bore, maybe even snobbish, but that is just my public face. I am best one-on-one. You'd be surprised, perhaps.

My pain is false, I am not a victim. Nor are you.

I love you, Calz. Believe it or not.

Peace brother

[Deega]

Hi Calz, I don't think that the Globalists will shut the Internet, they (Globalists) and their workers (slaves), and their collaborators (other Globalists) use the Internet constantly. There is to much money (again) involved, it bring in taxes (I know, on our back) to the Banksters, why cut the inflow, if there is something, it will opened up more and more reaching Underdeveloped Nations (as the Globalists qualify them).

Even the Globalists have a hearth, for money I should say!, not to save the Earth, or, there is money to be made, but they too have children, and they usually bring in lessons, so who knows.

In your last post, you were asking who wrote the Bible, you already know the answer, the Jewish writers of yesterday, based on the Sumer and Mesopotania History and then the Jewish People History.

Why so many people believe in the Prophecies of the Bibile? I think that we are all insecured, we were brought to Earth, not knowing who we are, where we come from, where we're heading, no wonder so many people believe in these prophecies, I don't particularly! My Gods are what have me living, the Air, the Water, the Earth, the Fire, the Eather, the People, the Universe like you probably!

And whatever happened, we will try to find a way to go with the flow the best we can, I guess!

Blessing to you Calz.

[Calz]

Posted by Ernie Nemeth (here)

My pain is false, I am not a victim. Nor are you.

I love you, Calz. Believe it or not.

Peace brother

I love you too Ernie ... no reason for belief.


So ... what shall we do?


What can be done?


You see things from a ... different angle ... all ends up in the same space.


There are a lot of members here.


Many suggest our reality is formed from several levels and that is what comes our way.


I don't know ... but I don't have any doubt regardless.

[Ernie Nemeth]

What can be done? I would have said have faith and trust in the good in this world. But I suspect faith has a lot to do with our current problems. Trust is another thing. Trust is born of knowledge and experience.

What can be done? We are already doing it.

I don't think there are any specifics, just keep on keeping on.

[betoobig]

Still here, loving you all...
Juan

[sunpaw]

- Maybe you got overwhelmed by 'humanity' on one side and finding a solution for yourself and extend that to a small circle (loved ones...) on the other (is it possible to balance that alone?)
- Having noticed yourself (sensitive maybe and aware(er)) that energies are different - and noticing others notice too. Again what are you actually try to balance. Others are all others, with different motivation, intent)

Each point so far is rather huge.

I experienced being 'not me' while I actually thought I was 'better' because 'I notice, I am aware, I prepare, I act' - last year.
I went over board, frantic. How so?

I want to be happy, I want the place to be a nice one. So I do what I can. So I also wanted inform myself, notice for myself..
However my connection to 'something is up' led rather to open the door to destruction rather than being prepared.
I went crazy when a storm with heavy rain hit and I wanted to save my tomato plants (literally). However they had grown within the dryer rack - so I needed them 'untangled'. I even asked for help - the storm already there. The person at least understood my point, but also realized it can't be done. Instead of going with the flow (and GETTING the situation) - I wanted them out and save and proof a point I guess. I thought a fast move like with band aids would do the trick. It didn't and I repeated and repeated. I was totally worked up - I needed to save my plants.
I actually ripped away the fruits and leaves, had the plants badly damaged. I had screamed and ranted at the person, and all the while (like 5 minutes) the storm (weather) passed.
I could have just stand there, enjoying the elements, shielding the plants - instead I caused destruction on so many levels. On myself too - bc I realized I destroyed, attacked and felt bad. Besides having damaged my plants.
It seems ridiculous, just some plants and couples fight. But it isn't. Doom sneaking in was like a blanket on my knowing, experiencing, confidence, .....
I KNEW and EXPERIENCED bad stuff can be handled - just differently. From me, from trust. I didn't trust the elements, the plants, the person, I was out of touch with myself.Driven and even thought I am right.

So I closed the door (where the doom came through). I look for uplifting even when its about serious topics. I reconnected with my inner strength, my wish to experience good, to be happy - even if bad stuff happens along the way. I thought about (and we talked then about) just leaving.
But we like it here. And there is a sense of defending that. Nobody showed up, bullied, beat, shoot - still there was damage and destruction, shaken people - without lifting a finger. Other than maybe typing up some doom gloom which connected to my engaging with my surrounding.

I want other people too to not to be forced to leave. By going away - I can't expect that.
Going away was going back to myself first.
And its hard to imagine humanity as whole or more than a 'big word'. Humanity - goes back to the strangers on the bus, the cashier, my class, coworkers too.
They might not look up and notice chemtrails, they might not realize what is going on politically, they might think ETs are syfy.
However they try to be happy, try to work hard and be good, try to get better health. They might be sensitive without realizing - carrying the weigh of the world on their shoulders too. Which shows by no happy facial expression, getting irritated by little stuff - and so don't even have time to look around.
So I carry with them and give them a good thought or a smile. I connect by looking someone in the eye who cleans the street. To people (when I get groceries for instance) I say thank you and please and have a nice day - because I mean it.
I feed birds still - because it feels right even though others think otherwise.
Home is where I am happy. If I would leave because I fear - I couldn't express myself and its just another place where I am not happy.

I am not saying you shouldn't leave. It should be for the right reasons - reasons for you. You don't have to carry the weight alone and leaving to a quieter place might be needed so you won't get crushed. Let it be then to power up yourself, to get out of the chaos. Not out of fear, but to get a different view on stuff.
If you leave because you somehow feel anxiously driven - it probably isn't you. At least it wasn't me when I felt driven. Or it was a part I identified not useful and not healthy and not bringing happiness I wanted in the first place.
Its not selfish to want to be happy. From there I expect I can actually help. Me, others.
And being anxious - I am on the suffering side of humanity under the heavy blanket. And why? Because of the little door open, doom sneaking in tarnished as 'I care, I share, I am concerned'. Which held my inner trust hostage and kicked me around - and I destroyed.
I think its possible you might experience the same - so I wanted share my experience and thoughts.

Find your inner trust.
If things really go bad - it might be all you have - yourself. And its all you need to start over.

I am also glad you started the topic - it helped me to check the ground, resources.
I wish you well wherever.

[Debra]

Don't forget you, my friend, listen to your magnificent heart and let love expand the way out. Trust.

The reality you see, is the sum of everything you have absorbed and that amount of distillation and synthesis is just incredible. You have gone there and looked it deeply in the eye and from many different directions. I am in awe of that. I honour you. And I also seriously note how freaking creative you are - how your energy moves and lights up bars from Mars to Alpha Centauri.

Calzy ...

We are still here. How about that!? We got to take that crocodile and smoke it. And ask with great curiosity and a sense of adventure, what's next? Dang, there must be something more to this life on Gaia.

There is more to me, I know. As for you, there better be

[Calz]

Hey Z!

Thanks for that.

Seeing your name here brought back to mind ... *that* ... thread.

................................................................

You know the one ...


https://projectavalon.net/forum4/show...light=universe


What a ride that one was eh?



Perhaps not the best thread ... but certainly the most fun.

Not high on the "signal to noise" chart. Poor Paul didn't know what to make of us crazies ....



I miss those days.