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    I don't know why I feel so confused now. I mean everything that I love about the universe, stars, cosmos, ET's, etc. are viewed differently. all these years growing up and into my adult hood things that are taught in society that are "sinful" per say I have done. I am in no way shape or form perfect at all.

    in the beginning I was all about reading my bible and praying and sharing the word but I got severely distracted and fell out of it and now I am finding out the truth about things and where I am from and all that and wondering where I missed the mark in my awakening sooner?! I don't know I am just tired of living in fear of what will happen if I do this or that. I feel so conditioned its insane.....

    Sorry today has been such a horrible day I feel completely drained I didn't sleep at all last night. When I was meditating someone called out my name. and said "Hey Mari" I opened my eyes and looked around...no one was there at all. I freaked because I thought someone was in my apartment. Then I was seeing all kinds of things during my meditation like a big cat like person....and outline of a woman and flashes of light everywhere...so confusing because I don't know what they mean?!

    I am really trying hard to force the information out of myself and I know that's not the correct way from what I am being told.

    Please don't judge me...I am new here :/.. Has anyone else here felt like this?! Like my question is did you believe in God and/or saved before awakening?! or am I the only confused person here and I need to figure out what "I feel" is right?! any and all links to articles or videos is welcomed. also you can private message me as well.

    Thanks for reading.

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    I don't know why I feel so confused now. I mean everything that I love about the universe, stars, cosmos, ET's, etc. are viewed differently. all these years growing up and into my adult hood things that are taught in society that are "sinful" per say I have done. I am in no way shape or form perfect at all.

    in the beginning I was all about reading my bible and praying and sharing the word but I got severely distracted and fell out of it and now I am finding out the truth about things and where I am from and all that and wondering where I missed the mark in my awakening sooner?! I don't know I am just tired of living in fear of what will happen if I do this or that. I feel so conditioned its insane.....

    Sorry today has been such a horrible day I feel completely drained I didn't sleep at all last night. When I was meditating someone called out my name. and said "Hey Mari" I opened my eyes and looked around...no one was there at all. I freaked because I thought someone was in my apartment. Then I was seeing all kinds of things during my meditation like a big cat like person....and outline of a woman and flashes of light everywhere...so confusing because I don't know what they mean?!

    I am really trying hard to force the information out of myself and I know that's not the correct way from what I am being told.

    Please don't judge me...I am new here :/.. Has anyone else here felt like this?! Like my question is did you believe in God and/or saved before awakening?! or am I the only confused person here and I need to figure out what "I feel" is right?! any and all links to articles or videos is welcomed. also you can private message me as well.

    Thanks for reading.
    I felt like that in the beginning. I was terrified. That was in 1979. It gets better with time. But I would say, don't force yourself. There is no need to force yourself.

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    I don't know why I feel so confused now. I mean everything that I love about the universe, stars, cosmos, ET's, etc. are viewed differently. all these years growing up and into my adult hood things that are taught in society that are "sinful" per say I have done. I am in no way shape or form perfect at all.

    in the beginning I was all about reading my bible and praying and sharing the word but I got severely distracted and fell out of it and now I am finding out the truth about things and where I am from and all that and wondering where I missed the mark in my awakening sooner?! I don't know I am just tired of living in fear of what will happen if I do this or that. I feel so conditioned its insane.....

    Sorry today has been such a horrible day I feel completely drained I didn't sleep at all last night. When I was meditating someone called out my name. and said "Hey Mari" I opened my eyes and looked around...no one was there at all. I freaked because I thought someone was in my apartment. Then I was seeing all kinds of things during my meditation like a big cat like person....and outline of a woman and flashes of light everywhere...so confusing because I don't know what they mean?!

    I am really trying hard to force the information out of myself and I know that's not the correct way from what I am being told.

    Please don't judge me...I am new here :/.. Has anyone else here felt like this?! Like my question is did you believe in God and/or saved before awakening?! or am I the only confused person here and I need to figure out what "I feel" is right?! any and all links to articles or videos is welcomed. also you can private message me as well.

    Thanks for reading.
    I felt like that in the beginning. I was terrified. That was in 1979. It gets better with time. But I would say, don't force yourself. There is no need to force yourself.
    Thank you for your reply Selkie. So basically what I am feeling is normal?! whatever normal is anymore LOL

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    Most of what you have described is similar in peoples first awakenings. When we discover that most everything we have been taught is not the truth. I can relate to the feelings you have regarding religion and sin. We were taught in Catholic school that unless the books about religion/creation, etc.. were published and approved by the catholic church it was a sin to read them. Astrology was a sin.... This list goes on and on. After a few years of following my new path. I no longer suffered my Catholic guilt. I agree with Selkie! It gets better over time.

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    I don't know why I feel so confused now. I mean everything that I love about the universe, stars, cosmos, ET's, etc. are viewed differently. all these years growing up and into my adult hood things that are taught in society that are "sinful" per say I have done. I am in no way shape or form perfect at all.

    in the beginning I was all about reading my bible and praying and sharing the word but I got severely distracted and fell out of it and now I am finding out the truth about things and where I am from and all that and wondering where I missed the mark in my awakening sooner?! I don't know I am just tired of living in fear of what will happen if I do this or that. I feel so conditioned its insane.....

    Sorry today has been such a horrible day I feel completely drained I didn't sleep at all last night. When I was meditating someone called out my name. and said "Hey Mari" I opened my eyes and looked around...no one was there at all. I freaked because I thought someone was in my apartment. Then I was seeing all kinds of things during my meditation like a big cat like person....and outline of a woman and flashes of light everywhere...so confusing because I don't know what they mean?!

    I am really trying hard to force the information out of myself and I know that's not the correct way from what I am being told.

    Please don't judge me...I am new here :/.. Has anyone else here felt like this?! Like my question is did you believe in God and/or saved before awakening?! or am I the only confused person here and I need to figure out what "I feel" is right?! any and all links to articles or videos is welcomed. also you can private message me as well.

    Thanks for reading.
    welcome Mari, Forget it for a little while just a little while and you go take a little walk in the woods on beaches go biking. The answer may or may not come to you but dont you mind it just have some fun and away from these confusions. IMO we dont have a freewill to choose what to do, we are guided by the universe all the while on a preset path, the universe is in perfect harmony The good news however is that we have the freewill to choose how we feel going about the preset path and this for the most part 99.9 percent is what matters. In the end of the boyscout trip there is only one question that matters. Did you have fun ?. Enjoy your 3D adventure.

    PS There is a lot of confused soul, this include me at times so dont bother
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    Quote Posted by Jean-Marie (here)
    Most of what you have described is similar in peoples first awakenings. When we discover that most everything we have been taught is not the truth. I can relate to the feelings you have regarding religion and sin. We were taught in Catholic school that unless the books about religion/creation, etc.. were published and approved by the catholic church it was a sin to read them. Astrology was a sin.... This list goes on and on. After a few years of following my new path. I no longer suffered my Catholic guilt. I agree with Selkie! It gets better over time.

    Hugs to you!

    -jean-marie
    Thank you Jean-Marie. this makes a lot more sense to me now. :') #happytears

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    I don't know why I feel so confused now. I mean everything that I love about the universe, stars, cosmos, ET's, etc. are viewed differently. all these years growing up and into my adult hood things that are taught in society that are "sinful" per say I have done. I am in no way shape or form perfect at all.

    in the beginning I was all about reading my bible and praying and sharing the word but I got severely distracted and fell out of it and now I am finding out the truth about things and where I am from and all that and wondering where I missed the mark in my awakening sooner?! I don't know I am just tired of living in fear of what will happen if I do this or that. I feel so conditioned its insane.....

    Sorry today has been such a horrible day I feel completely drained I didn't sleep at all last night. When I was meditating someone called out my name. and said "Hey Mari" I opened my eyes and looked around...no one was there at all. I freaked because I thought someone was in my apartment. Then I was seeing all kinds of things during my meditation like a big cat like person....and outline of a woman and flashes of light everywhere...so confusing because I don't know what they mean?!

    I am really trying hard to force the information out of myself and I know that's not the correct way from what I am being told.

    Please don't judge me...I am new here :/.. Has anyone else here felt like this?! Like my question is did you believe in God and/or saved before awakening?! or am I the only confused person here and I need to figure out what "I feel" is right?! any and all links to articles or videos is welcomed. also you can private message me as well.

    Thanks for reading.
    welcome Mari, Forget it for a little while just a little while and you go take a little walk in the woods on beaches go biking. The answer may or may not come to you but dont you mind it just have some fun and away from these confusions. IMO we dont have a freewill to choose what to do, we are guided by the universe all the while on a preset path, the universe is in perfect harmony The good news however is that we have the freewill to choose how we feel going about the preset path and this for the most part 99.9 percent is what matters. In the end of the boyscout trip there is only one question that matters. Did you have fun ?. Enjoy your 3D adventure.

    PS There is a lot of confused soul, this include me at times so dont bother
    you know what. I am actually getting out of the house this weekend for the first time in a long time. I am going with my coworker on a Nature Hike this weekend. I am really looking forward to it!

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    I don't know why I feel so confused now. I mean everything that I love about the universe, stars, cosmos, ET's, etc. are viewed differently. all these years growing up and into my adult hood things that are taught in society that are "sinful" per say I have done. I am in no way shape or form perfect at all.

    in the beginning I was all about reading my bible and praying and sharing the word but I got severely distracted and fell out of it and now I am finding out the truth about things and where I am from and all that and wondering where I missed the mark in my awakening sooner?! I don't know I am just tired of living in fear of what will happen if I do this or that. I feel so conditioned its insane.....

    Sorry today has been such a horrible day I feel completely drained I didn't sleep at all last night. When I was meditating someone called out my name. and said "Hey Mari" I opened my eyes and looked around...no one was there at all. I freaked because I thought someone was in my apartment. Then I was seeing all kinds of things during my meditation like a big cat like person....and outline of a woman and flashes of light everywhere...so confusing because I don't know what they mean?!

    I am really trying hard to force the information out of myself and I know that's not the correct way from what I am being told.

    Please don't judge me...I am new here :/.. Has anyone else here felt like this?! Like my question is did you believe in God and/or saved before awakening?! or am I the only confused person here and I need to figure out what "I feel" is right?! any and all links to articles or videos is welcomed. also you can private message me as well.

    Thanks for reading.

    dearest AngelEyes - it sounds to me like you are living with a high level of anxiety at the moment and that can be crippling - physically, emotionally and spiritually -

    I also thought when you said about your experiences when meditating ~ the big cat like person, outline of a woman and flashes of light everywhere that you could be having a kundalini experience...or kundalini awakening and you may need to adjust to that..which I think will happen naturally but you could help it by maybe having calming herbal tea or similar and I quickly looked up a website for you - and it might not be the best and there could be better ones..dunno...but it's late where I am and I'm tired so it will have to do for now...

    http://www.spiritualcompetency.com/b...dalinitype.htm

    just had another quick look at the link and I don't know if it's suitable for you or not - so if you don't connect with it look up some others...

    I myself had a spontanious kundalini experience quite a few years ago and something a bit wierd just happened...after reading your post and really feeling for you with what you were saying I remembered that around the time I had the kundalini blast I heard my name being called a couple of times in the room where I was sleeping and I knew it was a young black teenager that was calling my name and she said a couple of other things that I can't remember right now...

    anyway when I remembered about that I felt the kundalini energy and felt emotion and actually cried a bit...I have no idea who that young person was but remembering her all these years later touched something in me and it was sparked off by your post...

    try and be gentle with yourself...anxiety isn't very pleasant...I may be right about the kundalini..I may not..but I think I probably am...see if that feels right for you



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    you know what. I am actually getting out of the house this weekend for the first time in a long time. I am going with my coworker on a Nature Hike this weekend. I am really looking forward to it!

    that sounds like a good plan - have a lovely time

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    I don't know why I feel so confused now. I mean everything that I love about the universe, stars, cosmos, ET's, etc. are viewed differently. all these years growing up and into my adult hood things that are taught in society that are "sinful" per say I have done. I am in no way shape or form perfect at all.

    in the beginning I was all about reading my bible and praying and sharing the word but I got severely distracted and fell out of it and now I am finding out the truth about things and where I am from and all that and wondering where I missed the mark in my awakening sooner?! I don't know I am just tired of living in fear of what will happen if I do this or that. I feel so conditioned its insane.....

    Sorry today has been such a horrible day I feel completely drained I didn't sleep at all last night. When I was meditating someone called out my name. and said "Hey Mari" I opened my eyes and looked around...no one was there at all. I freaked because I thought someone was in my apartment. Then I was seeing all kinds of things during my meditation like a big cat like person....and outline of a woman and flashes of light everywhere...so confusing because I don't know what they mean?!

    I am really trying hard to force the information out of myself and I know that's not the correct way from what I am being told.

    Please don't judge me...I am new here :/.. Has anyone else here felt like this?! Like my question is did you believe in God and/or saved before awakening?! or am I the only confused person here and I need to figure out what "I feel" is right?! any and all links to articles or videos is welcomed. also you can private message me as well.

    Thanks for reading.

    dearest AngelEyes - it sounds to me like you are living with a high level of anxiety at the moment and that can be crippling - physically, emotionally and spiritually -

    I also thought when you said about your experiences when meditating ~ the big cat like person, outline of a woman and flashes of light everywhere that you could be having a kundalini experience...or kundalini awakening and you may need to adjust to that..which I think will happen naturally but you could help it by maybe having calming herbal tea or similar and I quickly looked up a website for you - and it might not be the best and there could be better ones..dunno...but it's late where I am and I'm tired so it will have to do for now...

    http://www.spiritualcompetency.com/b...dalinitype.htm

    just had another quick look at the link and I don't know if it's suitable for you or not - so if you don't connect with it look up some others...

    I myself had a spontanious kundalini experience quite a few years ago and something a bit wierd just happened...after reading your post and really feeling for you with what you were saying I remembered that around the time I had the kundalini blast I heard my name being called a couple of times in the room where I was sleeping and I knew it was a young black teenager that was calling my name and she said a couple of other things that I can't remember right now...

    anyway when I remembered about that I felt the kundalini energy and felt emotion and actually cried a bit...I have no idea who that young person was but remembering her all these years later touched something in me and it was sparked off by your post...

    try and be gentle with yourself...anxiety isn't very pleasant...I may be right about the kundalini..I may not..but I think I probably am...see if that feels right for you



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    Oh, that reminds me of this website, which I found to be really helpful, although I have not read the book.

    http://www.biologyofkundalini.com/

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    I don't know why I feel so confused now. I mean everything that I love about the universe, stars, cosmos, ET's, etc. are viewed differently. all these years growing up and into my adult hood things that are taught in society that are "sinful" per say I have done. I am in no way shape or form perfect at all.

    in the beginning I was all about reading my bible and praying and sharing the word but I got severely distracted and fell out of it and now I am finding out the truth about things and where I am from and all that and wondering where I missed the mark in my awakening sooner?! I don't know I am just tired of living in fear of what will happen if I do this or that. I feel so conditioned its insane.....

    Sorry today has been such a horrible day I feel completely drained I didn't sleep at all last night. When I was meditating someone called out my name. and said "Hey Mari" I opened my eyes and looked around...no one was there at all. I freaked because I thought someone was in my apartment. Then I was seeing all kinds of things during my meditation like a big cat like person....and outline of a woman and flashes of light everywhere...so confusing because I don't know what they mean?!

    I am really trying hard to force the information out of myself and I know that's not the correct way from what I am being told.

    Please don't judge me...I am new here :/.. Has anyone else here felt like this?! Like my question is did you believe in God and/or saved before awakening?! or am I the only confused person here and I need to figure out what "I feel" is right?! any and all links to articles or videos is welcomed. also you can private message me as well.

    Thanks for reading.

    dearest AngelEyes - it sounds to me like you are living with a high level of anxiety at the moment and that can be crippling - physically, emotionally and spiritually -

    I also thought when you said about your experiences when meditating ~ the big cat like person, outline of a woman and flashes of light everywhere that you could be having a kundalini experience...or kundalini awakening and you may need to adjust to that..which I think will happen naturally but you could help it by maybe having calming herbal tea or similar and I quickly looked up a website for you - and it might not be the best and there could be better ones..dunno...but it's late where I am and I'm tired so it will have to do for now...

    http://www.spiritualcompetency.com/b...dalinitype.htm

    just had another quick look at the link and I don't know if it's suitable for you or not - so if you don't connect with it look up some others...

    I myself had a spontanious kundalini experience quite a few years ago and something a bit wierd just happened...after reading your post and really feeling for you with what you were saying I remembered that around the time I had the kundalini blast I heard my name being called a couple of times in the room where I was sleeping and I knew it was a young black teenager that was calling my name and she said a couple of other things that I can't remember right now...

    anyway when I remembered about that I felt the kundalini energy and felt emotion and actually cried a bit...I have no idea who that young person was but remembering her all these years later touched something in me and it was sparked off by your post...

    try and be gentle with yourself...anxiety isn't very pleasant...I may be right about the kundalini..I may not..but I think I probably am...see if that feels right for you



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    jaybee you are right about the high level of anxiety.... 2 months ago I thought I was going crazy and asked to be put on anti-depression meds and now I am weaning myself off of them because I dont like how they make me feel. I feel numb and dont care about ANYTHING anymore.

    I could tell you stories about the weird dreams I have been having. Another dream I heard foreign womans voice say "Madame, You have to wake up" Madame you have to wake up? after I heard this voice say this a second time my neck wrenched sideways hard and I was woke up violently disoriented and was wondering what the heck just happened... I couldnt go back to sleep after that because I spent the next several hours trying to figure out what just happened....my dreams have been vivid and intense........:/

    Thank you for the link I will be doing some reading

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    Something I do when I'm feeling confused or a bit lost is to just take a step back from it all and then focus on what I do know, simple things. And I still don't know what it is I'm looking at/experiencing half the time, it's normal to feel as you do.

    There is nothing to be afraid of and after a while it becomes exciting, instead of strange and a little scary.

    Never give up on your silly, silly dreams.

    You mustn't be afraid to dream a little BIGGER, darling.

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    Something I do when I'm feeling confused or a bit lost is to just take a step back from it all and then focus on what I do know, simple things. And I still don't know what it is I'm looking at/experiencing half the time, it's normal to feel as you do.

    There is nothing to be afraid of and after a while it becomes exciting, instead of strange and a little scary.

    Thank you Rachel. Thats one of many things I struggle with is taking a step back and focusing on what I do know. Whats sad everytime I tell myself "Im gonna go to the lake and go for a walk around the water" I start to get up and go and then I am like yeah I dont want to be around people....I stay at home so much its crazy. My husband is always encouraging me to go out and do things but I dont have friends because they dont like the fact that my husband which I will be marrying when he gets home is serving time in prison. This man is my soulmate. we both have been through similar situation in life an us being together is the first REAL relationship either of us have been in and actually gotten to know the other without sleeping with them first. Its an amazing feeling. we are 1,000 miles apart but we can feel each others energies and thoughts and we say things that the other is thinking all the time.

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    I don't know why I feel so confused now. I mean everything that I love about the universe, stars, cosmos, ET's, etc. are viewed differently. all these years growing up and into my adult hood things that are taught in society that are "sinful" per say I have done. I am in no way shape or form perfect at all.

    in the beginning I was all about reading my bible and praying and sharing the word but I got severely distracted and fell out of it and now I am finding out the truth about things and where I am from and all that and wondering where I missed the mark in my awakening sooner?! I don't know I am just tired of living in fear of what will happen if I do this or that. I feel so conditioned its insane.....

    Sorry today has been such a horrible day I feel completely drained I didn't sleep at all last night. When I was meditating someone called out my name. and said "Hey Mari" I opened my eyes and looked around...no one was there at all. I freaked because I thought someone was in my apartment. Then I was seeing all kinds of things during my meditation like a big cat like person....and outline of a woman and flashes of light everywhere...so confusing because I don't know what they mean?!

    I am really trying hard to force the information out of myself and I know that's not the correct way from what I am being told.

    Please don't judge me...I am new here :/.. Has anyone else here felt like this?! Like my question is did you believe in God and/or saved before awakening?! or am I the only confused person here and I need to figure out what "I feel" is right?! any and all links to articles or videos is welcomed. also you can private message me as well.

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    Welcome Mari

    You are not alone on this journey. You are amongst fellow travellers here.

    It is a different journey for everyone and it will have its bumps, twists and turns but one only has to remember to stay in the present moment and enjoy the ride.

    All the forces that created you are unfolding around you and through you.

    As Bubu so correctly surmised, be in nature as much you can. It is a reference point that we can anchor into, no matter what else is going on in our lives. The sun can show us "who" to talk to, the water can tell us "how" to do something and the trees can tell us "what" to do.

    Eat the highest quality and purest food that you can possibly eat whilst immersing yourself in nature, sungaze, be in good company, do something that you are passionate about every day, seek out uplifting and inspiring videos and you will find yourself.

    Enjoy your nature hike.

    with much love

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    Quote Posted by AngelEyes (here)
    I don't know why I feel so confused now. I mean everything that I love about the universe, stars, cosmos, ET's, etc. are viewed differently. all these years growing up and into my adult hood things that are taught in society that are "sinful" per say I have done. I am in no way shape or form perfect at all.

    in the beginning I was all about reading my bible and praying and sharing the word but I got severely distracted and fell out of it and now I am finding out the truth about things and where I am from and all that and wondering where I missed the mark in my awakening sooner?! I don't know I am just tired of living in fear of what will happen if I do this or that. I feel so conditioned its insane.....

    Sorry today has been such a horrible day I feel completely drained I didn't sleep at all last night. When I was meditating someone called out my name. and said "Hey Mari" I opened my eyes and looked around...no one was there at all. I freaked because I thought someone was in my apartment. Then I was seeing all kinds of things during my meditation like a big cat like person....and outline of a woman and flashes of light everywhere...so confusing because I don't know what they mean?!

    I am really trying hard to force the information out of myself and I know that's not the correct way from what I am being told.

    Please don't judge me...I am new here :/.. Has anyone else here felt like this?! Like my question is did you believe in God and/or saved before awakening?! or am I the only confused person here and I need to figure out what "I feel" is right?! any and all links to articles or videos is welcomed. also you can private message me as well.

    Thanks for reading.
    Welcome Mari

    You are not alone on this journey. You are amongst fellow travellers here.

    It is a different journey for everyone and it will have its bumps, twists and turns but one only has to remember to stay in the present moment and enjoy the ride.

    All the forces that created you are unfolding around you and through you.

    As Bubu so correctly surmised, be in nature as much you can. It is a reference point that we can anchor into, no matter what else is going on in our lives. The sun can show us "who" to talk to, the water can tell us "how" to do something and the trees can tell us "what" to do.

    Eat the highest quality and purest food that you can possibly eat whilst immersing yourself in nature, sungaze, be in good company, do something that you are passionate about every day, seek out uplifting and inspiring videos and you will find yourself.

    Enjoy your nature hike.

    with much love
    You know I read an article the other day about feeling a trees life force. so I tried it the other morning this past weekend it was storming out but wasnt raining again it had slacked up and thunder was lightly rolling! (beautiful sound). theres a very tall tree outside my apartment so I stuck my hand out open palm towards it and closed my eyes. it felt warm like heat coming off of it but it was cool out. so I walked up and I placed my hand on it and I felt like a wobbling feeling.....(hard to explain) like it was waves of energy from the tree!!! it felt amazing!!! . I am always watching the sky. day and night! I dont sleep much at all so when i am awake i usually go outside and laydown on the toolbox of my truck and look at the sky for something to move like a star. sometimes I have seen things move slowly and quickly. its awesome. I dream of going someplace with NO LIGHT POLLUTION so I can see the night sky in its entirety.

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    It's not for the taking, it's for the recieveing. Prepare yourself for better things to come, relax,enjoy.... Feed your mind body and spirit,,,,
    ONLY THE END OF THE WORLD IS THE END OF THE WORLD AND THIS AIN'T IT

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    The hardest part of waking up is feeling alone.we all go through it.you will always find support and love here

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    The hardest part of waking up is feeling alone.we all go through it.you will always find support and love here
    Thank you all so much for this too! I am so happy to be here and apart of this loving community

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    The hardest part of waking up is feeling alone.we all go through it.you will always find support and love here
    Thank you all so much for this too! I am so happy to be here and apart of this loving community
    Hope you feel a bit better...

    if not, hope you will very soon -

    here's a Goddess Protection Chant for you....





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