Put Another Log On The Fire

[Lost N Found]

Thank you Captain, Brooks heart and yours combined are the most wonderful gift. Absolutely beautiful. A life's sharing we are blessed.

There is much to be said of ones own life journey, It is at some point that we all learn who we really are and it is best that we live a serving life to others. We may only glimpse the lives of others but if we are in giving, those glimpses of others lives are a gift that always moves forward for each and every one of us, to give and receive as we navigate the river of life.

Steven

[Lionhawk]

Cancer will also teach you, who your real friends are. Make no mistake that when you are traveling alone in the wilderness, even a squirrel barking at you, takes the lonliness out of the equation. It has been a heart felt experience these last couple of weeks, seeing all these wonderful posts of folks who actually cared. It seems we take for granted that we would always be here. Posting along, just trying to make a positive difference. Then one day, a shattering event would occur, a disturbance in the force could be felt and experienced.


It would seem like we have lost several good folks as of late who we will miss and cherish. Ones that made such a positive difference, without who, we wouldn't have had the chance in hell, if it wasn't for them, to enlighten us with their beingness.



I would also like to thank those who support the giant pillars of many of these forum halls, who's dedication to keep the rivers flowing in a consistant manner, is so often taken for granted. Billy, Eleni, and Paul, you surely rock! Eleni was there in the beginning. She is one beautiful soul if you all don't know her. Paul has never refused to help anyone that I am aware of. I appreciate you! In my mind, you are the backbone of this forum. And what can I say about Billy?????????.........nothing but good things! You are cherished in my house.


A special shout out to Dennis. This man has one huge heart! It almost knocked me over with your message. Message was received in full. Wow! Thank you soooo much!



Edina was there in the beginning too. I thank you for your gifted posting! I finally got it. And I am so glad that you, KNOW! You and Ray will always be in Brook's and my inner circle. Forever!


Another special shout out goes to Running Deer. This place would probably wither without you. Your gifts and talents to bring joy in one's heart is priceless! No one is alone because of you. Like the squirrel in the forest, but you're the deer that makes that appearance and leaves behind something to smile across our hearts. Going here and going there without expecting anything in return.


There are so many wonderful folks here and elsewhere that I have and do appreciate. In the time of loss, cancer has opened my eyes as to who has graced OUR lives as it were. I just hope that I will get to acknowledge all of them at some future point.



Another wonderful soul who will grow on you very quickly is Steven. He is another soul who is in my inner circle. We are brothers of the best kind. He is also my FIRST MATE! Don't let that title fool you. Him and I have an equal share on this boat we are on. Simply put......I love you man!


About two weeks ago, there was another disturbance in the force. Another special soul was having a bout with Uterus cancer. Very painful. My spidy senses tell me that she has passed away. Another loss on top of a loss. Many never got to really and sincerely know this person and how wonderful she truly was. She was a gifted artist who's work was also used to attack others. The very others that she gave her artwork to. This was not her intent and by the time she realized what was going on, it was basically to late and so she tried to tell folks who had received her gifts, to destory them. I know this in the first hand.



So KNOW this.......Love and appreciate the ones you have contact with. Love and cherish the ones that you are with. Overlook your little judgements so that you can see, feel, the beauty that is inside the ones you know. They might not be there tomorrow. If anything, celebrate with them and truly honor their lives in the now moment. Without looking for any expectations in return. You in turn will discover the true blessings and miracles that adorn your lives.



Enough said!


Namaste',




Back in time, we were informed that this guy was coming out with this album. We had something to look forward too and he didn't disappoint.

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[RunningDeer]

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[Billy]

Thank you for your kind words Lionhawk. I am so sorry for your loss of such a beautiful soul, It is good to see you again brother.
As you already know, Healing takes its own time and comes from a direction that can be unexpected.

[Lionhawk]

Posted by Billy (here)
Thank you for your kind words Lionhawk. I am so sorry for your loss of such a beautiful soul, It is good to see you again brother.
As you already know, Healing takes its own time and comes from a direction that can be unexpected.

Just the other night, a true friend gave me a gift and it hit me like lightning. I was splattered all over the place for the whole evening. And like you so profoundly stated, "Healing takes its own time and comes from a direction that can be unexpected." So very true. And just when I thought of the previous night, round two came about with Edina's posting, gift. Splattered again for the evening. When these gifts are given from wonderful hearts and they somehow reach your soul, get ready to be splattered. The tears will flow freely. When you take the JOY and the Pain, combine them and adjust their combined frequencies to a resonance, you will find yourself in a state of loving bliss. Where the tears will flow freely without any judgements. You will clearly see with the eyes of your soul, how truly blessed we are.


I had to leave here. I was going blind. A side effect from the meds I was on. It would take me hours and so many typos just to write a small post. To make a long story short, the Doc and I had a parting of the ways. That turned out to be a blessing in disguise. When I left that scene, he had mentioned plans on cutting my legs off. He did that twice and if I had stayed the course they wanted me on, I'd be totally blind and in a wheel chair. Since then my eye sight has come back. Not like it was, but without a lot of typos and I'm still walking. If I hadn't of left that arrangement, I would not have been able to support Brook, by her side, in what she went through. I have failed in the figuring out what was worse. The loss or the way she went down fighting. It's a big blur as I remember going to the hospital that was on a huge hill and struggling step by step, with swollen legs, to visit her and be by her side. Wondering if I could get there. But I did and I didn't tell her either. We had plenty on our plate as it is. And come to find out, she did the same thing that I was doing with her. Keeping things from her so she wouldn't worry. She kept things from me so that I wouldn't worry. I also found this out a couple of days before she passed. Even, in her capacity at the time, she always thought of others before she would even consider herself. Just that, !!!!, made me want to fight harder for her. In that last year, we did fight a good fight. For me personally, the silent killer wasn't the cancer. That would be to easy. You know that whatever that is going on is bad?!!!???!!!! And then they offer you some limited choices, tell you right up front that you are going to die, anyways, ..................in their politickers mind, have untold resources as in Lawyers and finance to influence their bidding. That is a fact! And some of that comes from very old money. Centuries old. You can smell it. Has a rotten flare to it.



Anyways, there is an untold story, Brook being right in the middle of it. What was so coool was that Brook, even in her weakened state from the whole process, her mind was ahead of everybody else. She was still mentally sharp. Some of you had contact with her, during this time. Thank you for doing that as it brightened up her day. She loved the little things as much as the big things.



Pain meds. The silent killer. Indeed! Mix that up with a little bit of chemo and VOILA!
The cocktail from HELL! How did we get to this point, you maybe asking? Oh! You'll be staying for a couple more rounds, while we milk the Insurance. Chemo started off good. Can't have that, so let's change the recipe. Oh, those recipes didn't work and so now you are S.O.L. Oh yeah, one other thing, we are cutting back her pain meds by 66%, just so we can watch over her. We're going to fill you up with two highly powerful antibotics that we use for folks with pneumonia. Although you don't have it. And Ms. Schiner, call us after you gain exactly 40 lbs. Should be in two weeks. 40 lbs. later, we will be sending you a nurse to assist you to get out of bed so you can do your business. That process alone sometimes took up to two hours. Did I mention all the other meds? The goal was to get her home, because that was where Brook wanted to be. On Wednesday, I went to the hospital to meet up with medical staff to arrange that goal. The target day was for Thursday, the following day. When I met up with a few Doctors, I was told that, that wasn't going to happen.





Namaste'

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[Lionhawk]

Hi!!!!! Yo. Thank you for your presence now and before. You have been one solid friend.

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[Lost N Found]

Thank you brother, Captain, You give me thought and tears do fall. Here are two for you and Brook

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Love ya brother
Steven

[Matthew]

Posted by Lost N Found (here)
Thank you brother, Captain, You give me thought and tears do fall. Here are two for you and Brook

...

Love ya brother
Steven

And I. There are good people in the world, when we choose choose to be; like Shadowself did. She was the iconic Project Avalon-er to me, I will never forget her. Much love - Matthew

[Billy]

My daughter played this song to me last night. I thought of you Lionhawk.

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=FG0-cncMpt8

Into My Arms
Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds
I don't believe in an interventionist God
But I know, darling, that you do
But if I did I would kneel down and ask Him
Not to intervene when it came to you
Not to touch a hair on your head
To leave you as you are
And if He felt He had to direct you
Then direct you into my arms

Into my arms, O Lord
Into my arms, O Lord
Into my arms, O Lord
Into my arms

And I don't believe in the existence of angels
But looking at you I wonder if that's true
But if I did I would summon them together
And ask them to watch over you
To each burn a candle for you
To make bright and clear your path
And to walk, like Christ, in grace and love
And guide you into my arms

Into my arms, O Lord
Into my arms, O Lord
Into my arms, O Lord
Into my…

[Lionhawk]

Hi Valerie! I can't say I know you but I sense a connection between you and Brook. Thanks for being here! Would love to hear about that connection.


My Brother Viking was sneaking around here. Would love to hear him once again. No worries as the antenna of the Universe informs me nothing but good vibrations coming from that sector.

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=Eab_beh07HU

[Valerie Villars]

Lionhawk, Brooke and I both lost our sons. After her body passed, I posted somewhere that I hoped she was having a reunion with her son, as I also hope to.

Your sense is right on. And I do want to say that I was astounded at the clarity of Brooke's posts while she was going through chemo and on pain meds. I watched my Mom die that way and they had her pretty well out of it, so Brooke's will must be incredible.

Blessings and peace to you.

[Lionhawk]

Thank you Billy and tell your daughter I said, "Thank you!" Heck, I just woke up and didn't even get to have a cup of joe. More tears........... And what is important to me is where this was transmitted from. A Link to a past life in Scotland. I will always associate this song with that.



Brook's name was Isadora, back then in the 13th century. She originally started in Norway and was shipped over to Scotland when she was a child. We met in our adult life. I was married to a nagging, spoiled rotten blond. Had a mini fortress and lots of land along the southwestern coastline. I can still smell the ocean smells riding on air going by my person. The shear sight of Mother Nature in all of her glory. The wildness. Raw. Especially in the winters.



Needless to say, Brook and I had found each other and had a small bungalow outside of the horrid lives we had lived. We were very happy. My blond wife wasn't. And I didn't care, because I was with the one I wanted to be with. Brook and I took advantage of the rainy days. The rain was part of our joy. The dance with Mother Nature. We were connected. To each other, to Mother Earth. All was well in my little kingdom. Then one day........everything turned to crap. Isadora, {Brook}, was walking back to town when 4 dressed guards approached her. There was a struggle. Then Brook's body went over a cliff and fell onto a small tree, impailing her. I'll never forget the sight. A branch had come up through her belly section and blood was everywhere. She laid there, very quiet.......What a shock!


As it turned out, I became a madman with a small army. Full of rage. A rage I still regret even now. I loved the killing. They will all pay!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I made sure they did! My brother in arms didn't need an introduction. Everyone knew that William Wallace and I were brothers. After the King had his way with William, I was soon caught and placed in the King's dungeon for the rest of my rotting days. The day of death was in 1308. It's in the historical record even now. The name was John. I only give you the first name, but what I have given will connect the dots if you choose to look further.


What I have resolved is the fact that the past lives that come up with such a force, are past lives with unfinished business in them. Also brutal and painful ones. Uncompleted cycles of which are found on many levels. The totality of that life never realizing it's completeion. It seeks to find a way. But we don't listen well enough. The mind router tricks us, then trips us into the notion of seeking outside ourselves. Its a program running in our Matrix. Designed to control you. It does bring in to question the red and blue pill????????? Make no mistake! You will experience events on a soul level and that it is no trick of your mind. Validation comes easy. What you do with it is what I leave up to you.


Brook and I had a chance to complete those cycles, in this life. We did real good. Many of you witnessed the unfolding of this story....... I had no idea it would turn out like it has. So in a sense, I watched it with you.


Namaste'

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[Lionhawk]

Posted by Valerie Villars (here)
Lionhawk, Brooke and I both lost our sons. After her body passed, I posted somewhere that I hoped she was having a reunion with her son, as I also hope to.

Your sense is right on. And I do want to say that I was astounded at the clarity of Brooke's posts while she was going through chemo and on pain meds. I watched my Mom die that way and they had her pretty well out of it, so Brooke's will must be incredible.

Blessings and peace to you.

Just for you Valarie, Brook and John Jr. was spotted in our home the weekend following Brook's passing. By a total stranger, that was a house quest for that weekend. I have also felt their presenses at various times. Usually those painful times. I can see them. On the following weekend, John Sr. came by and thanked me for doing the do. This going back to his original request as to helping Brook out. Our agreement became complete. So Brook is with them both. John Sr. and Jr. are time travelers. When John Sr. first spiritually visited with me, at the end of the conversation, he says, "Oh, by the way, your Uncle Fran says hi!" Nobody knew about my Uncle Fran. That caught my attention!


Some may say, "I know how you feel." Losing a son or another loved one. I won't even begin to go that route as that loss is to be experienced in the first hand and there is no way we know exactly what we feel till we go through it. It's an ongoing process for the rest of your days. No matter how long ago. It's the "missing" part that has us all tangled up and that is what can be so challenging to deal with. The tear machine. Valerie, to hear Brook's soul cryout as in the moment she got word of John Jr.'s accident, is forever etched in my soul. I can only imagine what you went through with the loss of your Son. Peace will come but it happens on it's own schedule. Not when we need it the most it would seem.


My heart goes out to you. Thank you for the sharing. Namaste' my dear Friend. I'm so glad you finally spoke.

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[Eric J (Viking)]

Posted by Lionhawk (here)
Hi Valerie! I can't say I know you but I sense a connection between you and Brook. Thanks for being here! Would love to hear about that connection.


My Brother Viking was sneaking around here. Would love to hear him once again. No worries as the antenna of the Universe informs me nothing but good vibrations coming from that sector.

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My dear Brother... So glad to hear from you and so sorry to hear your loss... She's up there smiling. You know it.

Yes excellent vibrations here in my sector. Mr dear father passed away recently, but is was a relief as he was suffering with dementia and chronic arthritis. Loved him to bits but he's in a better place now. I'm OK and relieved that he has parted and gone to another dimension.

You always make me chuckle Lionheart...Lionhawk..! Hugs and blessings to you.

I just had to listen to the end of the beach boys... Loved it.

Viking

[Lionhawk]

Sorry folks for putting so many logs on the fire. I also confess of placing logs elsewhere.
Had to because folks reached out from other places. Truest of friends, I surely have been blessed with!


That being said, I placed the better part of "OUR" story over there. Another well known forum hall. "Our" truth, revealed. And a piece of history. Along with a gift. A gift to those who truly valued Brook's research and the interactions they had with her. Why some of you felt a connection to her, but couldn't put your finger on it. We were so blessed to have her in our MISTS. Even though we didn't know.


Namaste'

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[Lionhawk]

I also felt a calmness in the force that wasn't there before, Viking. Glad that you found that space of "peace" that so often elludes us. You are not alone in your loss. I feel it. I gladly do so to honor you. Your Father is proud of you! So am I!

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[Billy]

Please continue to pile the wood on the fire Lionhawk.
It is good to feel the warmth and see the glow again. I am delighted that you are not blind, andJeez, you still have legs attached to the body,
Tears are good my friend, I shall pass the thanks on to my daughter.

From my heart to yours

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[Eric J (Viking)]

Posted by Lionhawk (here)
I also felt a calmness in the force that wasn't there before, Viking. Glad that you found that space of "peace" that so often elludes us. You are not alone in your loss. I feel it. I gladly do so to honor you. Your Father is proud of you! So am I!

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You're too cool Lionhawk...

I feel for you too... Be well.

Viking

[Lionhawk]

In the last ten years, so much has happened under these forum halls. Folks have come and gone. In a variety of ways. Death being one of those ways. But we push forward, despite.......If it wasn't for Bill Ryan and Kerry Cassidy, Brook and I would never had met.

I thank the both of you for providing the setting that propelled Brook and I to remember who we once were. Most definitely a "Chronicle of the Human Awakening." I also can't forget all those who have blessed Brook's and my path. You allowed us to come and go without hesitation. You Bill have been nothing but a gracious host. Thank you for that!


It is astonishing when I step back at this big picture, to see what true wealth you have amassed in one place. Absolutley amazing! You have surely been blessed.



If there was any doubt at all as to how Brook and I fitted in here, there shouldn't be. Many hours were spent to uphold the well being of your great house. We have no regrets in doing so. We strived for your safety and well being, along with many others.

I don't know if Brook conveyed this to you, but "Ron" was dealt with. He was sent running. And done so, in person, by the fly on the wall. Just a little icing on the cake for you. Also, if anything like that ever happens again, make sure you don't embed a spy in your counter operations. That, stabbed you in the back. Without your knowing, of course. Surely made that whole situation that much more difficult to navigate for you. We gave it our best. What else can I say there?





I do hope all is well with you, Brother! And a huge thank you for what you have provided us all.



THE FLY ON THE WALL
p.s. thanks for the broken link fix too!

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[Lionhawk]

I keep on hitting the replay button, "My Father's Son," Absolutely contagious. Cooool Runnings! I got to hit it again.....





Perfect!!!!!!! Gift received.




You know, there might be one thing I would still be able to do, being blind and legless, and that would be having a fire. Still got arms. Logs need arms. To make fire. Still got knees. A sense of smell and can hear the crackling as the wood burns. All is not lost. Just a change. The core is the same. Excuse me as I hit the replay button.............


I would be willing to try. Maybe, it might be a version of hope, that I subscribe to. Along with more versions. Such as fishing. I can fish blindly. But do me a favor and chain me to the dock. LOLs!


Another log..........

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