My Latest Psychic Readings

[Mike]

I want to believe.

But I've been getting psychic readings, on and off, for maybe 20 years and I still don't have 1 single shred of evidence that anyone on this planet has even the slightest bit of psychic ability at all.

The psychic world is largely a grift. I get no joy in saying that, but it's a reality I've finally come to terms with. All it took was 20 years and several thousand dollars.

I'd sworn off psychics until the Carol Clarke thread began here, years ago. Even David Icke said (paraphrase), "She simply never gets it wrong". Well based on my reading, she never really gets it right. Actually it would be more accurate to say that everything she says is so ambiguous, abstract, and unfalsifiable that it can't be judged either way. And I think that's the point.

I later discovered - with the help of another member here - that she stole bits from an astrology site and recited them word for word during her readings, as if they were her own revelations. The proof was undeniable.

Before Carol I'd had an assortment of readings from many different psychics, all highly reputable(and expensive). Not a single one of them even hinted at the most prominent issues in my life. Not one. Not ever.

And there wasn't any overlap in any of the messages. If they were truly psychic in some way, you'd think they'd be picking up on the same "static".

I recently began watching a podcast called "Next Level Soul", which features near death experiencers mainly. Most of the interviewees claim psychic abilities of some sort. Their stories were told earnestly and with great emotion, and I had no reason to doubt them. So I made some appointments with a few for readings. Why not?

Well I noticed a clear pattern. All 3 began with a windy prayer/meditation that consumed close to 5 mins. And then they said, How can I be of service to you? " And I was left thinking: if you're so bloody cosmic, why don't you tell me how you can be of service to me? I just paid you $200!

What kind of psychic needs to know what's on my mind ahead of time before they read me?? Surely they should already know, at least to some degree.

With the first one, I played along. I asked some questions and she asked a few back. And every few mins she'd stop to perform cleansing prayers, or something like that. It must have eaten up nearly half the reading. Again, I think it's designed that way. That's the grift.

One of them said I walked with Jesus. None of the others did, mind you. Walking with Jesus is a pretty big deal, and you'd think if it were true, the other psychics would have picked up on it. But no. This particular psychic told me Jesus was present during the reading, but "Jesus" had precious little of value to offer, strangely He was very vague, and general, and weirdly enough seemed to get quite a bit wrong about me...

And this is another part of the grift - appeal to ego, and hope the idiot you're reading for gets so drunk on the ruse that they fail to notice how embarrassingly bad the rest of the reading is.

Carol Clarke did this with past lives in other solar systems and galaxies. She told me right off that I was from a star system that no one she'd ever read for had been from. Only minutes after I'd posted this here a member pm'd me to say Carol told him he was from the same star system.

When I asked one of the psychics that read for me recently what my life purpose was, she answered like this: "Well everyone's life purpose is to heal, and once you heal you'll discover what you're supposed to be doing here..."

Wow. Deep! Thank you friendly psychic!

The joke, ultimately, is on me. I keep falling for it. And I'll probably fall for it again sometime in the future, because that's just what I do.

Why do I keep doing this??

[pyrangello]

The one and only time I paid for a consultation was with the physic twins who have been on tv , ECT ECT. It was only suppose to be for 15 minutes , ended up talking to them for 40. I don't know what it was about them but I swear after I got off the phone with them there was a vibrant electricity of connection and feeling I felt. It was off the charts. It was of an elevated positive energy that I will never forget.

[Harmony]

I had a reading that didn't cost anything and they knew very personal things about my past that no one would know. Another psychic was connecting with my Mother because I asked them to, no money exchange, and also those messages for me and otners in my family were only things that each of us would know about, very specific personal things. Now I seem to be able to connect to passed loved ones myself when needed, so I don't ask another to interpret for me.

I guess it just depends on the psychic and how and why they use their energies. I feel it needs to be with good loving intentions.

[Open Minded Dude]

I am also very skeptic of psychics and mediums and channellers. I never consulted one so far although just for fun or test purposes I would have liked to. Maybe one day I will.

This being said there are some studies done by a science organisation about psychics/mediums who contact 'the dead' or/and at least retrieve some valuable information about them or the ones alive requesting it. They even 'certify' mediums if the can perform and get 'results'.

Here is a few links about their studies I had bookmerked over many years now:

https://www.windbridge.org/research/completed-studies/

https://skeptiko.com/51-dr-julie-bei...dium-research/

One example study (pdf):

https://www.windbridge.org/papers/Be...RE2007vol3.pdf

[Mark (Star Mariner)]

There are many grifters, that's true, and I feel your pain Mike. I've run into a few of them myself. But genuine ones do exist, I've encountered them up close and for real.

It's important to understand that a medium, or clairvoyant, is like an interpreter. They receive information from an external source and translate it in terms we can understand. But first the information must be filtered through the consciousness field of the human ego. If that field is impure or just too dense the information will be inaccurate.

One doesn't have to be a saint or ascended master to be a genuine channel. A rule of thumb I've generally followed is genuine psychics/clairvoyants live humble lives. They are not 'big names'. I've found them in such places as psychic development circles/workshops, and spiritualist churches. They aren't rich, they aren't famous. They do not advertise, and do not charge a fee (they may ask for a donation however).

The best method I've personally found for obtaining a reading is from myself -- or my higher self. That was via QHHT (Quantum Healing Hypnosis Therapy) using the Dolores Cannon method. It was the only method that worked for me after trying numerous traditional practitioners. I am for whatever reason extremely difficult to hypnotise. I believe I have the strange honour of being the only subject certain hyno-regressionists could not hypnotise (in their entire careers). But even with QHHT, it took 45mins to bring me into a light trance. In that state I was able to obtain some information from my higher self and thus some answers, and experienced (recovered the memory of) a couple of past lives, or rather existences, as both were non-corporeal/physical.

The Dolores Cannon school of QHHT operates worldwide. In fact we have a member here on Avalon who practises it, enfoldedblue. If you wanted to blow another $200, it would be far better spent in QHHT than on a psychic hotline in my opinion. To find a practitioner in your area, check this page: https://members.qhhtofficial.com/find-a-practitioner/

[Ewan]

Posted by Mike (here)
I want to believe.

But I've been getting psychic readings, on and off, for maybe 20 years and I still don't have 1 single shred of evidence that anyone on this planet has even the slightest bit of psychic ability at all.

Hi Mike, so nice to see you back, hopefully for longer than just a sojourn.

As to psychics, yes it is likely a minefield out there where charlatans lie in wait instead of explosives. And I'm kinda sorry you never found any validating experience in amongst all the effort. That said perchance you were looking too hard?

I've only ever made three attempts. The first an astrological chart reading which I could not begin to interpretate, might as well have been in a foreign language. It was presented in catch-all's much like a daily newspaper horoscope but with so much detail it was bewildering. Convinced the guy was using software to produce his results.

Years later, thanks to the thread on Carol Clarke, I got a reading from her. I was mighty impressed at the time but subsequent listenings over the years leave me far from certain there is anything there at all.
So far we're still on the same page, right, but fasten your seat belt Dorothy, Kansas is about to go bye bye.

The third and last time was in Chiangmai, Thailand. Just a two line ad in an expat monthly print.

Do you want to know your life's purpose? Call Jasmine: 0009939802948209 (made up number)

Well I was still completely aimless in life and swinging from the verge of depression then back into the bar and having fun, you know, alcohol and girls, in a completely non-exhilirating roller coaster.
What the Hell? Nothing to lose right? I called and arranged an appointment.

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In the next section you will see a series of interjection in Dark Red and in brackets, those are my internal monologue as best remembered from the time. They're largely very cynical.
Trust me, it was a very memorable occassion; and bragging, I am very good at remembereing conversations, sometimes in the most banal of circumstances - don't know why or how, I just can.

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On the day I met her she took me into this large room and sat me in a chair near the middle of the room, she then walked off to sit down facing me but at least 6m away, about 20 feet.
We had a little chat,
what had brought me to her,
had I ever had an idea what I might want to do,
where was I born.

I answered everything honestly and she got nothing, there was nothing to tell her - especially about what I had wanted to do with my life.

She asked me to relax and focus on my breathing, I could close my eyes if I wished. She then closed her eyes and I saw her lips moving as her hands waved around in the air. (Here we go.)

I'm sure the hand movements represented something but it was lost on me. She did this for about two or three minutes. (This is a load of bollocks, why did I come?)

(**** this!) I stood up and started walking to the door. She asked "Where are you going?"
"I don't want to be here".

She calmly said, "This voice that is telling you to leave, maybe it doesn't want to be here. But there was some part of you that wanted to be here in the first place".

That stopped me dead in my tracks, no answer to that one. The voice that told me to leave was just like the voice that said "Let's go to the pub". "She's cute, go and say Hi".

A minor aside for a moment, I wasn't hearing voices, they're just thoughts, little impulses/feelings that give rise to action.

I returned to my seat and tried to relax again, she took up where she left off as if there had been no interruption, less than a minute later she stood and approached me, walking right around behind me and back around the front. I see the hand movements continue, wafting things away and for all the world like she was holding scissors and cutting things. (Seriously?)

I suddenly noticed I couldn't move. I concentrated, just trying to move a finger, nothing. (What the Hell! How?)

She began to go through my life as she could see it through my chakras, I don't recall to much about those largely due to her revelation about the sacral chakra where she bluntly exclaimed, and it was an exclamation, "Oh you open a lot!" (Bloody hell! ****!)

Thai people 'open' a light switch, their understanding of the English word open is a little more encompassing than our own, though technically it is correct - when you turn on a light you are opening a circuit.

She recovered quickly and moved on normally. Meanwhile I'm totally embarrassed and barely focusing any more. (Maybe she'll want sex afterwards?) Yes, my apemind really is that pathetic sometimes.

When she'd finished the chakra descriptions, though I do recall her saying my throat chakra was particularly strong and vibrant (apparently about expression and truth), she preceeded to describe my aura as she percieved it. Largely various hues of blue with whisps of violet encroaching like roots from above, lower there were infusions of green.

Now she starts asking me questions and at this point I discover not only can I not move, I can't speak either! (What the ****! What is happening here?)
No answer. She is not bothered, simply repeats the question. Still no answer. She moves on, asking another, similar but rephrased. Still nothing.

Then she asked "What should I be doing with my life to fulfill my path?"

"JUST LIVE." (Holy ****!)

I never answered her, a ??what?? used my voice box and answered on my behalf. The voice sounded impatient, like in a, why are you bothering me kind of way. I mean it was my voice but spoken with such authority. More like a command actually.

Now, I am a mute witness to what is happening here, and believe me I am so shocked my mind is still, no thoughts are racing despite what had just happened. I am best described, with the benefit of hindsight, as totally attentive.

Seemingly Jasmine is well used to this and continues.

Bit of a vague memory here, I don't recall exactly what Jasmine asked next but the answer is still there.

"JUST LIVE." Sounding even more impatient and imperious.

Jasmine moves on swiftly. "And after life?"

"DEATH."

"And after Death?"

"LIFE."

And I think that was that, I'm not sure if Jasmine asked more questions but I know THE VOICE never answered. I did hear that voice once more as an internal thought that appeared in a still moment of wonder. The same commading imperious tone. "GO BACK TO ENGLAND".

Meanwhile Jasmine was reversing my isolation from the universe, or whatever the heck she did to me, and suddenly I can move and speak again and what do I do? I collapse forward sobbing like the five or six year old me that my cruel parents had just taken my 'comfort blanket', Blanky!, away from beacuase I was too dependant on it. Welcome to the world baby boy, time to start growing up.

I think we spoke for another half hour after that but sadly my skill for memory of conversations let's me down there, it is all a blur.

What I had just experience was real, massive, and I could not process it at all. The analytical brain could do nothing with it, and there is a lesson in there somewhere. That is why we leave it all behind so easily when we depart this 4d experience. The 'mind' we use here has no place outside of this world.

Well Mike, I hope I have gone some way to convince you all is not lost. Especially as I have just revealed way too much to the entire Avalon forum about an earlier part of life. What, the sex addiction? No, I am talking about the stupid blanket!

Maybe you will find it when you least expect to. I promise you, you will be overwhelmed.

[Mark (Star Mariner)]

Wow Ewan, what a profound experience. The methods she employed are new to me, but they sure sound effective. I've heard similar stories from many different places around the world. Shamans, mystics, ancient wisdom... It's not hard to believe these are purer sources than what we generally find in the West. And maybe that's the key insight.

As for the 'JUST LIVE' bit. I laughed. I've been told, time and again, almost exactly the same thing when asking that question. What is the purpose, what am I here for...? TO BE, I am told. Just TO BE.

[Mari]

I've had two pretty impressive readings from 'certified' mediums - those who were working at the Royal College of Psychic studies in Kensington, London. They go through the whole gamut -years of study, earning credentials etc before being able to practice there, so they're pretty kosher. But they have their strengths as well as their off days and this can affect a reading.
So yes- genuine psychics and mediums are out there, but you do have to hunt them down.

Carol Clarke. What can I say? I scheduled a reading with her, from the recommendations of Avalon, and Bill's endorsement...'she simply never gets it wrong'. Er..yes she does.
After hiking out £90 for a 90mins reading, I was expecting at least something that would get the juices flowing. A few minutes into the reading and the statement 'Oh, I can see that you're a smoker..you smoke..you should stop, but they ('they?') know that you wont'. Well - I haven't smoked for 25 years so where the hell did she get that from? A sympathetic pal said that she might have got her 'timelines' wrong. No - I don't buy that.

A big disappointment, followed by mediocre statements which meant absolutely nothing on an inner level, except an ego massaging when she stated that my aura was 'very, very unusual'...apparently gold and silver, but by this time I felt cheapened, cheated in some way I can't define.

One thing I will say, something that keeps popping into my head, is that I suspect some mediums/psychics are targeted by mischievous entities during a reading who can 'muscle in' and implant a thought into the medium's head which she interprets as her own guidance and this can very often be the case if the psychic doesn't do the 'guarding' prayers beforehand. I do wonder if this happened with Carol Clarke?

[Lunesoleil]

You're not saying it quite right, there are a lot of charlatans in astrology, just as there are among mediums.
Become your own astrologer or psychic and keep your money.
If you want to play a musical instrument, take anything and make music, if you want to be a singer, sing if you have a pretty voice, if you want to

[Eva2]

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[Mike]

Ewan, that's a remarkable testimony dude! Thanks for sharing it.

It seems appropriate to have happened in Thailand for some reason. The experience has a witch-doctor'y feel to it, as if you'd connected with a female Don Juan Matus or something.

I'm pleased for you. What a trip that musta been.

There are several schools of thought regarding my experiences (or lack thereof) and one is that I'm trying too hard, or forcing things. It's possible. Perhaps it's not meant to be handed to me. Perhaps I'm meant to connect with my multidimensional self thru my own machinations in this life. I can't say. But you'd think, after all the psychics I've connected with over the years, one of them would say one thing that was either accurate for the past/present or came true in the future.

I've got a pretty good sample size, and the psychics weren't your 1-800 variety. I discovered them all by reading such books as "The Holographic Universe" and "Journey of Souls" and so on. If price and waiting time is any indication of authenticity, these folks were it. Either 1) they're just not very good at all, 2) They all just happened to be having off days and I was extremely unlucky with each and every reading, or 3) I'm just not meant to connect to the esoteric world thru psychic channels in this lifetime.

I dunno.

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Posted by Mark (Star Mariner) (here)
There are many grifters, that's true, and I feel your pain Mike. I've run into a few of them myself. But genuine ones do exist, I've encountered them up close and for real.

It's important to understand that a medium, or clairvoyant, is like an interpreter. They receive information from an external source and translate it in terms we can understand. But first the information must be filtered through the consciousness field of the human ego. If that field is impure or just too dense the information will be inaccurate.

One doesn't have to be a saint or ascended master to be a genuine channel. A rule of thumb I've generally followed is genuine psychics/clairvoyants live humble lives. They are not 'big names'. I've found them in such places as psychic development circles/workshops, and spiritualist churches. They aren't rich, they aren't famous. They do not advertise, and do not charge a fee (they may ask for a donation however).

The best method I've personally found for obtaining a reading is from myself -- or my higher self. That was via QHHT (Quantum Healing Hypnosis Therapy) using the Dolores Cannon method. It was the only method that worked for me after trying numerous traditional practitioners. I am for whatever reason extremely difficult to hypnotise. I believe I have the strange honour of being the only subject certain hyno-regressionists could not hypnotise (in their entire careers). But even with QHHT, it took 45mins to bring me into a light trance. In that state I was able to obtain some information from my higher self and thus some answers, and experienced (recovered the memory of) a couple of past lives, or rather existences, as both were non-corporeal/physical.

The Dolores Cannon school of QHHT operates worldwide. In fact we have a member here on Avalon who practises it, enfoldedblue. If you wanted to blow another $200, it would be far better spent in QHHT than on a psychic hotline in my opinion. To find a practitioner in your area, check this page: https://members.qhhtofficial.com/find-a-practitioner/

Mark thanks for that suggestion! I'm intrigued by your experience and am absolutely going to explore QHHT.

[Mike]

Posted by Mari (here)
One thing I will say, something that keeps popping into my head, is that I suspect some mediums/psychics are targeted by mischievous entities during a reading who can 'muscle in' and implant a thought into the medium's head which she interprets as her own guidance and this can very often be the case if the psychic doesn't do the 'guarding' prayers beforehand. I do wonder if this happened with Carol Clarke?

Interesting point. Or maybe it's my head that's corrupted with mischievous entities preventing a psychic connection from occurring

@Eva2: yes! the leaves that Billy spoke of. forgot about that. Glad you mentioned it. See, now I'm ready to jump back in the game

[Pris]

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My suggestion?
Decide to take control over your own mind. Be confident, be strong. Don't listen to noise. Be your own 'authority'. Question everything. Know that you can find all the answers within yourself.

"As above so below."

[Kryztian]

Posted by Mike (here)
I want to believe.

But I've been getting psychic readings, on and off, for maybe 20 years and I still don't have 1 single shred of evidence that anyone on this planet has even the slightest bit of psychic ability at all.

Saying that psychic powers don't exist because you never found any shred of evidence from your $95 dollar a session psychic is a bit like saying true love doesn't exist because you never found any in the hundreds of whorehouses you've visited.

I have had several psychic readings. Because I went with low expectations, I enjoyed them immensely if only for theirentertainment value. But they didn't tell me anything helpful about my future, other than that I should rely more on my own wits than on side show psychics and dime magazine astrology columns.

Many have shared their experiences in this thread.
Predictions & Prophecies you've personally received - How did they pan out???


That being said, I have indeed had evidence of psychic power. I don't think anyone can tell you the exact future, however, some beings do know the parameters of what might happen in the future. I also know someone who is quite psychic and never charges for his services. However, his insight is related more to the past and the present. He can walk into a room and sometimes tell you what happened there many years before. In one instance, he mentioned somethings that happened in an old house and it caused someone listening to have a nervous breakdown - so, he wisely surmised that psychic powers are often more troublesome than they are helpful.

[Mike]

Posted by Kryztian (here)

Posted by Mike (here)
I want to believe.

But I've been getting psychic readings, on and off, for maybe 20 years and I still don't have 1 single shred of evidence that anyone on this planet has even the slightest bit of psychic ability at all.

Saying that psychic powers don't exist because you never found any shred of evidence from your $95 dollar a session psychic is a bit like saying true love doesn't exist because you never found any in the hundreds of whorehouses you've visited.

I have had several psychic readings. Because I went with low expectations, I enjoyed them immensely if only for theirentertainment value. But they didn't tell me anything helpful about my future, other than that I should rely more on my own wits than on side show psychics and dime magazine astrology columns.

Why would you go out of your way to get a reading if you didn't have any expectations?

See I think this is the crux of it: I don't think anyone, even those of us here who are open to such things, views these readings as anything more than a novelty. On the one hand we take it quite seriously, but on the other we treat it with a wink. Even the psychics themselves seem surprised when I ask questions that, according to their bio, they should be able to answer. It's as if I've broken the unspoken agreement that goes something like this: you play along with the reading and act impressed, and I (the psychic) will do my best to make this as entertaining as possible.

It's like 2 people that have agreed to participate in a LARP without breaking character. In that way it's more of a ritual than a reading. That's what you're paying for really - someone who's willing to play make believe with you while keeping a straight face.

I'm often told I expect too much from these readings. Well, if I'm paying you $200-$300, I have some expectations! I don't need to pay someone to tell me to seek my own council I'm paying them for their council. That's the whole point.

Chris I never said psychic powers don't exist. I just said I don't have any evidence that they do. And I have quite a sample size, so I think my little experiment should be regarded with a little curiosity at the very least.

I'd challenge everyone reading this: consider all your psychic readings, and being perfectly honest with yourself, assess by percentage how much of the info received was useful or accurate in any way.

[Mike]

Posted by Pris (here)
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My suggestion?
Decide to take control over your own mind. Be confident, be strong. Don't listen to noise. Be your own 'authority'. Question everything. Know that you can find all the answers within yourself.

Well I do have control over my own mind. I am my own authority. I'm not forfeiting my autonomy here, I'm just seeking some spiritual guidance

To be clear: this isn't something I do regularly. I've probably had roughly 15 -20 readings in the last 25 years. Sometimes I get readings on a whim. Sometimes it's after I've read a fascinating book or watched a podcast that's featured or discussed what appear to be gifted psychics. And sometimes it's when I'm at a crossroads and looking for some spiritual guidance.

I'm just a curious sort really who's prone to exploring this stuff from time to time.

[Casey Claar]

Posted by Mike (here)

Posted by Mari (here)
One thing I will say, something that keeps popping into my head, is that I suspect some mediums/psychics are targeted by mischievous entities during a reading who can 'muscle in' and implant a thought into the medium's head which she interprets as her own guidance and this can very often be the case if the psychic doesn't do the 'guarding' prayers beforehand. I do wonder if this happened with Carol Clarke?

Interesting point. Or maybe it's my head that's corrupted with mischievous entities preventing a psychic connection from occurring

@Eva2: yes! the leaves that Billy spoke of. forgot about that. Glad you mentioned it. See, now I'm ready to jump back in the game

We can try to put this to the test if you like. I can go into the crystal for you. If no being comes through for you this could indicate a definite block in you. But if someone does, especially quite easily, I'd say no significant block. -And no charge at all kind sir. Never a charge. All that is needed is a genuine willingness to connect. We can use this thread in itself to act as the request, rather than the more usual channels.

[Ivanhoe]

I firmly believe in psychics / mediums.
Members of my family have "powers", and I have had my own experiences, but I don't consider myself "gifted".
I have had three readings in my life.
The first was an old lady who turned out to be remarkably accurate concerning my future (I was 18 at the time), she didn't charge me anything but accepted donations.
The second was my ex-wife who was gifted but the reading was pretty general and some of it had to be taken at face value and with a measure of blind faith (and I'm pretty skeptical about a lot of claims because of my own experiences with myself and my family).
The third was a grifter for sure who was trying to entertain me with tales of my past incarnations (which didn't ring true to me) and virtually zero actual substance.
I felt it was purely entertainment.
Nevertheless, I recognize the psychic abilities of some people when I meet them, and I'm a pretty good and fast read of energy and intent and avoid some people and places like the plague.
Anyway, I'm rambling now so I'll stop.

[Mari]

Posted by Casey Claar (here)

Posted by Mike (here)

Posted by Mari (here)
One thing I will say, something that keeps popping into my head, is that I suspect some mediums/psychics are targeted by mischievous entities during a reading who can 'muscle in' and implant a thought into the medium's head which she interprets as her own guidance and this can very often be the case if the psychic doesn't do the 'guarding' prayers beforehand. I do wonder if this happened with Carol Clarke?

Interesting point. Or maybe it's my head that's corrupted with mischievous entities preventing a psychic connection from occurring

@Eva2: yes! the leaves that Billy spoke of. forgot about that. Glad you mentioned it. See, now I'm ready to jump back in the game

We can try to put this to the test if you like. I can go into the crystal for you. If no being comes through for you this could indicate a definite block in you. But if someone does, especially quite easily, I'd say no significant block. -And no charge at all kind sir. Never a charge. All that is needed is a genuine willingness to connect. We can use this thread in itself to act as the request, rather than the more usual channels.

Ok Casey, that's intriguing. What do I need to do?

[Pris]

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Posted by Mike (here)

Posted by Pris (here)
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My suggestion?
Decide to take control over your own mind. Be confident, be strong. Don't listen to noise. Be your own 'authority'. Question everything. Know that you can find all the answers within yourself.

Well I do have control over my own mind. I am my own authority. I'm not forfeiting my autonomy here, I'm just seeking some spiiritual guidance

To be clear: this isn't something I do regularly. I've probably had roughly 15 -20 readings in the last 25 years. Sometimes I get readings on a whim. Sometimes it's after I've read a fascinating book or watched a podcast that's featured or discussed what appear to be gifted psychics. And sometimes it's when I'm at a crossroads and looking for some spiritual guidance.

I'm just a curious sort really who's prone to exploring this stuff from time to time.

Interesting. Curiosity is one thing... To be entertained, amused, not to be taken seriously. I get the sense that you want to take this subject seriously. Why did you start this thread? Right from the top, your OP states that you "want to believe".

When I suggest deciding to take control over your own mind, it means there is no need to 'believe'. The need to care falls away because you already know all there is to know. From my perspective, you are already whole, you are enough. When you say you are seeking 'spiritual guidance' that suggests to me that you think you are not enough. If you were enough, you wouldn't seek it. Seeking guidance outside yourself gives your power away, makes you vulnerable.

When you are in the center, nothing is above you and nothing is below you.

Posted by Pris (here)
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"As above so below."