Recent feelings: Any members on here 'on edge and sense of foreboding'

[Arcturian108]

Sorry folks, but I am not being drawn in to all the foreboding, and end of the earth scenarios. Life in the Carolinas is good; my five ducks and four chickens are laying so many eggs that I don't know what to do with them all. On top of that, their behavior makes us laugh, as they splash in our pond and basically have the time of their lives.

I agree, however, that the powers that be might allow Trump to win, just to have the big banking crisis on his watch, instead of Biden's, to teach us all a lesson next year some time.

[lunaflare]

Thought I would chime in. I am feeling very good, even with some trouble with sleep/insomnia (solar flares?). My body feels more energised and yes, I do get plenty of sunlight living in the southern hemisphere (high degree of sunshine on east coast Australia).

The total solar eclipse is a big deal in astrology circles/spheres.
We are all travelling unique paths; there will be a myriad of perspectives and perceptions out there. I tune in to the media reports less and less these days. I just have little interest. I focus naturally on the positives. It is not forced. I am no Pollyanna and have experienced many long decades of darkness and what-is-the-pointness. Just saying that we all seem to experience life in such diverse and often times intense ways.

Moving through my Chiron return with growing awareness helped shift density. I am experiencing more light. Inner. Outer. I am super aware of my bio electrical nature. I have less fear.

[shaberon]

On "edge", yes, as always; "foreboding", never.

Perhaps the easiest way to describe it is that things I instinctually disliked as a child are simply now being revealed in full detail.

Even when I had an easy life, I knew something had gone wrong and was being covered up. Of course, I got the advice like "don't worry" or "that's not true" and such ideas that made me find out more. I now think the karma for giving me advice is a minimum five centuries in hell.

One parallel is perhaps the Earth Summit. In 1992, I thought it was the way to go, because back in the 70s we were concerned about "pollution" and nothing had happened. So I fell for the renewed message, without realizing what Clinton was until he had been in office for a while. That erased my tolerance on "advice" and "what's right" and so forth.

Well at the anniversary in Rio 2012, they had a girl speaker who was, maybe, about twelve or so, in other words was not even born for the first Summit. Nevertheless, in having studied it, her message was:


In my life I have seen things go exactly backwards.



It's that, longer.

I'm completely oblivious to whether tomorrow I get taken out by a neighbor's bullet, an asteroid, an alien, the Chinese, a microorganism, or the air itself. On the other hand, I am obsessed by things that lie in the realm of human choice, because the "edge" I feel is attributed solely to the mentality of others.

[ExomatrixTV]

I wonder what is worse? ... or more frightening ... having premonitions, foresight, visions of the (near) future etc. and KNOW some of them could be (partially) correct ... or ... becoming NUMB to it ... due to whatever reason(s) ... list is long.

Either way ... all (multidimensional) Souls here on Earth have chosen to experience: how it feels to be human, but our existence does not depend on being here at all ... really ... we just assume it is ... and most will tell a "story" to ourselves we chose to believe >>> just because it fits a certain spoon-fed narrative/limited comprehension/insight/"gut feeling"/collective (self)-hypnosis/group think/hive mind etc. etc.

I would not be surprised if all Souls are using "earth bodies" as an interface just like the "Avatar" Movie, and the Bio/Nano/Quantum/Tech that is involved could be millions of years ahead of our current technology.

And the global "Alien Abductions" phenomena is just a tip of the iceberg to grasp what I just said!

Remember, 80 to 100 years life-span compared to the Age of the Universe is less than quadrillion-th of a nanosecond if the Universe was total just "1 year" old ... In my view, there is something much deeper going on here.

It is not only knowing the age of the Universe being beyond our comprehension ... it has also INFINITE "parallel universes" too, aka "The Multiverse".

If that is really the case ... maybe it is not farfetched that we experience what we chose to believe "the good AND the bad" ... If we have an embedded "victim mentality" etched in our Souls, that only breeds more "victim reality" until we go beyond that and go to the next level of existence.

Maybe most Souls are addicted to the: "follow your excitement" principle, and that could be: "having an interesting or fascinating challenge" ... To test yourself, what you are really made of ... The question rises, why do we feel the urge to do that in the first place? ... Why? ... What happened to us all before we came here? ... And why do most of us agree to "forget" what the reason was?

Posted by mizo (here)
...

• To answer the question of this particular forum thread initiated by @mizo ... The last few weeks, I had multiple very strong VIVID dreams that are more than me being in the usual "observational" mode.

I remember REOCCURRING "waking up" within a dream and saw that I was in "futuristic" space station being in a giant artificial gravity wheel having a fight with one of the doctors in white coats telling me: "it will all come back" (remembering) ... Seeing myself holding a fist as a symbol of resistance, what is happening to me ... Then slowly I remembered who he was and that I trusted him for a long, long time. Like I knew him for ages. That feeling of "complete safety & serenity" ... at that movement, I chose to accept anything they are doing to me was "necessary" for whatever purpose. I was laying on a sterile hospital type, comfortable adjustable bed with 4 people surrounding me. 2 on each side. One is pouring a jelly like liquid in to my face, another is injecting stuff on the other side of my head, and the other two were making sure I stayed in the chair-like bed.

Then I realized just before I "dozed off" that they betrayed my trust in them! ... This energy was SO strong it was totally imprinted to current "presence" here on Earth.

What I just explained here have two aspects: ... Somehow I know they think it is necessary what they do >>> and I feel/sense absolutely no "evil intent" >>> BUT they had to LIE to me to do things a certain way ... And that really pissed me off.

This is a reoccurring theme happened in so many different dreams/visions, and it felt like it happened in the future, sending me back to now here!

My whole life, am super allergic when people are not authentic, "playing nice" not being genuine ... and made it very clear to all why I feel the need to raise certain questions to learn WHY people behave in a certain way. Hence, psychology became like "breathing" to me. It is part of who I am now.

• There is a pattern of having strong vivid "visionary" dreams, and mostly it is like getting an "upgrade" ... On average, I have them once a few years. But now I have them multiple times last few weeks ... So YES there IS something going right now and coming months.

What I have learned is that having access to "instant awareness" at the moment it is needed to have that kind of access ... is "totally normal" and extremely common in the "after life" or "spiritual world" hence there is no need for having a "memory" like physical Earth people do ... Memories can be altered because of our injected projections/expectations/interpretations mixed with emotions that are mostly traumas of the past, BLURRING (contaminating) factual unfiltered observations/experiences.

We assume we are defined having memories, and we are shaped through our experiences, correct? ... What if that is a form of self-conditioning preventing you gaining access to who you truly are?

• How many different "workshops" & "therapies" out there that are about letting go of what is holding you back to live your life ... Going beyond the "eternal victim mode" ... "Poor me mentality" breeds more than often "poor me reality".

When we meditate and succeed to (temporary) become FREE from (judgmental) labels we use on almost anything 24/7 ... There is something inside ALL OF US that is beyond all "thinking" beyond all thoughts you had, have and going to have combined ... Same for all other people having thoughts about you, who you're "suppose to be" past present & future.

This "essence" is existence that goes much deeper than "having a memory" with all the "conclusions" & "interpretations" we are conditioned to have in a certain way.

Those who can not access "instant awareness" often depend on programmed behavior spoon-fed to them ... this could come from all kinds of self-imposed beliefs. Many of them are very helpful & useful to serve a specific purpose ... but not all!

I have created a unique "meditation technique" for myself and discussed it long time ago on Radio & TV Amsterdam in the mid 1990s getting lots of fascinating feedback from the audience.

Explaining that it may not work for you, but it does for me ... all depends on your attitude/mentality/self-imposed limitations etc. etc. ... If it does not work for you, I will not judge you being "bad" or being "dumb" or whatever ... Because I am fully aware that everybody is unique, having their own "spiritual journey" of "self discoveries" that is beyond having programmed assumptions.



cheers,
John Kuhles 🦜🦋🌳
Abductee & Near Death Experiencer

[Pam]

Posted by ExomatrixTV (here)
I wonder what is worse? ... or more frightening ... having premonitions, foresight, visions of the (near) future etc. and KNOW some of them could be (partially) correct ... or ... becoming NUMB to it ... due to whatever reason(s) ... list is long.

Either way ... all (multidimensional) Souls here on Earth have chosen to experience: how it feels to be human, but our existence does not depend on being here at all ... really ... we just assume it is ... and most will tell a "story" to ourselves we chose to believe >>> just because it fits a certain spoon-fed narrative/limited comprehension/insight/"gut feeling"/collective (self)-hypnosis/group think/hive mind etc. etc.

I would not be surprised if all Souls are using "earth bodies" as an interface just like the "Avatar" Movie, and the Bio/Nano/Quantum/Tech that is involved could be millions of years ahead of our current technology.

And the global "Alien Abductions" phenomena is just a tip of the iceberg to grasp what I just said!

Remember, 80 to 100 years life-span compared to the age of the Universe is less than quadrillion-th nano-second ... In my view, there is something much deeper going on here.

It is not only knowing the age of the Universe being beyond our comprehension ... it has also INFINITE in "parallel universes" too, aka "The Multiverse".

If that is really the case ... maybe it is not farfetched that we experience what we chose to believe "the good AND the bad" ... If we have an embedded "victim mentality" etched in our Souls, that only breeds more "victim reality" until we go beyond that and go to the next level of existence.

Maybe most Souls are addicted to the: "follow your excitement" principle, and that could be: "having an interesting or fascinating challenge" ... To test yourself, what you are really made of ... The question rises, why do we feel the urge to do that in the first place? ... Why? ... What happened to us all before we came here? ... And why do most of us agree to "forget" what the reason was?

Posted by mizo (here)
...

• To answer the question of this particular forum thread initiated by @mizo ... The last few weeks, I had multiple very strong VIVID dreams that are more than me being in the usual "observational" mode.

I remember REOCCURRING "waking up" within a dream and saw that I was in "futuristic" space station being in a giant artificial gravity wheel having a fight with one of the doctors in white coats telling me: "it will all come back" (remembering) ... Seeing myself holding a fist as a symbol of resistance, what is happening to me ... Then slowly I remembered who he was and that I trusted him for a long, long time. Like I knew him for ages. That feeling of "complete safety & serenity" ... at that movement, I chose to accept anything they are doing to me was "necessary" for whatever purpose. I was laying on a sterile hospital type, comfortable adjustable bed with 4 people surrounding me. 2 on each side. One is pouring a jelly like liquid in to my face, another is injecting stuff on the other side of my head, and the other two were making sure I stayed in the chair.

Then I realized just before I "dozed off" that they betrayed my trust in them! ... This energy was SO strong it was totally imprinted to current "presence" here on Earth.

What I just explained here have two aspects: ... Somehow I know they think it is necessary what they do >>> and I feel/sense absolutely no "evil intent" >>> BUT they had to LIE to me to do things a certain way ... And that really pissed me off.

This is a reoccurring theme happened in so many different dreams/visions, and it felt like it happened in the future, sending me back to now here!

My whole life, am super allergic when people are not authentic, "playing nice" not being genuine ... and made it very clear to all why I feel the need to raise certain questions to learn WHY people behave in a certain way. Hence, psychology became like "breathing" to me. It is part of who I am now.

• There is a pattern of having strong vivid "visionary" dreams, and mostly it is like getting an "upgrade" ... On average, I have them once a few years. But now I have them multiple times last few weeks ... So YES there IS something going right now and coming months.

What I have learned is that having access to "instant awareness" at the moment it is needed to have that kind of access ... is "totally normal" and extremely common in the "after life" or "spiritual world" hence there is no need for having a "memory" like physical Earth people do ... Memories can be altered because of our injected projections/expectations/interpretations mixed with emotions that are mostly traumas of the past, BLURRING (contaminating) factual unfiltered observations/experiences.

We assume we are defined having memories, and we are shaped through our experiences, correct? ... What if that is a form of self-conditioning preventing you gaining access to who you truly are?

• How many different "workshops" & "therapies" out there that are about letting go of what is holding you back to live your life ... Going beyond the "eternal victim mode" ... "Poor me mentality" breeds more than often "poor me reality".

When we meditate and succeed to (temporary) become FREE from (judgmental) labels we use on almost anything 24/7 ... There is something inside ALL OF US that is beyond all "thinking" beyond all thoughts you had, have and going to have combined ... Same for all other people having thoughts about you, who you're "suppose to be" past present & future.

This "essence" is existence that goes much deeper than "having a memory" with all the "conclusions" & "interpretations" we are conditioned to have in a certain way.

Those who can not access "instant awareness" often depend on programmed behavior spoon-fed to them ... this could come from all kinds of self-imposed beliefs. Many of them are very helpful & useful to serve a specific purpose ... but not all!

I have created a unique "meditation technique" for myself and discussed it long time ago on Radio & TV Amsterdam in the mid 1990s getting lots of fascinating feedback from the audience.

Explaining that it may not work for you, but it does for me ... all depends on your attitude/mentality/self-imposed limitations etc. etc. ... If it does not work for you, I will not judge you being "bad" or being "dumb" or whatever ... Because I am fully aware that everybody is unique, having their own "spiritual journey" of "self discoveries" that is beyond having programmed assumptions.



cheers,
John Kuhles 🦜🦋🌳
Abductee & Near Death Experiencer

This means so much coming from you ,Exo... I feel it too, the transformation, the breaking down and restructuring at a rate that makes my head spin. Like you said what happened every few years is speeding up big time. All the while knowing this is a construct, I am an avatar. So there are a minimum of two levels this stuff is happening at. The story we are part of and our avatar, this construct and outside this construct...and how far does that go? I have no idea. So at one point we deal with our current storyline and character but there is such a big awareness of so much more outside of this reality. I still make a point to find the beauty here, every single day.

To be honest, I am more than ready to ditch this story line. I think we have played this thing out, except for the climactic ending, whatever that is. One thing I know for sure.... you are a hero avatar in my book. The reality is though, it took everyone playing their roles for the story to be the story. The junkie on Kensington avenue, creepy Bill Gates, the whole shebang. Bill and Mara and the mountains, a magnificent story of love and devotion. Honestly, I don't think it will be much longer till this story as it is playing will continue at this level...but time is a tricky thing. It is the innocent ones that break my heart.....even though it is a story and they will be ok in the end.

[pueblo]

At this stage I am finding the increasing giddy/sick feeling of anticipation at times difficult to regulate.

Grounding, forgiving, giving gratitude and remembering to trust...these things help.

Sinks and Rises.....Crests and Troughs.... Valleys and Peaks....love to all.

[Jaak]

I felt the doom coming already before covid scam.That something big and negative is coming and crushing us under it. So far this feeling keeps on re-occuring but there are some things that help me occasionally overcome this.
By reminding myself that our inner world should not be troubled by the outside world.Easy to say,hard to do.
Also the budhist sayin that if there is no solution to problem or if you cant do anything about it then why worry about it. Or if there is a solution to a problem then why worry about it...
Feeling down and negative and hopeless is how this damned elite want us to feel .
But as M.P.Hall sayd in that speech below - ¨No matter how bad things around you get get,You can get better¨. All kinds of bad stuff happening in this world but why let them affect us so much if we cant do sh*t about it..

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=2SH1jNAV-pI

[RMF808]

Posted by Pam (here)
Yep, I feel it thick in the air. I almost feel a sense of panic to run away from it. What I have decided to do is just sit with it. When the "panic" level seems almost more than I can bare I have decided to just sit with the feeling. Not try to distract it, modify it, do anything but just sit with the feeling of it. I have to agree with Harmony, it's a combination. The sun and other astral elements are definitely sending out powerful information or energetic wave forms and we have the nasties doing their evil thing, it's all mixed together. It all has the potential to be crazy making because there is a huge amount of intensity out there. It manifests in a million ways, disease (dis---ease), mental instability, steps toward heightened awareness, it magnifies what is.

This will sound incredibly weird but I have been purging huge amounts of sorrow. Some of it is my own, but most of it isn't even from my personal experiences. I am just processing sorrow. I tell you, there has been incredible sorrow experienced in this realm, not just human, I am experiencing all sorrow, sentient life forms, the earth, all of it. I know that sounds really crazy, but I don't care if I sound crazy any longer. This whole thing is about manifesting authenticity. That is my take anyway. The closer you can get to your authentic self, to break the frigging programs down the better off you will be.

If you want to invert the inversion, become your authentic self, knock out as much cognitive dissonance as you can. This is almost an unbearable task, but it is the task we are given. We are not here at this time to be distracted weaklings, to pick sides, to get lost in distractions. We are here to find our highest selves and bring that out into the open, right up to the last breath we take in this experience. Have I mastered this, heck no, but I aspire to this. I am becoming this.

Another thing I have been doing every morning is working through the Hemi-sync Gateway experience meditations. Someone on the forum and I don't even remember who shared the Robert Monroe gateway tapes for free from The Internet Archive but I thank them now. The whole dang series is on there and they are amazing. If they haven't been downloaded to the Avalon library they should be. There are more these are just the first tapes.

https://archive.org/details/the-gate...erience-wave-i

Aloha Pam, I’m happy to hear you are using hemisync. My thread goes up to wave 4. I used to be able to use waves 5-8 on Internet Archive but they were taken down. I would love for you to share those other waves with me if you can find them.

I feel stuff getting thicker too and feel hemisync is how we are going to become telepathic remote viewers. It’s what we need to grow and learn together for whatever may come our way.

Mahalo & aloha

https://projectavalon.net/forum4/sho...ynchronization

[jagman]

I am experiencing a severe ringing in my ears, especially my right ear. This has been occuring for the past few days. It also seems to be intensifying... I'm setting on a fault line that produced one of the strongest quakes known to man! Oh did I mention that I live almost directly in the middle of the X eclipse. I don't feel like I'm contributing to fear porn by saying I'm a little scared...The Bible is very accurate at predicting historical events, but beyond that these things that are going to occur on April 8 are very alarming! It's all alligning up to a perfect storm of events. I hope we are all safe and I'm not saying this is the end but this could be the beginning of something horrible! I don't want to bring anyone down. I'm a happy person who loves life. I think all we can do is be good to each other, respect others.tell your loved ones how much you love them! Be good to your animals! Show kindness to a stranger. Just be good human beings!!!

[meat suit]

A lot of people are drained after an intense winter, I got through it easily this time taking a 5htp every day. Keeps up the serotonin.

[Johnnycomelately]

Posted by meat suit (here)
A lot of people are drained after an intense winter, I got through it easily this time taking a 5htp every day. Keeps up the serotonin.

I had to look it up, but interesting substance!

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/5-Hydroxytryptophan

5-Hydroxytryptophan (5-HTP), also known as oxitriptan, is a naturally occurring amino acid and chemical precursor as well as a metabolic intermediate in the biosynthesis of the neurotransmitter serotonin.
Uses
5-HTP is sold over the counter in the United States, France, Canada, Singapore, the Netherlands, and the United Kingdom as a dietary supplement for use as an antidepressant, appetite suppressant, and sleep aid. It is also marketed in many European countries for the indication of major depression under the trade names Cincofarm, Levothym, Levotonine, Oxyfan, Telesol, Tript-OH, and Triptum.[1]
A 2002 review concluded that although the data evaluated suggests that 5-HTP is more effective than placebo in the treatment of depression, the evidence was insufficient to be conclusive due to a lack of clinical data meeting the rigorous standards of the day.[2] More and larger studies using current methodologies are needed to determine if 5-HTP is truly effective in treating depression.[3][4] In small, controlled trials 5-HTP has also been reported to augment the antidepressant efficacy of the antidepressant clomipramine.[5][6][7] A 2020 meta-analysis found oral 5-HTP supplementation had a large effect size on depression symptom severity. However, the included studies were considered relatively weak and the methods and treatment duration varied between the seven studies examined.[8]
5-HTP use after MDMA
MDMA is an empathogenic-entactogenic and serotonergic psychotropic drug used primarily for recreational, though sometimes also therapeutic, purposes. Among users of MDMA, the serotonergic effects of the drug are often of particular interest and concern: After consuming MDMA, serotonin concentrations are greatly reduced in the brain. 5-HTP is necessary for serotonin production and its concentrations in the brain also decrease after taking MDMA.
Other usage
At high doses, or in combination with carbidopa, 5-HTP has been used to treat obesity (by promoting weight loss).[9][10]
In clinical trials of various design, 5-HTP has also been reported to treat fibromyalgia,[11] myoclonus,[12] migraine,[13] and cerebellar ataxia.[14] However, these clinical findings, as for all therapeutic findings with 5-HTP, are preliminary and need confirmation in larger trials.

[Agape]

John , what you have said ( I don’t want to quote your post as it becomes extremely space consuming and difficult to read) is very similar to my own process in multiple ways and thanks for expressing your introspection in detail 🙏

I feel often the same and came to a sense of placid off stand years ago knowing that somewhere at the ends of my encounters my consent was overlooked , betrayed.

Cultivating powerful sense of awareness pertaining to all states of consciousness whether awake or asleep too became one of my main methods of “combat” in this life and a way how to repel deceptive influences.

It took me many hard lessons to learn “not to play with fire” of friends who are perhaps “very interesting” but have dubious characters.

My own introspection along those lines however sublime eventually zooms to a moment of time when I’m taking willing part and responsibility for being here, on this Planet in the type of human body and awareness we are all experiencing.

It’s probably been made clear to me number of times that calling it all a quit can only happen once and there’s no come back.

I’ve experienced it “all” from NDE, extraterrestrial contact to different stages of enlightenment plus worthy workout of dealing with suffering and sufferers.

I may be displaced or physically disabled times to times but I’ve never been or felt a self centered person which eventually brought the most interesting fate upon me but also countless difficulties.

“We aren’t alone” in our previous home world - advanced reality else what would be the case of “going”.

We are never alone in this world either unless it prompts us to self isolate from it


All that’s being done by them ( unlike in human world) is done with complete view of the bigger whole I was assured countless times but yet

we are here voluntarily. The path of liberation ..from self or selves, from fear, from being earthling follows the understanding that each of us questioning the greatest absurdity and paradigm of being in it ( of so little obvious benefit to others) are here voluntarily and in theory and practice we should be able to unsubscribe at any time

and return back ,

possibly after passing several tests for alcohol and other deviant intoxicants and food toxins that could have made you “angry” with it all

or does it have more to do with still wanting to see your old friends ( even while they pretend not to care a bit about you )

or perhaps ..would you not chose to explore this bountiful planetary nature and discover some new herb that could save lives across the Universe.

With pinch of salt, they’re keeping us in the lot at all cost.


One has to be careful not to slip on banana peel but it’s also quite clear that some day we all will be zipping through the infinite space again and forget about local aubergines.

So I chose to embrace each day instead as if it was my last ( even though sometimes I fake it and think of better tomorrows ) and live it to the fullest possible ( which isn’t a lot but it has to suffice till ‘they get it all right )


There’s always an option that it all subsides at some point in time ...

because the last few years have been so intense that many people come to share their “sense of foreboding” even while most people now also recognize its symptomatic , stress related and not necessarily reality-intuitive ,

it’s like a huge dark cloud hanging on this civilization that has to come down at some point , we just don’t know when

and if it does . Many people will feel a sense of relief.


Of course there’s whole better solution range we focus on that has to do with healthy environment , physical and psychological and recreation of social sense and meaning and so forth but whether it’s going to work in long run no one can decide either.

Talking too much

Thanks and namaste

🙏

[Pam]

Posted by RMF808 (here)

Posted by Pam (here)
Yep, I feel it thick in the air. I almost feel a sense of panic to run away from it. What I have decided to do is just sit with it. When the "panic" level seems almost more than I can bare I have decided to just sit with the feeling. Not try to distract it, modify it, do anything but just sit with the feeling of it. I have to agree with Harmony, it's a combination. The sun and other astral elements are definitely sending out powerful information or energetic wave forms and we have the nasties doing their evil thing, it's all mixed together. It all has the potential to be crazy making because there is a huge amount of intensity out there. It manifests in a million ways, disease (dis---ease), mental instability, steps toward heightened awareness, it magnifies what is.

This will sound incredibly weird but I have been purging huge amounts of sorrow. Some of it is my own, but most of it isn't even from my personal experiences. I am just processing sorrow. I tell you, there has been incredible sorrow experienced in this realm, not just human, I am experiencing all sorrow, sentient life forms, the earth, all of it. I know that sounds really crazy, but I don't care if I sound crazy any longer. This whole thing is about manifesting authenticity. That is my take anyway. The closer you can get to your authentic self, to break the frigging programs down the better off you will be.

If you want to invert the inversion, become your authentic self, knock out as much cognitive dissonance as you can. This is almost an unbearable task, but it is the task we are given. We are not here at this time to be distracted weaklings, to pick sides, to get lost in distractions. We are here to find our highest selves and bring that out into the open, right up to the last breath we take in this experience. Have I mastered this, heck no, but I aspire to this. I am becoming this.

Another thing I have been doing every morning is working through the Hemi-sync Gateway experience meditations. Someone on the forum and I don't even remember who shared the Robert Monroe gateway tapes for free from The Internet Archive but I thank them now. The whole dang series is on there and they are amazing. If they haven't been downloaded to the Avalon library they should be. There are more these are just the first tapes.

https://archive.org/details/the-gate...erience-wave-i

Aloha Pam, I’m happy to hear you are using hemisync. My thread goes up to wave 4. I used to be able to use waves 5-8 on Internet Archive but they were taken down. I would love for you to share those other waves with me if you can find them.

I feel stuff getting thicker too and feel hemisync is how we are going to become telepathic remote viewers. It’s what we need to grow and learn together for whatever may come our way.

Mahalo & aloha

https://projectavalon.net/forum4/sho...ynchronization

I actually got started regularly doing them for your thread RMF808. I downloaded them all. If I have to I will just pay for the whole thing I believe. I have actually stayed on some of the earlier ones till I really feel I have them. I may just pay for the whole deal and I wonder of just sharing my access on the forum would be a truly unethical thing. I could at least share it with those that are really interested. If I do it, I will at least share it with you, you were the one that made it so accessible. You can piece it together on Youtube. I have actually paid to not have the advertisements but I like the simple accessibility of the way Internet Archive has them presented. There is something to the whole thing. I spent a bunch of time reading and rereading his books, I am now working on the the Darius Wright technique of OBE. I have experienced it, but not controlled in the method that Monroe and Darius have done. The whole thing is such a expansive experience. It can take you out of this tawdry drama and give it perspective.

Thanks so much for creating that thread. I have a bad habit of staying with the threads that are currently trending and I tend to miss so much. I am very happy you are on the forum. You have benefited at this member immensely.l

[norman]

Posted by Pam (here)

My thread goes up to wave 4. I used to be able to use waves 5-8 on Internet Archive but they were taken down. I would love for you to share those other waves with me if you can find them.

This page has a 'torrent' link that, I think, downloads the whole lot.

[william r sanford72]

Make It Through The Night..

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=eVAKkbu_O9k

and

Rock on.

[Bill Ryan]

Just a quick personal comment here. I appreciate the thread totally, and take everyone's posts most seriously. But I wasn't going to post anything myself as I did have a feeling of foreboding just over a year ago, and quite strongly too (I described it as 'panic', something I very rarely feel in any situation), but since then I've very much came to terms with it all in maybe a rather Zen-like way.

However, last night the feeling of 'foreboding' returned. I even looked up the word, to check if we were all on the same page:

Foreboding: fearful apprehension; a feeling that something bad will happen.

In my own case, there's no personal 'fear' per se. Rather like watching a well-made, well-acted, movie drama, one can get very caught up in the storyline and feel a whole range of vivid emotions as the situations in the film develop and become more entangled and hard to resolve.

But while watching the characters' arcs unfold and unravel, there's no 'fear'. Just engagement (though some scenes may be very difficult to bring oneself to watch), identification, and strong focused interest.

That's not to trivialize anything — of course. Human suffering is all too real, and sometimes, with certain current events, I literally have to look away. There have been some things, vividly captured on camera, that I can just not bear to witness with my own eyes.

This post feels a little clumsy, but I hope readers may understand. Back to topic here, I do very much suspect that "something bad will happen", and maybe quite a few things, not just a singular event.

When, I'm not certain (but in the next few years and before 2030), and exactly what, I'm also not 100% sure. But some of what's shared in the first long report (though NOT the second one, which I suspect was written by a different person) on this post does ring very true. I think we may be able to mitigate some events (i.e. minimize the full effect at least to some small extent) — but not stop them from occurring.

[Tobor Knot]

I've been feeling for a few years now that we have been living in a B class SciFi movie just before the zombies come in, only they are now beginning to come in!

[ExomatrixTV]

Having (deeply) legit concerns is not the same as having rampant fear or getting too many anxiety attacks

There is a spectrum or a range of emotions & feelings getting all mixed up ... some of them are paralyzing some of them are ACTIVATING, all depends on your "state of being" (and self-knowledge) I guess.

How many people have legit concerns but not feel confident enough to handle what is coming ... no trust in oneself <<< and that can make it worse ... How you see yourself is KEY in how you deal with anything in life.

• If you feel incompetent ... try to make a list of WHY that is and find a constructive way to transform it!

cheers,
John 🦜🦋🌳

[Brigantia]

Thanks Bill; I do understand what you have said, very much so.

We've been very lucky - most of us - who have not had to live through war, famine, pestilence etc.; overall it's been a fairly tranquil life for most of us who live in the developed world. Many other countries have had civil wars that have turned their societies upside down.

I do feel a sense of foreboding but I always remind myself that my parents lived through WW2, and my grandparents through both world wars. If they could cope and get through it, so can I; I must have the genes of survivors.

The focus should be to do the best you can with whatever is thrown at you.

[Pam]

Posted by Bill Ryan (here)
Just a quick personal comment here. I appreciate the thread totally, and take everyone's posts most seriously. But I wasn't going to post anything myself as I did have a feeling of foreboding just over a year ago, and quite strongly too (I described it as 'panic', something I very rarely feel in any situation), but since then I've very much came to terms with it all in maybe a rather Zen-like way.

However, last night the feeling of 'foreboding' returned. I even looked up the word, to check if we were all on the same page:

Foreboding: fearful apprehension; a feeling that something bad will happen.

In my own case, there's no personal 'fear' per se. Rather like watching a well-made, well-acted, movie drama, one can get very caught up in the storyline and feel a whole range of vivid emotions as the situations in the film develop and become more entangled and hard to resolve.

But while watching the characters' arcs unfold and unravel, there's no 'fear'. Just engagement (though some scenes may be very difficult to bring oneself to watch), identification, and strong focused interest.

That's not to trivialize anything — of course. Human suffering is all too real, and sometimes, with certain current events, I literally have to look away. There have been some things, vividly captured on camera, that I can just not bear to witness with my own eyes.

This post feels a little clumsy, but I hope readers may understand. Back to topic here, I do very much suspect that "something bad will happen", and maybe quite a few things, not just a singular event.

When, I'm not certain (but in the next few years and before 2030), and exactly what, I'm also not 100% sure. But some of what's shared in the first long report (though NOT the second one, which I suspect was written by a different person) on this post does ring very true. I think we may be able to mitigate some events (i.e. minimize the full effect at least to some small extent) — but not stop them from occurring.

I understand every word of what you said, Bill. When I talk about the panic, it is not with a desire to "quick, see if I can fix things" which is my personal tendency. There is a grand acceptance. I had a marvelous call from a neighbor who for whatever reason has been rather snarky to me in the past. Today we talked for 2 hours and it was an honest talk of two people who see the trajectory, not with dread, or what can we do, but with acceptance and humor, with reflection and honesty. The like of which I would never dream of having with her.

We have really been honored to be a part of this, I think we chose it. At this moment I am filled with gratitude, and I will be even if the whole construct falls apart. When and if it does during my lifetime, I will remember the love , the conversation with a lady who has been bitchy with me in the past, you and Mara, my sweet animal friends....there is such beautiful gratitude for this experience no matter what happens...

Honestly, I am ready for it all. I can only die once. I know that would be harder if I had young children, but I see and experience the evil, it runs through me, I see the story and I feel the pain they can not process. This thing, even the goodness has to go as far as I can see. The duality is here at the extremity . Your goodness and decency juxtaposed against the horrendous torture of the innocent, and I do not speak only of humans here, I speak for all of them.

As insane as I know I sound their stories are running through me, vertically like a river. I feel the pain they dare not they are in a state of shock, they can't deal with it so I do. I won't be able to do it much longer and I don't know what the point of the whole thing is. I just want to document it in words in a public space.

I apologize for becoming the nut case of the forum. I used to want to "help" those that expressed similar things. I was still so programmed, and I still am to some degree.

I am just speaking raw honesty because that is the counter balance to the other stuff that is happening. I would rather not do this. I do not want to be thought a nut case, but it is time now, it is time to be fearless as best we can

With love, Pam