Here and Now...What's Happening?

[Carmody]

Posted by transiten (here)
Ernie, do i think i know how you feel?

"If i didn't have all this bad luck, i wouldn't have no luck at all".......i can't give you any advice, i don't want to but i hear you. I don't want to reveal the whole story of my life, although i've spread some of it out on the forum...but there is a meaning to it all even if some things happening to many humans are almost unbearable to take in. Did they choose a life of starvation or torture as a gift to others to discover and practice compassion?

I'm too tired to elaborate, fighting a cold, my spirits raise and fall but i'm thankful for this village waterhole....Gosh, that made rhymes:

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=rlN8BO43QVE

switch to a high bit rate (480p or better), let it load up so it does not hiccup (if you have a slow connection)..and crank it.

Then strap in... and start it up.

For if you've never heard this (or Peter Green) before, it will be a treat. To hear it for the first time...-- I envy you.

[starsha]

Posted by ulli (here)
He's gone again. No longer on-line.
I could make some astrology comments here,
but after recent events I decided it would be best to keep my big mouth shut.
Unless people ASK for advice it's not a good idea to volunteer it.
Lesson learnt.
Ernie if you are reading this, be assured we are here for you.
Expressing suffering is one thing, and asking for help is another thing altogether.
Both must be done, for any real change to take place.
When asking for help one must be specific, that's another important part of self definition.
Because a general cry for help might bring some unwanted results.

Ahh yes thank you Uli,

Giving unsolicited advice has been a bad habit of mine in the past for sure. It's a bit of a balancing act in a way, because sometimes the guidance is so clear to move toward helping a specific person ... yet there are times that the person isn't ready or even interested in being helped.

I guess that is where wisdom comes in to play (for me) sometimes it can feel like juggling wisdom compassion and intuition. I guess you can always plant a seed and let it sprout when it's the right time later. This has been an on going learning for me in this lifetime, and i am still work in progress with it.

[Ernie Nemeth]

I wish I had more faith but it has been wrung out of me.

I have been instructed to ask for help about ten times these past few months alone. I thought I had asked. I thought that stating ones truth, when it is as warped as mine, is a cry for help.
As ACIM states (paraphrased): everything is either love or a call for love.

There are two of me, and they are at battle. They always have been. They detest each other. They will not give ground. And I vacilate between them. Identifying with one for a while, then answering from the perspective of the other. They want me to choose sides but I see the merits of both. I want both, and neither.

It is my pride, you see. Tempered by my shame. And my guilt. These are my walls. These block me from my power quite effectively. I want to let down my guard, to be vulnerable. But I must not let anybody see my weakness, my fear. I have learnt I can only rely on myself, and my resources are severely limited as a result. No man is an island...

I understand I have brought this about myself, with false beliefs and the acceptance of illusions. I know I am lost. I know I cannot find my way on my own. I have learned the hard way that no amount of effort on my own will ever suffice. I am poor because I am alone. I am unsuccessful because I compete against myself. I have shunned the world and I am left pining for it. I have scoffed at my inheritance and I am left barren.

I need help. I cannot be more specific because I do not understand the problem or I cannot frame it properly. I do not know what I need. I only know I cannot do it on my own.

[starsha]

Posted by Ernie Nemeth (here)
I wish I had more faith but it has been wrung out of me.

I have been instructed to ask for help about ten times these past few months alone. I thought I had asked. I thought that stating ones truth, when it is as warped as mine, is a cry for help.
As ACIM states (paraphrased): everything is either love or a call for love.

There are two of me, and they are at battle. They always have been. They detest each other. They will not give ground. And I vacilate between them. Identifying with one for a while, then answering from the perspective of the other. They want me to choose sides but I see the merits of both. I want both, and neither.

It is my pride, you see. Tempered by my shame. And my guilt. These are my walls. These block me from my power quite effectively. I want to let down my guard, to be vulnerable. But I must not let anybody see my weakness, my fear. I have learnt I can only rely on myself, and my resources are severely limited as a result. No man is an island...

I understand I have brought this about myself, with false beliefs and the acceptance of illusions. I know I am lost. I know I cannot find my way on my own. I have learned the hard way that no amount of effort on my own will ever suffice. I am poor because I am alone. I am unsuccessful because I compete against myself. I have shunned the world and I am left pining for it. I have scoffed at my inheritance and I am left barren.

I need help. I cannot be more specific because I do not understand the problem or I cannot frame it properly. I do not know what I need. I only know I cannot do it on my own.

Ernie i would love to help you and feel very much pulled to do so. So for what it's worth, if you would like to talk ever please contact me via PM or on skype at starsha.zesoma ... i seem to be working with people who are in the space you are in a lot lately. So i just wanted you to know i am here.

hugs
Starsha

[ulli]

Ernie, so the answer is step by step.
Sorting priorities, finding causes, removing obstacles and avoiding danger zones.
I still have your chart and had a look.
You have a transit today that brings stuff to a head.
Mars is conjunct your natal Pluto, so lava is coming up from the deeper layers.
At first it seems like it's burning and damaging, but it will make new fertile soil.

Your problem is financial. You have a profession, you can make money, but you are uncomfortable doing so?
You feel guilty because somewhere inside you there is a program that says making money is bad?
The dividing the world into material and spiritual is the first error.
Your duality is a reflection of the world as you see it.
So my first advice is this:
try to see both as one.
Spirit is matter at it's highest, and matter is spirit at it's lowest. no divisions, just layers and levels.
We are here to experience both, moving like a hydrofoil, that can travel over land and water with equal ease.
Thinking about this may already give new insights.

[PurpleLama]

I've had many times when life has brought me down
I failed my friends and family, failed most of all myself
Everything I loved got broken and shattered
I felt mean and nothing really mattered
And God came to me, and said take it easy
It's not just about you
It's not just about your pain
I am to blame
God said look, you've been asking the wrong questions
There really is a purpose
It isn't just a game
Sometimes things just have to be broken
Before they can mend
I said why, should there be this suffering
Should it be so hard
Just to be human, just to be here
God said hey, look me in the eye
Tell me who you see
I did what he said, did what he asked of me
I saw how all the pain has meaning
How it could make sense
When I stopped, and did what God requested
And looked him in the eye
All I could do was cry
In God's eye, all I could see was me


I made this up, right here on the spot, for Ernie, especially, but for me and everyone too.

[Carmody]

Posted by ulli (here)
Ernie, so the answer is step by step.
Sorting priorities, finding causes, removing obstacles and avoiding danger zones.
I still have your chart and had a look.
You have a transit today that brings stuff to a head.
Mars is conjunct your natal Pluto, so lava is coming up from the deeper layers.
At first it seems like it's burning and damaging, but it will make new fertile soil.

Your problem is financial. You have a profession, you can make money, but you are uncomfortable doing so?
You feel guilty because somewhere inside you there is a program that says making money is bad?
The dividing the world into material and spiritual is the first error.
Your duality is a reflection of the world as you see it.
So my first advice is this:
try to see both as one.
Spirit is matter at it's highest, and matter is spirit at it's lowest. no divisions, just layers and levels.
We are here to experience both, moving like a hydrofoil, that can travel over land and water with equal ease.
Thinking about this may already give new insights.

Mars opposition Chiron
Mars inconjunct Uranus
Mars trine Jupiter


These three alignments are also happening, right now. Under the additional strain of having our emotions peaked by a full moon.

The current alignments are also setting my chart on fire. But that is not unusual.....(for this one)

when they fire one's chart up, it can and will be stressful. never mind the idea of the world itself flowing and responding to these alignments.

It is possible to see the alignments as a reflection of the quantum aspect of plasma's inter-dimensional bridging behavior.

For space IS plasma and plasma is a 'mass quantum aggregate', It is not a solid lattice structure which is the most dense and unified (bubble) of 'matter'.

Since plasma is the state of 99% of the universe and the universe is ''electric' .... this ends up steering the planets..due to this humungous quantum mass aggregate--this plasma.

This is how the planetary motions can reflect timeline and multi-dimensional flow patterns.

[Lisab]

Posted by starsha (here)

Posted by Ernie Nemeth (here)
I wish I had more faith but it has been wrung out of me.

I have been instructed to ask for help about ten times these past few months alone. I thought I had asked. I thought that stating ones truth, when it is as warped as mine, is a cry for help.
As ACIM states (paraphrased): everything is either love or a call for love.

There are two of me, and they are at battle. They always have been. They detest each other. They will not give ground. And I vacilate between them. Identifying with one for a while, then answering from the perspective of the other. They want me to choose sides but I see the merits of both. I want both, and neither.

It is my pride, you see. Tempered by my shame. And my guilt. These are my walls. These block me from my power quite effectively. I want to let down my guard, to be vulnerable. But I must not let anybody see my weakness, my fear. I have learnt I can only rely on myself, and my resources are severely limited as a result. No man is an island...

I understand I have brought this about myself, with false beliefs and the acceptance of illusions. I know I am lost. I know I cannot find my way on my own. I have learned the hard way that no amount of effort on my own will ever suffice. I am poor because I am alone. I am unsuccessful because I compete against myself. I have shunned the world and I am left pining for it. I have scoffed at my inheritance and I am left barren.

I need help. I cannot be more specific because I do not understand the problem or I cannot frame it properly. I do not know what I need. I only know I cannot do it on my own.

Ernie i would love to help you and feel very much pulled to do so. So for what it's worth, if you would like to talk ever please contact me via PM or on skype at starsha.zesoma ... i seem to be working with people who are in the space you are in a lot lately. So i just wanted you to know i am here.

hugs
Starsha

Starsha thankyou for being here and now x

Ernie your posts have broken my heart. I want you to know that when you were working and not posting here everyone was asking and wondering how you were, especially Ulli. You would see if you looked back at past posts, a bit much I know. I think Starsha's right, your about to break on thru to the other side most likely. Hang in there. Also there's a handy little book called 'F**k It the ultimate Spiritual Way' by John C. Parkin published by Hay House. I find it a good read sometimes for those times when what I'm resistings persisting. x It was so great when you came back. x

[ulli]

Posted by Carmody (here)

Posted by ulli (here)
Ernie, so the answer is step by step.
Sorting priorities, finding causes, removing obstacles and avoiding danger zones.
I still have your chart and had a look.
You have a transit today that brings stuff to a head.
Mars is conjunct your natal Pluto, so lava is coming up from the deeper layers.
At first it seems like it's burning and damaging, but it will make new fertile soil.

Your problem is financial. You have a profession, you can make money, but you are uncomfortable doing so?
You feel guilty because somewhere inside you there is a program that says making money is bad?
The dividing the world into material and spiritual is the first error.
Your duality is a reflection of the world as you see it.
So my first advice is this:
try to see both as one.
Spirit is matter at it's highest, and matter is spirit at it's lowest. no divisions, just layers and levels.
We are here to experience both, moving like a hydrofoil, that can travel over land and water with equal ease.
Thinking about this may already give new insights.

Mars opposition Chiron
Mars inconjunct Uranus
Mars trine Jupiter


These three alignments are also happening, right now. Under the additional strain of having our emotions peaked by a full moon.

The current alignments are also setting my chart on fire. But that is not unusual.....(for this one)

Right....
Not to forget the Venus/Mercury conjunction in Sagittarius which is where this rescue team from the Village come in.
Nora saw the beam last night. I think Astrid is getting it downloaded right now.
You've always had it.
Many here are well prepared...now is the time to start working as a team.

[Lisab]

Posted by Carmody (here)

Posted by transiten (here)
Ernie, do i think i know how you feel?

"If i didn't have all this bad luck, i wouldn't have no luck at all".......i can't give you any advice, i don't want to but i hear you. I don't want to reveal the whole story of my life, although i've spread some of it out on the forum...but there is a meaning to it all even if some things happening to many humans are almost unbearable to take in. Did they choose a life of starvation or torture as a gift to others to discover and practice compassion?

I'm too tired to elaborate, fighting a cold, my spirits raise and fall but i'm thankful for this village waterhole....Gosh, that made rhymes:

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=rlN8BO43QVE

switch to a high bit rate (480p or better), let it load up so it does not hiccup (if you have a slow connection)..and crank it.

Then strap in... and start it up.

For if you've never heard this (or Peter Green) before, it will be a treat. To hear it for the first time...-- I envy you.

THAT is awesome Carmody. Id never heard that before. Brilliant.

¤=[Post Update]=¤

Posted by WhiteFeather (here)
Guided Healing - Golden Light - Energy Body Cleanse

Sending some light and healing to you great peeps on P.A.

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=nDk9P-6Khns

Im going to listen to this again at bedtime. Thankyou Whitefeather. Lovely energies in the village. Please stay. x

[ulli]

I'm a bit teary today, thinking about Baha'u'llah.
It's his 194 th birthday today.
I gave 19 years of my life to his cause.
So I just started a thread to commemorate his birthday.
Thought I'd let you know.
Baha'u'llah November 12, 1817
Today is Baha'u'llah's birthday.
Up until 12 years ago I would have been celebrating together with other Baha'is at this time.
In May 2000 I visited the Baha'i World center for the second time in my life, in Haifa, Israel.
Soon after that I became convinced that the Baha'i faith had been hijacked by the same PTB that we are talking about a lot here.
Yet the original message still holds truth for me, and his prophecies are still unfolding, the way he foretold they would, so many years ago.

In view of his message all the current events make sense. We are marching into a golden age, and as the old structures are crumbling they cause a lot of fall-out and dust.
All I can say, people, hang in there. It's all good.
The more you hold this trust the more you will be protected.

Today I am considered a dissident, although I still hold Baha'u'llah's message as one of the most profound messages ever given to the world.

[Guest]

There you all go making me cry really appreciate everyones' soulful humanness

everyone here in the village & PA shows me something.....

wish I had more intellectual prowess & articulation like Carmody...., wise and patient & more rock knowledge like modwiz, diligence & spirit like Ulli, softness & plant knowledge liike JB, passion like Lord Sid to educate the masses about the true evils of the elite, quiet wisdom like starsha & no you are not invisible, Calz support of the star beings trying to help us & the earth, PL's reckless enlightenment, Tony's creativity, Dawns' soulful way of explaining spirit, wade fraizers integrity, Pie'n'eals Buddhism -whether I agree or not, Ernie's heart, Fred S. silliness & spirituality, astrid's beautiful journey & heart, transitens music, white feather's strength & quiet knowledge, caren's sweetness..... all of you & so many more here on PA have enriched and brought such light & beautiful gifts to my life.

Nora

we are all related

[ViralSpiral]

[Ruby L.]

Purple Lama, you are a kind and gracious being; a human and wizard extraordinaire.

I'd like to bring up a few things that've been going around in my head. I'd previously thought it best not to bring this up as everyone seemed to be on their way but, having properly caught up with what's been written here since, I'd like to take this opportunity to address what I see as an imbalance in fairness, and get this off my chest once and for all.

It concerns me that, because of one incident on this thread --one event in 130 pages of postings (and even then, it had to do with a pm) -- Tony has been publicly painted out to be a dysfunctional sicko.

Everyone makes mistakes and, for what happened here, he made one. My opinion remains that he wasn't alone in the reason for his blow up-- but still, for his part: Yes, he could've approached the matter in a more subtle way. But we're all human, and what's done is done.

However, by being put on an immediate vacation and banned from this thread, he was neither given a chance to state his reasons or side of the story, nor has he able to defend himself since. And really, there've been people in the forum who, with far more serious wrong-doings, have been pulled to the side and were, at least, given a warning to cool it. It's all done now, but do we pass judgement and carry on, or are we going to take this opportunity to really learn from this?

Anyway, why should I care?

For one, I view this forum --this community and gathering of people from different parts of the world-- as a potential model for how we, spiritual brothers and sisters, can co-exist and grow together on a planet that's going increasingly crazy. We, in Avalon, might not always be in total agreement with one another, but I'd like to think that we can, at least, try to learn, understand, and guide each other. Talk the talk and walk the walk.

Secondly, and more personally, Tony has been a nothing but a good friend to me. I've been coming to terms with the final stage of my aunt's terminal illness, and he's been there for me in the scarier and darker moments. Perhaps that point makes me biased but, as with everything around, I make a conscious effort to look at all stories in a fair manner. Fair is fair, irrespective of whether people involved are my friends or not.

What went on in the pm between Ulli and Tony, no one here can say and, for now, we can only take Ulli's word for what happened.

But, to go so far as drop in that Tony is possibly a paid disinfo agent, planted here to purposely disrupt and derail this thread; or that, because of an assumed dyfunctionality in his family history, he lives and operates behind a mask, and is completely unable to function as a loving human being… that's not giving a side of the story, that's going for a public character kill. Totally unnecessary, and very ugly.

I won't go on about the virtues of Tony; anyone who's read his other posts in other threads, or who've been reached out to by him when things were getting tough for them, will have a feel for his spirit. But, for me to sit here and read that he's been disruptive and annoying in this thread from the beginning, when actually the problem has to do with a heated disagreement in a pm just two days ago; to read that he's a lost cause-- unhelpable, long gone, and nothing but an sick, angry person… it's not on.

It really, really isn't on.

[Carmody]

Posted by Lisab (here)
THAT is awesome Carmody. Id never heard that before. Brilliant.

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=3oSlZMe2WIo

at the top of the vid comments:

"there are many reasons to believe in a better world..."

[thunder24]

Thunder puts his arm around ernies shoulder "Dood, I've been in the places you described and sometimes go there when i really don't want to. I've been able to notice that the real intense thoughts and feelings, will be gone in a couple days and I notice that I don't feel the way I did, and my emotions and focus on something I felt were a necessity have subsided and I'm now subdued reflecting on the thoughts and feelings. My unknown friend, this too shall pass."

Thunder puts other arm around Ulli at the same time "Ulli, may the reflection of your efforts towards Baha'u'llah's cause give you joy in the fact you followed your heart and learned much from it. So happy New Year Baha'u'llah."

Passes out Southern Sweet Tea and Lemonaid to the village folk.

"I whisper like a Lion and yell like a mouse, sometimes my hearts crying sometimes I espouse
the truth that i've found and the miles i've walked, sometimes I'm quit and barely even talk.
If you can hear in the quit still, your opening your self, like an onion peels ,your layers are dealt,
issue by issue you struggle yet survive, the strength you will gain helps not to capsize.
The waves of life, like the phase of the moon, wax and wane till your fully groomed."

peace

[Lisab]

Ruby L. I love Tony and certaintly havnt written him off. I truly feel sad that he's not here and I miss him. Yes projections went on I guess, but as I dont know what was said in the pm's, and dont want to know as its not my business, I feel I cant comment. But a week long vacation? There must be good reason for it. I dont know. I dont know the ins and outs. I do know that Ulli kept trying to apologise. I look forward to his return.x

[Guest]

I have an Astrology question for the Village.

What does it mean when you have a true north node in aries?

Nora

we are all related

[ulli]

Posted by Ruby L. (here)
Purple Lama, you are a kind and gracious being; a human and wizard extraordinaire.

I'd like to bring up a few things that've been going around in my head. I'd previously thought it best not to bring this up as everyone seemed to be on their way but, having properly caught up with what's been written here since, I'd like to take this opportunity to address what I see as an imbalance in fairness, and get this off my chest once and for all.

It concerns me that, because of one incident on this thread --one event in 130 pages of postings (and even then, it had to do with a pm) -- Tony has been publicly painted out to be a dysfunctional sicko.

Everyone makes mistakes and, for what happened here, he made one. My opinion remains that he wasn't alone in the reason for his blow up-- but still, for his part: Yes, he could've approached the matter in a more subtle way. But we're all human, and what's done is done.

However, by being put on an immediate vacation and banned from this thread, he was neither given a chance to state his reasons or side of the story, nor has he able to defend himself since. And really, there've been people in the forum who, with far more serious wrong-doings, have been pulled to the side and were, at least, given a warning to cool it. It's all done now, but do we pass judgement and carry on, or are we going to take this opportunity to really learn from this?

Anyway, why should I care?

For one, I view this forum --this community and gathering of people from different parts of the world-- as a potential model for how we, spiritual brothers and sisters, can co-exist and grow together on a planet that's going increasingly crazy. We, in Avalon, might not always be in total agreement with one another, but I'd like to think that we can, at least, try to learn, understand, and guide each other. Talk the talk and walk the walk.

Secondly, and more personally, Tony has been a nothing but a good friend to me. I've been coming to terms with the final stage of my aunt's terminal illness, and he's been there for me in the scarier and darker moments. Perhaps that point makes me biased but, as with everything around, I make a conscious effort to look at all stories in a fair manner. Fair is fair, irrespective of whether people involved are my friends or not.

What went on in the pm between Ulli and Tony, no one here can say and, for now, we can only take Ulli's word for what happened.

But, to go so far as drop in that Tony is possibly a paid disinfo agent, planted here to purposely disrupt and derail this thread; or that, because of an assumed dyfunctionality in his family history, he lives and operates behind a mask, and is completely unable to function as a loving human being… that's not giving a side of the story, that's going for a public character kill. Totally unnecessary, and very ugly.

I won't go on about the virtues of Tony; anyone who's read his other posts in other threads, or who've been reached out to by him when things were getting tough for them, will have a feel for his spirit. But, for me to sit here and read that he's been disruptive and annoying in this thread from the beginning, when actually the problem has to do with a heated disagreement in a pm just two days ago; to read that he's a lost cause-- unhelpable, long gone, and nothing but an sick, angry person… it's not on.

It really, really isn't on.

I think you need to take this up with the moderators, Ruby. I sympathize with you, as you miss your friend here.
Just one thing that I don't need the mods for. I think you need to read just one part of my message again, before you make the kind of statement you did.

In was deeply shocked after I discovered that he would not accept my apologies. Many people did what they could to win him back, and that included me.
When I said I was shocked I wanted an explanation to why he behaved the way he did. Ok you only saw his very sweet and kind side. Until he came to the thread that is all I ever saw, too. I still have a nice pm from him on file. Which is why I was even more puzzled at what happened.
I needed to sort what might be the scenario. Here is the quote from my post. You will see that I did NOT accuse him of being plant, only that it had crossed my mind at one point.
Meanwhile since you are writing in his defense, would you direct me to one post where he did respect the topic? Maybe I overlooked it.

ulli's post from page 122.

But there are those who do wear masks, and deliberately try to shift things from their original path, on purpose, for whatever reason.
The conscious reason would be if someone worked for an elite agency, in deep secrecy, and getting a salary to disrupt threads. But I'm not going there now. Scary thought.
Here is the other reason:
Most of us carry unresolved issues from our childhood, and those issues press on the membrane of our conscious minds.

[Carmody]

Posted by Ruby L. (here)
Purple Lama, you are a kind and gracious being; a human and wizard extraordinaire.

I'd like to bring up a few things that've been going around in my head...

I've already learned that particular type of lesson long ago. Many here have learned that type of lesson. They may tolerate someone else learning that lesson in their presence, but they also have no need to have that specific lesson play out in their lives again. Not selfish, but ..'done' with that space and condition. Nor do they feel the need to help others through it with respect to catharsis and guilt, etc.. perhaps they have enough on their plates, without a repeat of that one happening again. So, IMO, it is Tony's lesson to learn. But possibly, with the input from the people in this thread. Responding the way they did.

With my history being what causes my 'reactions' and coloration of thought from that... I'd of likely banned him from the forum. Without hesitation. That would be my mildest response I could muster. That would be this one.... exercising the greatest restraint that this one is capable of.