Here and Now...What's Happening?

[RunningDeer]

Ulli, just checked. Both my iPad and MacBook work fine.

[ulli]

Thanks. Gaian Night and Avalon Knight are fine...
It's only Avalon Breeze that looks like it has a glitch.

Ok, I rebooted again, and this time the blue bar across the top of the posts is back to normal. But the background still has the little pale blue boxes.

[Marianne]

Posted by astrid (here)

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=VHTOM5WrvUU

Thanks Tom

I second that emotion!

Mantra for the week
I am no longer alone
On the shore of the sea
For I have called forth
And she has come to me.

Ulli, do you need some mod assistance?

[Ernie Nemeth]

Well, it must be me but it sure seems like astrology forecasts are more acurate these days than up to the late eighties when I was delving into it.

My old employer called back after almost a month (?). I finally start work Monday! The money will come in real handy because try as I may I have not been able to catch up my bills since January. I don't let it worry me and I try not to let it seep into my esoteric work but I may as well face it - it does. Hard to be thankful, genuinely thankful, when I can't make ends meet.
And my next thought is always, but I know others have it worse. That thought irks me to the nth degree.

I've been thinking, what are my dreams, my ambitions. As far as I can make out, I truly have none. But that can't be right. So sometimes I fantasize about what I would do if I won the lottery - if that would make any difference, and I do not think it would. So then I think well, what were my dreams or goals when I was in my twenties. And besides getting published, the only thing I wanted was to figure out the flaw in science so that I could alieviate the plight of the poor - I used to think of Africa in this light. But lately I've realized that what I really have always wanted was to make my father proud - which he has never been. To make him eat crow, to prove to him that I am a man worthy of his respect - he's a Capricorn.

So at least I've figured out what has driven me all these years. I would like my father to be able to call his sister in Ottawa and brag about his son's accomplishments. Like she consistently does to him about my cousin, the big-time governmental economist. This drive, this yearning consumes me. It is why I have written my last two books - books I know my father won't touch (he's said so). It is my way of one-upping him. Proof that I was right to drop the family religion.

And now as time runs out, I see that this has lead to a collasal waste of my potential - living for the benediction of the only person I ever wished to please, my father. Damn! That made me tear up. Got more work to do, deep down inside.

Hope this sharing is alright. It's not easy and it's very embarrassing. But I feel it's what I have to offer. I guess the moral of my story is - live for yourself, and not what you think might make others happy. Because in the end, they can't make you happy - only you can do that for yourself.

That's it.

hugs

[RunningDeer]

Posted by Ernie Nemeth (here)
And now as time runs out, I see that this has lead to a collasal waste of my potential - living for the benediction of the only person I ever wished to please, my father. Damn! That made me tear up. Got more work to do, deep down inside.

Hope this sharing is alright. It's not easy and it's very embarrassing. But I feel it's what I have to offer. I guess the moral of my story is - live for yourself, and not what you think might make others happy. Because in the end, they can't make you happy - only you can do that for yourself.

That's it.

hugs

Hugs back, Ernie!

[PurpleLama]

You win, Ernie.

[ulli]

Ernie
Glad you got work again.
As a Capricorn woman I can testify that we are all ambitious and want to be money makers,
but Capricorn men are much worse.
Unless they come face to face with their own materialism and consciously decide to change direction and become more spiritual.
Anyway, you are together in life because he needs to learn from you and you need to learn from him.
The midpoint between the two of you is where the balance lies.

Since you can't change him, my advice to you is to try and move towards that midpoint by yourself.
Make money and stop worrying about Africa, since it is much too big a problem for you.

Besides, as long as you have debts, you can't help anyone, and the people who you owe money to don't see you in a good light,
which can only send bad vibes in your direction and further add to your problems.

You are far too gifted to be poor. Go and listen to that Ray Bradbury talk.

[ulli]

For another bob and anyone else who wants it.

[another bob]

Posted by ulli (here)
For another bob and anyone else who wants it.

Ah yes, the Monkey-face Orchid, Platanthera integrilabia, was locally common on the Cumberland Plateau of Kentucky and Tennessee prior to the 1940s, but is currently a C2 candidate for United States protection as an endangered species.

Thanks for your thoughtfulness, Ulli!

Mazie brought this one to my attention some years ago, and I remembered it fondly.


Currently listening to:

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=j0YDkGXfrOs

while attempting a free transliteration of Jnaneshwar's Amritanubhav.


It's been a rough time here lately, but this evening has finally brought some let-up to the relentless pain and nausea.

May all beings be happy!

[Guest]

Today I am not much for words
and have been reading about the Kogui
I first learned about Kogi from a friend of
mine who visits with them twice a year.

Kogi - Tairona


The Tairona were a precolombian civilization in the region of the Sierra Nevada de Santa Marta in the present-day Magdalena and La Guajira Departments of Colombia, South America which goes back to the 1st century AD and showed documented growth around in the 11th century. The Tairona people formed one of the two principal groups of the Chibcha and were pushed into submarginal regions by the Spanish conquest. The Kogi indigenous people who live in the area today are direct descendants of the Tairona.
Knowledge sources about the precolombian Tairona civilization are limited to archaeological findings and a few written references from the Spanish colonial era. A major city of the Tairona and archaeological site is today known as Ciudad Perdida (Spanish for "Lost City"), it was discovered by treasure hunters in 1975. The Tairona are known to have built terraced platforms, house foundations, stairs, sewers, tombs, and bridges from stone. Use of pottery for utilitarian and ornamental/ceremonial purposes was also highly developed.


Tairona Gold Pendants - Metropolitan Museum of Art, New York City The Tairona civilization is most renown for its distinctive goldwork. The earliest known Tairona goldwork has been described for the Neguanje Period (from about 300- 800 AD) and its use within the Tairona society appears to have extended beyond the elite. The gold artifacts made comprise pendants, lip-plugs, nose ornaments, necklaces, and earrings. Gold cast Tairona figure pendants (known as "caciques") in particular stand out among the goldworks of precolumbian America because of their richness in detail. The figurines depict human subjects - thought be noblemen or chiefs - in ornate dresses and with a large animal mask over the face. Many elements of their body posture (e.g., hands on their hips) and dress signal an aggressive stance and hence are interpreted as evidence for the power of the wearer and the bellicose nature of Tairona society.




The Kogi



The tribe known as 'Los Kogui' are today's custodians of the Tairona culture. They have a population of approximately 12,000 people. The and are called the Kogi. The Kogi plant crops and live off the land. They prefer not to mix with outsiders. Few Colombians, or those from the outside worlds, are allowed to enter their mountain. They marry in their culture. The Kogi constantly move about from place to place, between their different abodes spread among the different levels of the Sierra Nevada mountain range. This is looked upon as taking care of their nutritional needs without abusing the environment.
The Kogi or Cogui or Kagaba, translated "jaguar" in the Kogi language are a Native American ethnic group that lives in the Sierra Nevada de Santa Marta in Colombia. Their civilization has continued since the Pre-Columbian era. The Kogi language belongs to the Chibchan family.
The Kogi claim to be descendants of the Tairona culture, which flourished before the time of the Spanish conquest. The Tairona were forced to move into the highlands when the Caribs invaded around 1000 CE, according to the Federal Research Division of the Library of Congress which allowed them to evade the worst effects of the Spanish colonization. Like so many ancient myths concerning holy mountains at the "centre of the world", their mythology teaches that they are "Elder Brothers" of humanity, living in the "Heart of the World" (the Sierra Nevada of Santa Marta). Those not living in the Heart of the World are called "Younger Brothers." Their mythology suggests that these Younger Brothers were sent away from the heart of the world long ago, seemingly in reference to these same Carib people who are said to have originated from South America.




The Mountain The Sierra Nevada, in the shape of a pyramid, rises from the sunny coasts of the Caribbean tropics to the chilly, snow-capped peaks that reach a height of 17,000 feet above sea level, all in only 30 horizontal miles. Within just fifty kilometres the northern slopes descend from snow capped peaks to the turquoise waters, tropical jungle shores and coral reefs of the Caribbean ocean.


Day and night are of equal length all year round. The area has every eco-system in its 17,000 km2 area (8,000 sq. miles) You can find coral reefs, mangroves, arid deserts, rain and cloud forest, and in the higher elevations, plains and snow-capped peaks with temperatures close to 20 degrees C. The highest peak is the Pico Simon Bolivar at 5,775 metres.
In 1965, archeologists found the remains of a lost Tairona religious center and called it the 'Lost City.' It is a three-day hike in dense jungle to witness a true wonder of the past. It is believed that there are two more lost cities.
These highlands are inhabited by the Gods and the spirits of the dead. A universe of signs and symbols, this territory is a veritable "open book" which is their bridge to the world and their collective history.
The Kogi believe the Sierra Nevada to be the 'Place of Creation' and the 'Heart of the World'. They call themselves the Elder Brothers of humanity and consider their mission to care for planet. They understand how the planet works as an integrated unit rather than the separation of all things in our worlds.
Much like other ancient tribal civilizations, that still exist on the planet, they believe themselves to be the custodians of the planet Earth here to keep things in balance.




Spiritual Beliefs

The Kogi base their lifestyles on their belief in "The Great Mother," their creator figure, whom they believe is the force behind nature, providing guidance. The Kogi understand the Earth to be a living being, and see the colonizers' mining, building, pollution and other activities damaging the Great Mother.
From birth the Kogi attune their priests, called Mamas, to the mystic world called Aluna. It is in this "spirit-realm" that the Mamas operate to help the Great Mother sustain the Earth. Through deep meditation and symbolic offerings, the Mamas believe they support the balance of harmony and creativity in the world. It is also in this realm that the essence of agriculture is nurtured: seeds are blessed in Aluna before being planted, to ensure they grow successfully.
They achieve this through meditation wherein they communicate with all living things on the planet - humans, animals, plants, rock, etc.
They live in Aluna, an inner world of thought and potential. From Aluna they astral travel or remote view to places both on and off the physical planet. Their sacred lands are perceived as a metaphysical symbol of cosmic forces within the whole world - an oracle of the natural balance and health of the planet.
As with other indigenous tribes, Kogi society has changed little in the past five centuries. They survived as a culture because the Kogi focus all their energy on the life of the mind as opposed to the life of a body or an individual. Fundamental to that survival is the maintenance of physical separation from their world and the rest of humanity. They are very protective of their sacred space and the dense jungle is not kind to tourists.
They worry about the destruction of the rain forest as well as the planet itself. This area embraces some of the most biologically diverse tropical rainforests on the planet. The Kogi are inseparable from the rainforest habit in which they have lived since the dawn of time.
Through oracle propheices and message with Spirit, they are aware of a great change that is coming now to planet Earth. Their Mountain is dying, symbolizing this transition. Similar to what many other tribes around the world see is a world that was about to be destroyed by the misuse of consciousness. Then they saw the emergence of light consciousness as part of the process of humanity emerging as a race of beings in higher evolved light bodies. This strongly connects with the metaphysical teachings of our times.




Shamanic Practices - Coca Plant

Shaman are called Mamas Kogi Mamas are chosen from birth and spend the first nine years of childhood in a cave in total darkness learning the ancient secrets of the spiritual world or Aluna. They are the priests and judges who control Kogi society.
All major decisions and shamanic work are done by Divination. All is the world of Aluna, so the Mamas see a reflection of the physical world first in the spiritual world. If Aluna is the Mother, then the Kogi listen to the Mother by divining. This lost technique of divination is what keeps the Kogi world in balance and order.
The Mamas - as with other spiritual tribal leaders around the world - are worried that the Younger Brother has not heeded the first warning. If the Sierra Nevada or the Mother dies, the world will also die.
They use the coca bush for many things. Myths reveal that it was the Aluna herself who instituted coca chewing among the Kogi and who gave a lime gourd to her first son, as a symbolic wife. Other myths tell that coca was originally discovered in the flowing hair of a young girl who let her father only participate in its use. An envious and jealous young man transformed himself into a bird and, after watching the girl bathing in the river, seduced her. When he returned home and changed back into human shape, he shook his hair and out of it fell two coca seeds.
Small plantations of coca shrubs are found near all Kogi settlements, and provide the men with tender green leaves, plucked by the women. All adult men chew the slightly toasted leaves, adding to the moist wad small portions of lime. Coca shrubs are planted and tended by the men but the leaves are gathered by women. Periodically the men toast these leaves inside the temple, using for this end a special double-handled pottery vessel. This ritual vessel made by a Kogi priest can be used only for the toasting of coca leaves.
When chewed with coca, lime is a substance which helps the mucous membranes in the mouth absorb the alkaloids in the leaves. The Kogi produce Lime by burning sea shells on a small pyre carefully constructed with chosen splints. The fine white powder is then sifted into a ritual gourd which is carried by all men.
The Lime container consists of a small gourd which is slightly pear-shaped and perforated along the top. While all lime gourds consist of the same raw material, the wood of the stick which is inserted into it, must correspond to the patriline of the owner. Each patriline uses a different wood taken from the trees belonging to certain botanical species. The length of the stick may vary from 20 to 30cms. and, together with the degree of surface polish, these various characteristics identify its owner. An initiated Kogi man will easily recognise the patriline of his companions, simple by looking at their lime sticks.
The symbolic importance of the lime container and its stick is manifold. In one, most important image, the gourd is a woman. During the marriage ceremony the mama gives the bridegroom a gourd with these words: "Now I give you a lime gourd; I give you a woman." He then hands the bridegroom the lime stick and orders him to perforate with it the gourd at its upper end, thus symbolising the act of deflowering the bride.
Both men and women say quite openly that coca chewing has an aphrodisiacal effect upon male sexuality, and newly wed couples are very outspoken about this. Male initiation, marriage, and habitual coca chewing are three elements which coincide at a certain period in a young mans life. Young men sometimes say that they dislike coca chewing but most of them, sooner or later, yield to the pressures exercised by the priests and the older generation, and adopt the habit.
While slowly chewing some twenty or thirty toasted leaves, the man will wet the lower and slightly pointed end of the stick with saliva and will insert it into the gourd. Withdrawing the stick again he will put the adhering lime into his mouth. Immediately he will rub the stick around the top of the gourd in a circular motion. Eventually, this daily repeated action of rubbing the stick on the gourd surface begins to form a thin layered crust of yellowish-white lime that covers the upper part of the container. Some old lime gourds display a disc shaped accretion of up to 10cms. in diameter, carefully fashioned by the gourd's owner.
The many symbolic meanings of coca chewing and of the physical objects involved in this act, form a coherent whole. In macrocosmic perspective, a lime gourd is a model of the universe; the stick when inserted, becomes a world axis, and knowledgeable men will be able to talk at great length, explaining the structure of the universe in terms of levels, rims or directions appearing on the gourd.
On another scale, the gourd can be compared to the Sierra Nevada; the lime-splattered upper part are the snow peaks, and the stick is the world axis. Certain mountain peaks, crowned with white, rocky cliffs, are the Sun's lime containers, and so are all the temples and houses.
The coca plant is an integral part of the Kogi way of life, deeply involved with their traditions, religion, work and medicine. Perhaps the most ancient use of coca in South America is its employment in shamanistic practises and religious rituals. The mild mental excitation induced by chewing the coca leaves enables the shaman to enter more easily into a trance state in which he could communicate with the spiritual forces of nature and summon them to his aid.
Large scale deforestation and clearing of the jungle is posing a massive threat to the natural habitat of the Sierra Nevada and its flora and fauna. In recent years the sinister illusion of the marijuana cultivation practised by settlers from inland and fueled by encouragement by the Columbian and International mafia has destroyed vast areas of the jungle.




Twentieth Century As the world becomes 'smaller' - and 'old' meets 'new' - even the most ancient civilizations will become part of the evolution now occurring for all of humanity as a race. Nothing in human history ever remains the same as we move through our journey back to our spiritual origins.
In 1990 the Kogi decided they must speak out to the rest of the world. They had survived by keeping themselves isolated but they decided that it was time to send a message to the Younger Brother. They could see that something was wrong with their mountain, with the heart of the world. The snows had stopped falling and the rivers were not so full. If their mountain was ill then the whole world was in trouble.
The Mamas sent one of the Kogi who spoke Spanish to contact a British film maker who was in Colombia at that time. They asked the BBC to make a film to tell the Younger Brother about their concern. It was called 'The Elder Brother's Warning 'or' The Message from the Heart of the World'. Alan Ereira, the producer, has also written a book about the Kogi called The Heart of the World.
Since the film was brought out many changes have taken place. The film had a major impact on the Colombian Government and also on the grave robbers. The grave robbers felt that they should stop because they felt bad about disturbing their ancestors. There are now two Kogi members of parliament. The Tairona Heritage Trust was set up to support the Kogi and to buy back some of the original Kogi lands to give them a passage to the sea.




Contemporary Kogi The Kogi people live largely in peace amongst themselves and their environment. They use slash-and-burn farming methods; each family tends farms at varying altitudes of the Sierra, producing different crops to satisfy the range of their needs, they also raise cattle on the highlands.

Kogi People Wikipedia





Kankurua huts To penetrate a Kankurua is to enter into contact with the nine worlds and the nine states of consciousness that make it up. Some say they have moved beyond verbal language, using tones to create colorful images in their minds rather than thoughts expressed as sentences. Some Kogi speak telepathically to each other.
According to Drunvalo Melchizedek ...

The Kogi do not see us as 'sleeping' as many of the Hindu and Oriental religions do. The Kogi see humans as dead, shadows of the energy of what they could be. This is because they do not have enough life force energy and consciousness to be classified by them as real people. The Kogi set out to find out why the 'dead ones' were still on Earth. As they searched the living vibrating records of this reality, they found exactly where and why it had happened. Some of the 'dead ones' had become alive, and had created a dream with enough life force to save the world as we know it.
They created a parallel world where life could continue to grow, a world where the dead could become alive. The Kogi were so specific to locate exactly who these people were that were creating this change that had altered the world's destiny.
The Kogi see these people with living bodies with light around them, people who had activated their Light Bodies or in the ancient terms, their Mer-Ka-Ba.

http://www.crystalinks.com/kogi.html

Love

Nora

[eaglespirit]

Kogi Gallery

http://www.theelderbrother.com/kogi/gallery.cfm

[benevolentcrow]

Posted by ulli (here)
For another bob and anyone else who wants it.

I'll take it. A cute gift to receive. Thank you.

[benevolentcrow]

An old child's gospel song, seems fitting these days.

This little light of mine/I'm gonna let it shine

This little light of mine/I'm gonna let it shine

This little light of mine/I'm gonna let it shine

Let it shine/Let it shine/Let it shine

Shining light by Catrin Welz-Stein

[1inMany]

Posted by benevolentcrow (here)
An old child's gospel song, seems fitting these days.

This little light of mine/I'm gonna let it shine

This little light of mine/I'm gonna let it shine

This little light of mine/I'm gonna let it shine

Let it shine/Let it shine/Let it shine

Shining light by Catrin Welz-Stein

sync: no idea where I learned this song, but it is one that I cheerily hum or sing all the time...for a few years it has been my "go to"...
Much Love

[1inMany]

Please send healing to my husband. I asked his permission, and he said, "Fire em up. I can use all the help I can get." Prayers, lights, thoughts, any and all are welcome and appreciated.

Mike is a person of responsibility in a company of approximately 50 people. He has worked at this company for about 8 years. His boss, and the only person in the company who holds a position "higher" on the ladder than he, is the owner/CEO. The boss comes in to the office about once a week for a couple of hours. Otherwise, he is absent. That is a good thing because the man is an addict, heroin I believe. Years ago, when people started noticing the track marks on his arms, he changed to smoking it. With recent lung problems, I can't imagine what is left as a viable inlet. The boss was seen last week driving his Mercedes through an unsavory part of Dallas, Oak Cliff, where rival gangs are seen in the streets with machine guns.

My husband has taken the "buffer" position between this monster and the normal people who work there...fighting against him when the boss decides to withhold bonus money or cut their pay for no legitimate reason. He has fought against the boss on behalf of people with serious illnesses and cancer who would have been fired.

And, you all know, this position of stress took a toll on Mike's health. As of yesterday, our doctor is extremely happy with the positive results of the changes in diet and exercise Mike has implemented.

The problem, though, is that we are afraid this job is about to be taken away. Mike is a Libra, he weighs everything 10 ways to Sunday before making a decision. Three years ago, Mike worked with very wealthy people to produce a business plan for either 1) starting his(our) own company or 2) buying the company he works for. Mike needs to be away from this boss. During that past 3 years, there have been 3 opportunities that I am aware of for Mike to leave the current company and start his own, with financial backing. Each time, he thought it best to give the current boss a chance to step away, and each time the current boss did not. He did, however, offer a carrot....maybe a little more money, but most often his carrots are "one day you will own this place" or "one day this will be all yours"...it was always bullsh!t. Also during this three year period, relationships have developed into job opportunities. But, Mike thought it best to stay the course so as not to lose the security he (we) had.

As I write this, it has become clear that the boss may be trying to find a reason to sabotage the company, making it worth little, or sabotage Mike, leaving him with nothing...including a job.

Mike financially cares for/helps my brother, our daughter and grandson, this second place (for our two daughters remaining at home), and are other grandchildren as we can. That's 3 car payments, 2 mortgages, utilities for 4 families...that's a helluva lot of responsibility.

And this man is stubborn, let me tell ya. He will do what he decides to do. He respects me, he comes to me for help with situations and problems constantly, but when I feel compelled to say "Walk Away! We will Be Okay!" it becomes complicated. He remembers a time when he had no job and mine didn't make a dent in things...and we had nothing but a car. My family offered a home, we rebuilt from there...and he has a very real fear of returning to that dark place.

I did not share this for sympathy or to get attention. It is deeply personal, and I would rather not have to share it. But in asking for help for him, I found myself not knowing what kind of help to ask for. In an instant, I knew the only way to get the right kind of spiritual backing was to explain the situation the best I can.

Much Love, and so much gratitude......

[ulli]

Here and Now...loving ourselves first. Louise Hay.
Has nutrition comments, too.

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=2vXYhJwjsu0

[ulli]

Posted by 1inMany (here)
Please send healing to my husband. I asked his permission, and he said, "Fire em up. I can use all the help I can get." Prayers, lights, thoughts, any and all are welcome and appreciated.

Mike is a person of responsibility in a company of approximately 50 people. He has worked at this company for about 8 years. His boss, and the only person in the company who holds a position "higher" on the ladder than he, is the owner/CEO. The boss comes in to the office about once a week for a couple of hours. Otherwise, he is absent. That is a good thing because the man is an addict, heroin I believe. Years ago, when people started noticing the track marks on his arms, he changed to smoking it. With recent lung problems, I can't imagine what is left as a viable inlet. The boss was seen last week driving his Mercedes through an unsavory part of Dallas, Oak Cliff, where rival gangs are seen in the streets with machine guns.

My husband has taken the "buffer" position between this monster and the normal people who work there...fighting against him when the boss decides to withhold bonus money or cut their pay for no legitimate reason. He has fought against the boss on behalf of people with serious illnesses and cancer who would have been fired.

And, you all know, this position of stress took a toll on Mike's health. As of yesterday, our doctor is extremely happy with the positive results of the changes in diet and exercise Mike has implemented.

The problem, though, is that we are afraid this job is about to be taken away. Mike is a Libra, he weighs everything 10 ways to Sunday before making a decision. Three years ago, Mike worked with very wealthy people to produce a business plan for either 1) starting his(our) own company or 2) buying the company he works for. Mike needs to be away from this boss. During that past 3 years, there have been 3 opportunities that I am aware of for Mike to leave the current company and start his own, with financial backing. Each time, he thought it best to give the current boss a chance to step away, and each time the current boss did not. He did, however, offer a carrot....maybe a little more money, but most often his carrots are "one day you will own this place" or "one day this will be all yours"...it was always bullsh!t. Also during this three year period, relationships have developed into job opportunities. But, Mike thought it best to stay the course so as not to lose the security he (we) had.

As I write this, it has become clear that the boss may be trying to find a reason to sabotage the company, making it worth little, or sabotage Mike, leaving him with nothing...including a job.

Mike financially cares for/helps my brother, our daughter and grandson, this second place (for our two daughters remaining at home), and are other grandchildren as we can. That's 3 car payments, 2 mortgages, utilities for 4 families...that's a helluva lot of responsibility.

And this man is stubborn, let me tell ya. He will do what he decides to do. He respects me, he comes to me for help with situations and problems constantly, but when I feel compelled to say "Walk Away! We will Be Okay!" it becomes complicated. He remembers a time when he had no job and mine didn't make a dent in things...and we had nothing but a car. My family offered a home, we rebuilt from there...and he has a very real fear of returning to that dark place.

I did not share this for sympathy or to get attention. It is deeply personal, and I would rather not have to share it. But in asking for help for him, I found myself not knowing what kind of help to ask for. In an instant, I knew the only way to get the right kind of spiritual backing was to explain the situation the best I can.

Much Love, and so much gratitude......

WOW, 1inMany. You finally answered all my questions...now all those sicknesses make sense.
Those poor children!
Your husband is bringing home entities that he has picked up from the "boss".
Our group is being prepared to do a big job here...excorcism.
As I said: WOW.

[1inMany]

Posted by ulli (here)

Posted by 1inMany (here)
Please send healing to my husband. I asked his permission, and he said, "Fire em up. I can use all the help I can get." Prayers, lights, thoughts, any and all are welcome and appreciated.

Mike is a person of responsibility in a company of approximately 50 people. He has worked at this company for about 8 years. His boss, and the only person in the company who holds a position "higher" on the ladder than he, is the owner/CEO. The boss comes in to the office about once a week for a couple of hours. Otherwise, he is absent. That is a good thing because the man is an addict, heroin I believe. Years ago, when people started noticing the track marks on his arms, he changed to smoking it. With recent lung problems, I can't imagine what is left as a viable inlet. The boss was seen last week driving his Mercedes through an unsavory part of Dallas, Oak Cliff, where rival gangs are seen in the streets with machine guns.

My husband has taken the "buffer" position between this monster and the normal people who work there...fighting against him when the boss decides to withhold bonus money or cut their pay for no legitimate reason. He has fought against the boss on behalf of people with serious illnesses and cancer who would have been fired.

And, you all know, this position of stress took a toll on Mike's health. As of yesterday, our doctor is extremely happy with the positive results of the changes in diet and exercise Mike has implemented.

The problem, though, is that we are afraid this job is about to be taken away. Mike is a Libra, he weighs everything 10 ways to Sunday before making a decision. Three years ago, Mike worked with very wealthy people to produce a business plan for either 1) starting his(our) own company or 2) buying the company he works for. Mike needs to be away from this boss. During that past 3 years, there have been 3 opportunities that I am aware of for Mike to leave the current company and start his own, with financial backing. Each time, he thought it best to give the current boss a chance to step away, and each time the current boss did not. He did, however, offer a carrot....maybe a little more money, but most often his carrots are "one day you will own this place" or "one day this will be all yours"...it was always bullsh!t. Also during this three year period, relationships have developed into job opportunities. But, Mike thought it best to stay the course so as not to lose the security he (we) had.

As I write this, it has become clear that the boss may be trying to find a reason to sabotage the company, making it worth little, or sabotage Mike, leaving him with nothing...including a job.

Mike financially cares for/helps my brother, our daughter and grandson, this second place (for our two daughters remaining at home), and are other grandchildren as we can. That's 3 car payments, 2 mortgages, utilities for 4 families...that's a helluva lot of responsibility.

And this man is stubborn, let me tell ya. He will do what he decides to do. He respects me, he comes to me for help with situations and problems constantly, but when I feel compelled to say "Walk Away! We will Be Okay!" it becomes complicated. He remembers a time when he had no job and mine didn't make a dent in things...and we had nothing but a car. My family offered a home, we rebuilt from there...and he has a very real fear of returning to that dark place.

I did not share this for sympathy or to get attention. It is deeply personal, and I would rather not have to share it. But in asking for help for him, I found myself not knowing what kind of help to ask for. In an instant, I knew the only way to get the right kind of spiritual backing was to explain the situation the best I can.

Much Love, and so much gratitude......

WOW, 1inMany. You finally answered all my questions...now all those sicknesses make sense.
Those poor children!
Your husband is bringing home entities that he has picked up from the "boss".
Our group is being prepared to do a big job here...excorcism.
As I said: WOW.

I have hesitated....and hesitated...and really wanted to keep this to myself ... I felt like the peace here comes first...that's why I haven't said anything. But, he is struggling...

Love you, Ulli

[1inMany]

Do you think this could have enything to do with the difficulties I have?

And what can I do to help?

[ulli]

Posted by 1inMany (here)
Do you think this could have enything to do with the difficulties I have?

And what can I do to help?

Absolutely. There is no other explanation. We'll get to work on this. You couldn't have told us at a better time.
Astrid is back and like a horse in a race box. Hehe....
This will be a concerted effort.