Here and Now...What's Happening?

[araucaria]

In the here & now, still recovering from last night's tennis game. As usual, only a few shots came off the racquet with great speed and accuracy. There are too many parameters involved for it to happen often. We had a blackout at the top of the hour when the automatic timer switched the lights off. No big deal. You just grope your way to the switch and turn 'em back on.

'At the top of the hour': maybe this lights out we're supposed to be in for next month is just a cosmic commercial break: if so listen out, it will be better than the actual mainstream show

[astrid]

Cease fire is in the balance right now.

Prayer for peace in the M.E so needed right now,
very tricky time...

love to all

[PurpleLama]

Please, send energy and prayers to my mother's family, I was just informed her older brother, Ronnie, had an aneurism and died last night.

[Chester]

Apologies now for the upcoming monster post -

This post is for Caren.

On April 16, 1994 I was in my bed, fast asleep. I was 37 years old. I found myself in the dream state. I discovered in the dream that I was asleep in a bed in the dream. The bed was in a dorm room at the high school I attended, a prep school named The Hill School. A school that was a family legacy to attend and I had close family members on both sides of my family who had attended. I went to the Hill School from 9th grade (1971) until I was expelled with three months to go before graduation (12th grade, early February, 1975). It had always been my greatest regret that I did not graduate, mostly because the heartbreak I knew I had caused my father. I had dreamed many times of being back at the Hill School. I had dreamed many times I was in positive, right relationship with the folks in my dream at the Hill School and that I was finally back on the pathway to graduation.

So it was no surprise to find myself in my dream state fast asleep in a bed within a dorm room at the Hill School. What was odd and something I never experienced before or since was that I was dreaming I was asleep and the one I was that was asleep in my dream... was dreaming.

So the dreamer in my dream was dreaming and this dreamer within my dream began to wake up. As that dreamer woke up, that dreamer saw a vision. I will do my best to describe it. It was a circular object... simply beams of golden/white light emanating from an invisible center point. The beams of light spread out from the center and at the ends made slight curves. You could draw a perfect circle around the object and touch all the beams. The center which was transparent could also have a circle drawn. The object looked most like a fan in this way. I cannot recall the direction of the curves but what I do recall and noted that was odd at the time was about its movement. The object was spinning very slowly. And it spun in a direction counter intuitive to what you would think based on the curves of the beams of light. In other words, if wind is blown towards a fan, you know the direction the fan would spin. This object spun in the opposite direction.

OK, so now the "me" that was in the dream which had just awakened from a dream only to see this object started thinking about what it was seeing. Understand, I was 37 years old and this was over 18 years ago. I still had a very basic understanding as to what "god" might be.

The "me" in the dream said to myself... "WoW, this is GOD!!!"

The me that was dreaming "me" seeing "god" was beginning to get excited. The me that was dreaming this event began to also think, WoW!!! This is GOD!

It was at this point that the experience became so overwhelming that I woke up, I sat up in the bed and planted my feet on the floor and for almost 20 minutes, I experienced a massive rush of goose bump feelings times a thousand. This type of feeling was nothing new to me... I had even labeled it "the shine." But I had never experienced it like this, at this extreme level of intensity and for anything more than perhaps 30 seconds. This went on, truly for almost 20 minutes.

I noted the time when I had woken up and I noted the time when I finally recovered from "tingly land."

The date was April 17th, 1994.

Two days later, the Oklahoma City bombing occurred.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Oklahoma_City_bombing

I recall being in my car with the radio on with my lovely ex-wife Mandy (the awesome Lucifera!) when we heard about the event.

The next day, my inner voice suggested I draw a picture of the object I had seen in my dream. After I drew the object, the voice suggested that I count the beams. There were 19. The date of the bombing was the 19th.

Some days later it was either Time of Newsweek that came out and I seem to recall on the front page there was a picture of a man carrying a possibly dead infant. I seem to recall that on this same front page it said 19 dead children.

In the Wikipedia is this reference -

The Oklahoma blast claimed 168 lives, including 19 children under the age of 6,[1] and injured more than 680 people.

Lucifera was present the morning of my dream and since she was my wife and since at that time we enjoyed a close, open relationship, I informed her of the dream/experience. She, being a true witch herself understood my experience well. When I had drawn the object on Wednesday morning I showed her the drawing and she counted the beams as I did. When the magazine came out, she was the one who brought it to me and gave me that look... anyone who knows her knows what I mean.

Three years later, and after searching within and without as to what it exactly was that I might have seen in that vivid dream/experience, I found myself in the shower at our home on Longfellow. Mandy was in the hot tub bath enjoying herself and relaxing. I found myself singing in my head the song In Your Eyes by Peter Gabriel. Suddenly the thought slammed into my head that what I had seen was an eye. I jumped out of the shower and said excitedly to Lucy, "I figured it out!" "It's an eye!!"

Not long after that, my favorite, all time rock and roll band YES was coming to Dallas for a concert (November 28, 1997). They were to be playing at a small (thus excellent) venue called the Bronco Bowl which seated only about 3,000 folks. I was able to obtain a pair of front row, just two or three seats to the right of dead center seats. For some odd reason, I also bought a pair of seats that were dead center but about 30 or so rows back, about 5 or so rows up on the risers.

We invited a couple we had become close with to go with us. For some strange reason when we arrived, seeing Mandy and the female of our two friends were having a great time together, so I suggested they take the two seats on the first row and us two guys would sit in the seats on the risers. To be honest, perhaps my greatest wish in my whole life would be to be just a few feet from Jon Anderson and Steve Howe and Chris Squire... to be able to make a great deal of eye contact and share smiles, etc, but at that time I was more the type that thought about others first and that was my mind's thoughts as I gave my front row seat away.

Note that the album YES had just come out with was named Open Your Eyes.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Open_Yo...28Yes_album%29

Early in the concert, Jon Anderson stated, "Here's the title track to our new album," and it was at that moment, there appeared a virtual copy of what I had seen in my dream, and Yes... it was spinning.

I just happened to search Google so I could pinpoint the date of the concert and stumbled upon this Youtube video of this exact song and at around 2:30 the camera zooms out and you can see the object, just as I saw it at the YES concert and pretty much as I saw in my dream over three years earlier in which I had realized via Peter Gabriel's song was an "eye."

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=vSeWWYPEqoY

This was the time in my life when I began to realize there was far, far more to "life" than simply this material world, the 5 senses, and physical bodies and perhaps even "god."

It was at this same time I was reading works by Elaine Pagels, The Gnostic Gospels (1979), The Origin of Satan (1995) and had bought the Nag Hammadi library.

It was in 1998 and 1999 I began to practice my own form of magick I labeled, "clear magick" which no one taught me... I derived it on my own.

It was also at this time I was able to venture outside of the United States and found myself a resident of the Caribbean Island, Curacao. It was then in 1999 the lovely Lucifera, when we had a three fantastic sons, I had a business and job where we should never have to worry about money ever again, Mandy had her dream... all she had to do was be Mom... she had loads of wonderful friends when she suddenly began a series of suicide attempts - for no understandable reason to anyone at that time. Of course, now I understand what was occurring (a direct archontic attack upon our entire family)... but I digress.

Her last attempt (that I am aware of) was in March of 2000 and the doctor told me she was dead (I have described this in another thread a few months back).

Anyways, the series of suicide attempts began the unraveling of our family as we knew it and cherished it to be. By June of 2001, Mandy's best friend Naomi gave me the book, The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz. I read it and immediately adopted these four agreements. My decision created the final unraveling of the marriage (and positive) relationship between myself and the lovely Lucifera. If the War of the Roses had not already been written and made into a movie, I would have sworn the writer had been inspired by what we soon enjoyed - three months of pure, total war/hell.

It was at this same time that I suddenly began to hear the very clear military sounding voice in my head that America was about to experience a major military event and that I had to be in America when it happened. I shared this experience with my friends and my partners in my company. Soon I was told by all that I and my lovely wife must leave the island and seek serious help for our serious drug addictions as well as all our other problems (I was considered psychotic as well and well... I was haha).

So, I arrived in Texas on September 6th, 2001 after not setting foot in that nation for all but three years.

5 days later when 9/11 happened, I had the strange thought I knew about this... haha.

Anyways, Mandy ended up leaving on Saturday, September 22 to "be with our sons" but she just went back for crack and her boyfriend. The day before, on the fall equinox, was the last day we ever made love - Note even through our war stage we were passionate lovers... unfortunately that had become the only moments we found ourselves not hating each others guts! haha, go figure).

On October 1st, I flew back to Curacao and my lawyer applied for permission to divorce. I later learned Mandy had done so the same day. I will never know who actually did first (Damn!).

Just before Christmas the divorce was granted and after three months of being In Colombiana Heaven I met the lovely Vampirella, my current (and I can guarantee last) wife, Cristina.

Before the divorce was finalized (On February 26, 2002) I was already engaged with Cristina. At that time, I knew that Mandy would never leave me alone unless I slammed the door permanently. I married Cristina in part so that she would understand "over means over."

Mandy soon abandoned herself on that desert island and if it were not for the missing Natalee Holloway, she may have ended up dead there or still be wondering the crack filled neighborhoods either still in physical form or perhaps in some other ghostly form.

I must add in all fairness, she was not "bad" and I was not "good." We both took on demons and she went her way with the experience and I have gone mine.

To this day, Mandy (Lucifera) has been my greatest teacher. I hope for the day she stops conducting war through the only battleground left for her, our three sons.

OK... now back to the Here and Now... listening to "If Only You Knew" from YES's album, The Ladder... which I was able to see the concert in London back in February 19th and 20th of 2000 at the Royal Albert Hall when she, Lucifera, was still "a" queen and I was fortunate to be her chosen king... one of our golden moments together of which there were indeed many. justone

[Playdo of Ataraxas]

Will do PL. My love goes out to your family.

Here and Now at the In-Laws for Thanksgiving holidays. Last year was a complete and utter emotional wreck and disaster for my wife. However, this year has been an utter delight and pleasure. A complete 180º turnaround. I've been doing a lot of Reiki and praying that the relationship between my wife and her mother would heal. A lot of healing appears to have been made. We've even decided to stay an extra day. This is proof to me of the malleable nature of reality. Looking forward to the Solstice! Have a great day everyone!

[1inMany]

Well. Nice to meet you, justone! Thank you for sharing your experiences, truly.

Here and Now, watching (not listening, as the sound on my laptop is moody...)...

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=7vs-H7xLnrs

Much Love,

and PL, you know, all my love to your family...

[PurpleLama]

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=GTEDxlOi2pU

[donk]

Hate to say this, but we may have some of the prettiest chemtrails round here. The way some of the look in the rising (and setting) sun is wild, I wish my camera did them justice.

We also have some of the ugliest. Those would be the same exact ones, about 10 mins later.

They start out as these brilliant almost neon hues, and as they dissipate become ugly purple bruises in the sky.

I just don't understand how NO ONE seems to even notice them. If our cars put out "exhaust" like planes supposedly do, we COULDN'T allow them. But no one seems to have a problem with friggin' vehicles changing a sunny day to overcast.

I don't care if you call them "contrails" or even if they ARE truly just byproducts of the engines on the planes--can we get an EPA ruling that you have modify your vehicile to NOT CHANGE THE EFFING SKY PLEASE??

I have to find my camera, it is ridiculous. I have seen some crazy chemtrail pics, this place is at least as bad as the worst I've seen. Now I'm seeing weird spiral ones connecting two seperate bruises...bastards been working overtime and have some new trick up their sleeve.

[RunningDeer]

Highest and Best, to PurpleLama's Mom, and to All on this current journey
so that each may direct to where it serves them.

Blessings and Love,
Paula

[latshaw]

Wow...and I can relate! Quck question...are you talking about The Hill School in Penna? I don't want to mention the town - you will know if the answer is yes. I live approx 10 min. From that school and I knew too people who went there - and left.
Coincidence??? :-)

[Chester]

Posted by WhiteCrowBlackDeer (here)

Highest and Best, to PurpleLama's Mom, and to All on this current journey
so that each may direct to where it serves them.

Blessings and Love,
Paula

Beautiful Picture WCBD - Love to PL - hey, wcbd... is that a quote from Alex Collier?

[Chester]

Posted by latshaw (here)
Wow...and I can relate! Quck question...are you talking about The Hill School in Penna? I don't want to mention the town - you will know if the answer is yes. I live approx 10 min. From that school and I knew too people who went there - and left.
Coincidence??? :-)

The Hill School in Pottstown, PA. I was there between 1971 and 1975.

http://www.thehill.org/

What a super cool synchronicity that just before I made that post above, you asked me for friendship? What last night? In fact, I was about to make a post related to all the heightened psychic abilities I have been generating but they have become so frequent these days, I hardly have time to even post about it. My favorite is synchronicity as it is a co-created "miracle" (actually not a miracle, but feels like one...) - anyways - Super Awesome we just shared one. Love to You, latshaw, Chester

EDIT: - and I just noted we posted at exactly the same time above! to the minute! haha XX:46 - WoW!

[RunningDeer]

Posted by justoneman (here)

Posted by WhiteCrowBlackDeer (here)

Highest and Best, to PurpleLama's Mom, and to All on this current journey
so that each may direct to where it serves them.

Blessings and Love,
Paula

Beautiful Picture WCBD - Love to PL - hey, wcbd... is that a quote from Alex Collier?

Close, it's from Alex's sage mentor, of the Andromedan community, named, Fasaus, who he describes as a Benevolent Edler. The digital pictures I post are my creations. Thank you, Chester.

[Chester]

Posted by WhiteCrowBlackDeer (here)

Posted by justoneman (here)

Posted by WhiteCrowBlackDeer (here)

Highest and Best, to PurpleLama's Mom, and to All on this current journey
so that each may direct to where it serves them.

Blessings and Love,
Paula

Beautiful Picture WCBD - Love to PL - hey, wcbd... is that a quote from Alex Collier?

Close, it's from Alex's sage mentor, of the Andromedan community, named, Fasaus, who he describes as a Benevolent Edler. The digital pictures I post are my creations. Thank you, Chester.

9eagle9 told me her opinion as to the root problem of humanity is the holding on of our collective wound which I perceive was "self-inflicted" but hey... I am speaking only for myself here as to whose fault that was. Love to You Chester

[eaglespirit]

Methinks most of You are feeling this more than ever now...
cuz I BE feelin' it upgradin' every moment every day now : )

WE, Together, One by One, are 'brewing' the most glorious of mass cocoon openings that will emit the most beautiful colorful loving light of change around and about and above and beyond Mother Earth You can possibly/impossibly imagine : )

[RunningDeer]

Posted by justoneman (here)

Posted by WhiteCrowBlackDeer (here)

Posted by justoneman (here)

Posted by WhiteCrowBlackDeer (here)

Highest and Best, to PurpleLama's Mom, and to All on this current journey
so that each may direct to where it serves them.

Blessings and Love,
Paula

Beautiful Picture WCBD - Love to PL - hey, wcbd... is that a quote from Alex Collier?

Close, it's from Alex's sage mentor, of the Andromedan community, named, Fasaus, who he describes as a Benevolent Edler. The digital pictures I post are my creations. Thank you, Chester.

9eagle9 told me her opinion as to the root problem of humanity is the holding on of our collective wound which I perceive was "self-inflicted" but hey... I am speaking only for myself here as to whose fault that was. Love to You Chester

For me, the love one withholds means one is still in the place of perfection and judgment of self/other(s).

[RunningDeer]

Post off topic.

[Chester]

Posted by WhiteCrowBlackDeer (here)

Posted by justoneman (here)

Posted by WhiteCrowBlackDeer (here)

Posted by justoneman (here)

Posted by WhiteCrowBlackDeer (here)

Highest and Best, to PurpleLama's Mom, and to All on this current journey
so that each may direct to where it serves them.

Blessings and Love,
Paula

Beautiful Picture WCBD - Love to PL - hey, wcbd... is that a quote from Alex Collier?

Close, it's from Alex's sage mentor, of the Andromedan community, named, Fasaus, who he describes as a Benevolent Edler. The digital pictures I post are my creations. Thank you, Chester.

9eagle9 told me her opinion as to the root problem of humanity is the holding on of our collective wound which I perceive was "self-inflicted" but hey... I am speaking only for myself here as to whose fault that was. Love to You Chester

For me, the love one withholds means one is still in the place of perfection and judgment of self/other(s).

I have no clue how Fasaus meant this but the way I read it is that the withholding of love correlates with the pain I carry... the pain I have been unwilling to release. This statement helped me to be more courageous in seeking why I held onto such pain. I have been making good progress in that and as a result, I have been experiencing more love in my life... and sometimes the love is coming from me. This statement helped me lots when I came upon it several months back. Thanks and Love to You, WhiteCrowBlackDeer, Chester

[Rocky_Shorz]

went shopping today and got a computer and a Gandolf bobblehead...

HP quad core 17" notebook 1TB drive 16GB Ram for $399

I love black Friday sales... Costco had the same one for $999

3AM it's darn cold standing outside...


I had a chance to meet some of Anonymous's finest, one kept looking at me curiously and I asked what's up, all he said was Rocky?

dang it, I thought nobody knew who was behind my cloud...

should have stayed in my hammock...

[Kiforall]

Posted by Rocky_Shorz (here)
went shopping today and got a computer and a Gandolf bobblehead...

My Son wants to work for anonymous.

Anonymous rock

Zoe x