Here and Now...What's Happening?

[onawah]

Your Tai Chi practice, I'm sure, is a wonderful way of helping you to achieve that goal, especially the balance and patience.
The kind of dancing I was doing as part of my shamanic practice included the use of flowing, lightweight silk veils, and they often made me feel like I had wings.
The motion is certainly part of it, but it always seemed to me that Imagination is what really makes the magic.

Paula wrote:

Onawah, your post is filled with inspiration and beauty. And a simple thanks for the numerous synchronicities, and confirmations from my Carol Clarke’s reading.

I’m surrounded by ponds and a small river where I live. So it’s a major highway for the Blues mostly in the early mornings and evenings. I’m in a second floor apartment. It makes me feel like I live in the pine trees just twenty feet away.

This one morning, I was doing Tai Chi on my deck when a Blue Heron cut through the ethers. She came out from a vertical slit - bill-head, body, then blur. The silent draft and smell of feathers breezed by the tree tops. It was too quick for my eyes to adjust to the graceful “here, and now gone” speed.

The Blue Heron is one of my power animals, in part, because I aspire to be like She.

[CD7]

HOLY Thursday Batman!?!

[1inMany]

Hmmm. Slow news day. Well, let's see. What's new in the here and now? M stepped into a floor vent into the insulation and got stuck, Em tripped and fell at school. Not a good day for legs around here. Em did get caught up completely on the work from six days of missed school, because she asked to be in the ISS room today. That shocked me, but I am very impressed with how she took the initiative. Go, Em! Today was Little One's egg hunt at school, I don't understand the association with eggs with bunnies (if they are gathering eggs, wouldn't the appropriate attire be chick beaks and not bunny ears?), but, okay, whatever. The kids think it's fun. After the ritual of gathering the eggs, we played on the playground for awhile. He is so full of life, it radiates from him. He lights up. It's wonderful to watch, and contagious, too!

This alter is way cool. I can hardly wait until I really know what to use it for! Because as unsure as I am, it is bringing in some wild higher energies. I don't think I'm technically supposed to have a candle burning from 5am to 10pm, but, um, I like it so much that I can't help myself. I might have to look into making candles, though, and see if it will save me any money because it looks like I will be using at least a candle a day...

Much Love, and I intend for it to be contagious

[ulli]

I have some news. After several e-mails back and forth yesterday,
Sean Young encountered registration problems, (Duh! my fault for not telling her to use my Avalon name ulli as a referral),
she is now in the process of getting her membership.
Looking forward to having her here amongst us, although not sure yet if she
will decide to use her real name or prefer to remain anonymous.
Either way, she will make great contributions, I'm 100% certain of that.

[Ol' Roy]

If Ulli endorses her, so do I!

[Ol' Roy]

Dear 1 in Many,

You made a sh**ty day turn into a beautiful day!

Hope you didn't change your Avatar, because I said you looked beautiful.

I'm not that kind of guy. I am just an old f**t trying to get to heaven! lol!

[ulli]

So now that I moved the washing machine to the closet behind my bedroom,
and no longer have to cross the yard to do laundry I can devote even more time to my OCD.



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Posted by Ol' Roy (here)
If Ulli endorses her, so do I!

Very sweet of you, but I have a feeling she has been endorsed by the real boss since long before she entered this dimension....

[1inMany]

Posted by Ol' Roy (here)
Dear 1 in Many,

You made a sh**ty day turn into a beautiful day!

Hope you didn't change your Avatar, because I said you looked beautiful.

I'm not that kind of guy. I am just an old f**t trying to get to heaven! lol!

Oh my. Well, now that did make me chuckle. Thanks for that one! Old fart trying to get to heaven...hahahaha

Gosh, Ol' Roy, I used to change my avatar as often as I ... cleaned house... which would be... pretty often, in spurts. It reflects my Inner Here and Now most times. I was feeling a little overexposed, so decided to shed. But, I tell ya, never have I received so much attention over a picture, honestly, so um...thank you kindly for the compliment. I'm more awkward than anything over taking a compliment, but I...um, thank you. It's not you, it's me.

And, I honest-to-goodness don't know what I did to turn your day around, but whatever it was, I'm so glad I helped!

Much Love, sweetie! (Oh, I almost forgot the disclaimer...being from the midwest, sweetie is a term of endearment...I'm not that kind of guy either.)

[Ol' Roy]

You know Avolonians,

I am LMAORITF, with tears in my eyes! I made a small issuing that I can't spell with a darn(respect for the mods! lol).

That's why I love Here and Now!

Soooo, happy to be here! Paul please correct my spilling! lol

[1inMany]

Oh, Ulli, that made me laugh!!!!

Here's another...



Sorry these images are so large, I can't tell what size they are til they are posted....

[Ol' Roy]

My dear 1 in Many,

Here in Kentucky we use that term sweetie, whether we know them at all. Sorry, I don't call guys that! lol! My sister calls me sweetie. She lives in Tennesse. Started to spell Chatannoga LMAO. I know its not right, but I am a lazy butt!

Paula, my dear, I am suprised at you. Being a school teacher and all, I am devestated! Mispelled words, not you! You know I am joking?

You have made it really fun!

[Flash]

Posted by ulli (here)
So now that I moved the washing machine to the closet behind my bedroom,
and no longer have to cross the yard to do laundry I can devote even more time to my OCD.



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Posted by Ol' Roy (here)
If Ulli endorses her, so do I!

Very sweet of you, but I have a feeling she has been endorsed by the real boss since long before she entered this dimension....

Oh, I am confused, I thought your OCD was fully deployed by taking care of this thread.

Well, the case is worst than I thought


On the not as light side, I just had a real fight with my daughter, she stood up to me (which surprised me) and it went straight in my heart, gosh it hurts. Even physical hurt. Raw hurt. It really took me by surprised and she did lash at me. Oh la la.

I bet I will be better tomorrow, hopefully.

edit: I know how come it hurt so much, for the first time of her life, I saw hatred in her eyes sent at me directly, it hit right in the heart chakra. I knew she hates her dad, but I had never seen this hatred from her directly, less directed at me.

[Marianne]

Flash, I've been there too. Having come out the other side, I think teenagers arguing with their parent(s) is a healthy sign. It shows a strong self esteem, and it teaches them how to fend for themselves in the world.

It hurts, but maybe it will help to see it in this way too.

[1inMany]

Posted by Flash (here)
I just had a real fight with my daughter, she stood up to me (which surprised me) and it went straight in my heart, gosh it hurts. Even physical hurt. Raw hurt. It really took me by surprised and she did lash at me. Oh la la.

I bet I will be better tomorrow, hopefully.

edit: I know how come it hurt so much, for the first time of her life, I saw hatred in her eyes sent at me directly, it hit right in the heart chakra. I knew she hates her dad, but I had never seen this hatred from her directly, less directed at me.

My heart hurts for you, I have felt this pain also. Very deep it is. I looked at it, and as Em is almost 14 I still do, as a growing pain. Both for them and for me. In my family, growing pains have been physical but also emotional and spiritual...

All my Love, Flash.

[Flash]

Rereade myu post I added up things.

I am soooo scared and non stop crying.

[1inMany]

Posted by Flash (here)
Rereade myu post I added up things.

I am soooo scared and non stop crying.

Oh, honey. It's okay. It's okay to be scared and cry, how could you not as much as you love her? And it's okay to want only the best for her, and to want to keep protecting her, all the days of your life. And it's okay that you won't be able to. Why? Because you have shown her, every single day of her life, how to make choices, make decisions, and follow her instincts. And it's okay because you are not the only wonderfully beautiful loving kind and divine being with her. Maybe you are the only one you see, and maybe you are the only one she sees. But, sweetie, like I tell my girls when they get really scared of growing up...the plan is probably not for her to come of age and be drop kicked into the cruel and harsh world alone. I don't feel this is the plan for her, do you?

These connections you have built with her...they are forever. And no matter what fights you have, and even after the first f*** you (which will unfortunately no doubt come at some point), those connections will not break. They will grow, they will strengthen, they will change, but they will not break.

It's Okay. You go ahead and let some of that out. I bet part of you is mourning the loss of the baby, which might even blossom into the excitement for the independent young woman you have raised.

Maybe, just maybe, one of these days you will be incredibly impressed because if she can tell you off, I bet she could tell anyone off...people trying to hurt her? A boy getting a little too frisky?

It's Okay.

You are Loved and Supported.

And so is she, sweetie.

So, so much love, my friend.

[donk]

Mine has a 14, 12, & 10 year old, and I watch them rip their mom's heart out on a regular basis. The only way I make it better is letting her know they're not being rational, acting out fear based emotions...and they only do it so bad to you is cuz youre "safe"...

....she knows you really really love her no matter what, and so can do whatever (hurt you). And it also means she loves you very very much.

Sending some love your way

[Marianne]

Posted by donk (here)
Mine has a 14, 12, & 10 year old, and I watch them rip their mom's heart out on a regular basis. The only way I make it better is letting her know they're not being rational, acting out fear based emotions...and they only do it so bad to you is cuz youre "safe"...

....she knows you really really love her no matter what, and so can do whatever (hurt you). And it also means she loves you very very much.

Sending some love your way

Yes, what Donk said ...

[ulli]

Posted by Flash (here)
Rereade myu post I added up things.

I am soooo scared and non stop crying.

She is practicing her ability to direct personal power,
and since she knows that you love her unconditionally there is minimum risk factor for her.
You will have to learn how to get that special thick skin, there is no other way.
Welcome to the club, girl!!
I also have an only child, he is now 33, and still does it sometimes,
and no amount of apologizing will give them what they think they missed out on.
I honestly think they are all brainwashed by advertising and sitcoms, and are comparing their own lives.
Blaming mum is such fun.

[astrid]

The trick is not to internalize the rejection,
find your neutral witness and try to see it all as energy.

Teenagers are notorious for mood swings and projections,
there is something going on internally within her, that she is having
trouble managing, or even looking at, so she is projecting it,
and you are the closest thing.

Take a deep breath in, and blow it back up to source to transmute it,
rinse and repeat, until your field is clear again..


Hugs

Astrid