Here and Now...What's Happening?

[RunningDeer]

Posted by Ol' Roy (here)
My dear 1 in Many,

Here in Kentucky we use that term sweetie, whether we know them at all. Sorry, I don't call guys that! lol! My sister calls me sweetie. She lives in Tennesse. Started to spell Chatannoga LMAO. I know its not right, but I am a lazy butt!

Paula, my dear, I am suprised at you. Being a school teacher and all, I am devestated! Mispelled words, not you! You know I am joking?

You have made it really fun!

Hello Roy,

Very often the ones that misspell are not only bright but creative, out of the box thinkers and doers. I'm proud to be one of them, and also free enough to admit a perceived flaw by others.

I use to share with my students that I'd get words like Brain and Brian mixed up. I'd reverse numbers like 234 and 432. But I also explained that tools such as spell-check, dictionaries, focused attention and triple checks greatly assist people like us.

I also taught the kids that if I've not gotten enough sleep, eaten junk food or feeling stress, it's more likely to intensify. We'd also do Chi Kung which was another tool we used for relaxation. So the 'perceived deficit' is a gift of perseverance and problem solving. They also learned that teachers are human.

With love,
Paula

UPDATE: Yes, I do understand your humor. It's me that is defensive. My siblings use to tease me because I stayed back in 5th grade. As it turned out, of the 8 siblings, I was the only one to go to college and did it in 4 years as a single parent. Two others went later in life. But it took them ten+ years. My mother explained years later that I stayed back because I worried about her troubled pregnancy and not because I was not bright.

[RunningDeer]

Posted by Flash (here)

Posted by ulli (here)
So now that I moved the washing machine to the closet behind my bedroom,
and no longer have to cross the yard to do laundry I can devote even more time to my OCD.

Posted by Ol' Roy (here)
If Ulli endorses her, so do I!

Very sweet of you, but I have a feeling she has been endorsed by the real boss since long before she entered this dimension....

Oh, I am confused, I thought your OCD was fully deployed by taking care of this thread.

Well, the case is worst than I thought


On the not as light side, I just had a real fight with my daughter, she stood up to me (which surprised me) and it went straight in my heart, gosh it hurts. Even physical hurt. Raw hurt. It really took me by surprised and she did lash at me. Oh la la.

I bet I will be better tomorrow, hopefully.

edit: I know how come it hurt so much, for the first time of her life, I saw hatred in her eyes sent at me directly, it hit right in the heart chakra. I knew she hates her dad, but I had never seen this hatred from her directly, less directed at me.

Oh, Flash, I'm sorry. I wish I could take away your pain. I agree with Marianne. As strange as it sounds, it means that your daughter trusts you enough to argue and fight with you. It really paints a beautiful picture of your relationship. It's a healthy sign. It's also part of the separation process of daughter becoming a young woman. She is just strengthening her wings, finding her own way. She is able to because of all your love and support all these years.

Not so off topic, have you listened to Tom's astro report? Very timely and helpful.

Love,
Paula

UPDATE: I'm going down the posts just read what everyone has offered. Boy, how fortunate to have a group like this. So helpful to hear how others see it. You all could've saved me a lot of needless pain.

[ulli]

[Flash]

I agree Paula, we are very fortunate to have us. Haven't seen tom's astro report but going to check.

Wow, I am calming down, thanks for all your energies and love. THis is acute hurt/paranoia based on real past experiences.

Thanks Marianne for your pm.

And Donk, Astrid,Eaglesipirit, Ulli, 1Many,

[RunningDeer]

Posted by Flash (here)

Posted by ulli (here)
So now that I moved the washing machine to the closet behind my bedroom,
and no longer have to cross the yard to do laundry I can devote even more time to my OCD.

Posted by Ol' Roy (here)
If Ulli endorses her, so do I!

Very sweet of you, but I have a feeling she has been endorsed by the real boss since long before she entered this dimension....

I know how come it hurt so much, for the first time of her life, I saw hatred in her eyes sent at me directly, it hit right in the heart chakra. I knew she hates her dad, but I had never seen this hatred from her directly, less directed at me.

Not so off topic, have you listened to Tom's astro report? Very timely and helpful.

Posted by astrid (here)
Tom is still in Costa...

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=O8Ku1tvLf-k

This video isn't about loss of your daughter, just the energies awhirlin' for you both.

FYI: Gio posted at The Ranch thread that Tom might be a guest this summer.

[Flash]

Tom's astro is soooooo appropriate and just, I do not usually listen to him, well, he now has an adept. lol

[astrid]

Ok.. so you were also triggered , some old stuff has been activated,
as ouch as this is, its actually a good thing, it means you have access to things
that you buried. In your position and i would be taking full advantage and even
silently thanking your daughter for whatever you get to move through and past as
a result of this said event.
The trick is not to close down your heart as a result of a "hurt" find a way, right now
to open it to something .. listen to some heart opening music, or send healing to someone,
you will have your own way.
So while on one hand its tempting to shut down, you work from another angle to stay open..

This works, so does the clearing breath i talked about earlier, and stay in gratitude and love to
whatever you are experiencing whatever the polarity

Hugs,
Astrid

[ulli]

This was in an astrological newsletter recently. Not an easy read, but true.
I thought it was quite apt, in context of the recent Mars-Uranus conjunction:

"Real change can only occur when you get completely disgusted with your own self-pity and decide to really change.
And the only way to arrive at such a decision is by exhaustion:
when you've tried this, that, and the other thing; and nothing works.
You have to get past the daydream that you are special:
that God will miraculously intervene to pull your chestnuts out of the fire for you with no effort on your part.
Magicians are convinced – and 12-step programs such as Alcoholics Anonymous concur –
that only when a person is completely wiped-out and desperate can any real change occur.

Okay, assuming that you are truly wiped-out and desperate,
the next thing to do is to decondition your mindset:
to reprogram the inventory of habitual thoughts which make up your moment-to-moment inner dialogue.
Lots of spiritual paths know about and teach this principle:
however, they don't usually mention the wiped-out and desperate part,
which is an utterly necessary prerequisite.
They tell you to "Just think happy thoughts and everything will be wonderful!"

However, it is well-nigh impossible, unless you are truly desperate,
to stop thinking all your usual thoughts about how unhappy you are.
This means not daydreaming or fantasizing about what would make you happy;
and also rejecting jealous thoughts about the people who do have whatever it is you believe would make you happy.

In short, it means to stop thinking about how much you are suffering."

Bob Makransky, thank you.
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/MagicalAlmanac/message/93

[Dennis Leahy]

I thought briefly about starting a new topic here at Avalon, something tongue-in-cheek that was a variant of "all is well", after getting a letter from a family member.

The letter was in reply to a letter that I wrote to all my family members, urging them to seek advice from a trusted "financial guru" about what appears to be an imminent economic crash, flushing their life savings down the toilet.

I made sure to say that I do not have enough financial knowledge to rely solely on me for advice, but that I was noticing in numerous (alternate) soutrces that the alarm was being sounded to acquire real goods and/or precious metals - that "paper" assets could all tumble.

I thought my letter was pretty gentle for a warning/heads-up letter, not fear-porn, and everything was expressed with a sense of "this is what I'm hearing, you might want to check it out."

So, in a group email, one family member mockingly called my offering "diarrhea." I was hurt, and tried to sort of "laugh along" (as if I was laughing along) and wrote back to him (but cc'd to all) that no, it was technically projectile vomiting, because diarrhea wouldn't have gotten on anyone else.

A couple of days later, I got a letter from another family member, expressing concern that I was being too negative. (This is sort of an "elder statesman"/spokesperson of the family group, possibly sent as an emissary, but possibly just sending his own thoughts.) I guess I should have recited, "get off the tracks, there's a train coming" with a flat affect, or maybe even "I'm certainly no expert, but it appears that a train might be coming down the track you're standing on, and you may want to consult with someone a bit more qualified to help you make a determination as to whether it would be prudent to step off of that particular traack, temporarily."

It literally made me wonder if they may have incarnated with at least the one specific goal of experiencing financial ruin.

And so, here and now, I'm feeling a bit sheepish, and a bit alienated from this "blood" family group.

Dennis

[gripreaper]

Wow Dennis, I feel ya man. Here is a response I gave to one of my family members this morning after he posted this on Facebook, after refraining for MONTHS to his continuous posts on gun control:

His Post:

This week has been designated as a week to look at gun violence and gun ownership in America. There were 5 reports in the Columbian Newspaper this morning describing incidents in which guns were used to commit criminal acts, some involving horrific injuries and deaths. At the same time there was a report of a murder at a gas station in NE Portland. A crime that happened after the paper was published, therefore it will be reported in tomorrows edition.
I know there are responsible gun owners out there, although there are hundreds of thousands of trail markers and road signs in our nation forest and back roads that would attest to another reality.
It is time... time to start placing some limits and improving our ability to check backgrounds and set limits on the type of weapon and ammunition available. I am writing here and sending my concerns on to our "leaders" in government. I can only hope they will make wise decisions without being bullied by the NRA.

My response:

OK. Leaders in government? Have we not established that there are no leaders in Washington and that everything the government touches turns to ****? How is taking more liberty and freedom from god fearing, hard working, honest Americans going to make us all safer? How much more of the Bill of Rights do we have to shred and hand over to some alphabet agency like TSA or DHS before we feel safe?

More guns and ammo have been sold in the last six months than any other time in history, by these honest god fearing American's, so as far as I can tell, the people have already voted. Don't mess with the Bill of Rights.

As far as criminals are concerned, no one would disagree that criminals need to be dealt with, but have the police ever protected you against violence in a timely manner when you were confronted by a criminal? God forbid you should ever be faced head on with such violence. Be careful you don't run into these criminals as they are getting their gun permits and registering their assault rifles, as criminals always do.

The Sandy Hook incident has more holes in it than a piece of Swiss Cheese. The forensics don't add up, and neither does most of the rest of the story, so who really are the criminals? A lone crazed shooter?

Take a closer look at 9-11 and follow the money, really look at the physics and the forensics, and then tell me again how you want our government to make us feel safer.

The heats coming down on me big time today, but I'm standing my ground.

[RunningDeer]

Posted by Dennis Leahy (here)
I thought briefly about starting a new topic here at Avalon, something tongue-in-cheek that was a variant of "all is well", after getting a letter from a family member.

The letter was in reply to a letter that I wrote to all my family members, urging them to seek advice from a trusted "financial guru" about what appears to be an imminent economic crash, flushing their life savings down the toilet.

I made sure to say that I do not have enough financial knowledge to rely solely on me for advice, but that I was noticing in numerous (alternate) soutrces that the alarm was being sounded to acquire real goods and/or precious metals - that "paper" assets could all tumble.

I thought my letter was pretty gentle for a warning/heads-up letter, not fear-porn, and everything was expressed with a sense of "this is what I'm hearing, you might want to check it out."

So, in a group email, one family member mockingly called my offering "diarrhea." I was hurt, and tried to sort of "laugh along" (as if I was laughing along) and wrote back to him (but cc'd to all) that no, it was technically projectile vomiting, because diarrhea wouldn't have gotten on anyone else.

A couple of days later, I got a letter from another family member, expressing concern that I was being too negative. (This is sort of an "elder statesman"/spokesperson of the family group, possibly sent as an emissary, but possibly just sending his own thoughts.) I guess I should have recited, "get off the tracks, there's a train coming" with a flat affect, or maybe even "I'm certainly no expert, but it appears that a train might be coming down the track you're standing on, and you may want to consult with someone a bit more qualified to help you make a determination as to whether it would be prudent to step off of that particular traack, temporarily."

It literally made me wonder if they may have incarnated with at least the one specific goal of experiencing financial ruin.

And so, here and now, I'm feeling a bit sheepish, and a bit alienated from this "blood" family group.

Dennis

In the fall of 2011, I did all the things suggested for money, investments, emergency and food preparation. And I shared with siblings. After three group emails on pertinent topics, I gave up. Their responses were, “I told you so. Nothing happened.” They parrot back information from mainstream media. They are not even up to speed on chemtrails or GMOs. The desires beyond TV, work, cars, feathered hats and MickyD french fries are nil. It’s just not on their radar screen. I’ve accepted it.

[greybeard]

Yes I joined that club too.
The only receptive one keeps "a bit spare" in the house.
I did pick my time of telling--- the hole in the wall had crashed and several banks were of line--also Orange mobile had big problems.

Another good time was when Inverness got cut off for a few days due to snow blocking the roads in.

The reason I gave for telling was appropriate for the moment. Solar flares---- Snow.
Im in as much trouble over spiritual beliefs.
Try telling your kids "Only God is and you are That"

Chris

[onawah]

Family members are the result of personal karma, but thank the Goddess, we can choose our friends.

[greybeard]

Posted by ulli (here)
This was in an astrological newsletter recently. Not an easy read, but true.
I thought it was quite apt, in context of the recent Mars-Uranus conjunction:

"Real change can only occur when you get completely disgusted with your own self-pity and decide to really change.
And the only way to arrive at such a decision is by exhaustion:
when you've tried this, that, and the other thing; and nothing works.
You have to get past the daydream that you are special:
that God will miraculously intervene to pull your chestnuts out of the fire for you with no effort on your part.
Magicians are convinced – and 12-step programs such as Alcoholics Anonymous concur –
that only when a person is completely wiped-out and desperate can any real change occur.

Okay, assuming that you are truly wiped-out and desperate,
the next thing to do is to decondition your mindset:
to reprogram the inventory of habitual thoughts which make up your moment-to-moment inner dialogue.
Lots of spiritual paths know about and teach this principle:
however, they don't usually mention the wiped-out and desperate part,
which is an utterly necessary prerequisite.
They tell you to "Just think happy thoughts and everything will be wonderful!"

However, it is well-nigh impossible, unless you are truly desperate,
to stop thinking all your usual thoughts about how unhappy you are.
This means not daydreaming or fantasizing about what would make you happy;
and also rejecting jealous thoughts about the people who do have whatever it is you believe would make you happy.

In short, it means to stop thinking about how much you are suffering."

Bob Makransky, thank you.
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/MagicalAlmanac/message/93

Amen to that Ulli

By coincidence posted here https://projectavalon.net/forum4/show...l=1#post654089

Yours is fuller and more eloquent though.

The problem is will power, which is useful for many things, but that does not work with Alcoholism in my own experience---
The humility to ask for help and therefore surrender of my will had to be total and complete in order for me to listen to those of long standing sobriety in AA. I did not surrender to a person but the AA group "Power Greater than my self"-- the God of my understanding worked through the group for me.
May God help those still suffering.
Chris

[lookbeyond]

Posted by Dennis Leahy (here)
I thought briefly about starting a new topic here at Avalon, something tongue-in-cheek that was a variant of "all is well", after getting a letter from a family member.

The letter was in reply to a letter that I wrote to all my family members, urging them to seek advice from a trusted "financial guru" about what appears to be an imminent economic crash, flushing their life savings down the toilet.

I made sure to say that I do not have enough financial knowledge to rely solely on me for advice, but that I was noticing in numerous (alternate) soutrces that the alarm was being sounded to acquire real goods and/or precious metals - that "paper" assets could all tumble.

I thought my letter was pretty gentle for a warning/heads-up letter, not fear-porn, and everything was expressed with a sense of "this is what I'm hearing, you might want to check it out."

So, in a group email, one family member mockingly called my offering "diarrhea." I was hurt, and tried to sort of "laugh along" (as if I was laughing along) and wrote back to him (but cc'd to all) that no, it was technically projectile vomiting, because diarrhea wouldn't have gotten on anyone else.

A couple of days later, I got a letter from another family member, expressing concern that I was being too negative. (This is sort of an "elder statesman"/spokesperson of the family group, possibly sent as an emissary, but possibly just sending his own thoughts.) I guess I should have recited, "get off the tracks, there's a train coming" with a flat affect, or maybe even "I'm certainly no expert, but it appears that a train might be coming down the track you're standing on, and you may want to consult with someone a bit more qualified to help you make a determination as to whether it would be prudent to step off of that particular traack, temporarily."

It literally made me wonder if they may have incarnated with at least the one specific goal of experiencing financial ruin.

And so, here and now, I'm feeling a bit sheepish, and a bit alienated from this "blood" family group.

Dennis

Hi Dennis, there was something in the Bible how even Jesus was not taken seriously in his own village, but it can still hurt coming from blood family, as for me, im sensitive and probably mentally ill/delusional-just not in public-lookbeyond

[spiritwind]

Only have a few minutes to pop in and say hi. Getting ready to make our big move back to the country this weekend so been trying to conserve energy. Had to just say a few words of encouragement to Flash though. You all had such great responses there is not much to add except ditto. Hoping today is a better day for you. I have never had so many feelings of push/pull as I have had with my daughter and, yes, I guess you could say it has produced tremendous growth (for both of us). But man does it hurt sometimes. And Donk, I think you hit it right on the head. My poor husband who is the step-parent has had a rough time of it too. And, watching my daughter and I interact has been very difficult for him at times. Relationships. To me it’s like shaping a diamond. Creating such a thing of beauty takes a lot of work. Went for my second job interview today and will know in a couple of days whether I got it or not. Not holding my breath but hopeful. All is well.

Oh yeah, and I definitely feel for all of you continuing to share what you think should be welcome and needed information with family and loved ones. I do the same and, well, they all think I’m kind of quirky anyway, but generally not taken serious. At least they don't get hostile. I’m not looking forward to saying “I told you so”.

[eaglespirit]

Just to follow up and follow through with the wonderful going ons and suggestions in these parts of the orchestra of the 'metamorphosis symphony' now playing unison chords all around and above and about Pachumama...
My intense vision dream of '07 that I was prompted by Spirit to 'go live', and that I, to my utter full surprise finished in 2010 in the jungle in Peru, was shown that the Native Americans of 'Oneness Tribe' theme are strongly stepping out of their 'miseries', once and for all and changing it all,..coincides powerfully with current tidal wave currents here and now.
From very, very personal experience...being down so low in life and being hit ever so hard with personal power punches more than a few times in this lifetime...the only way out is deep within and up...literally, and living that 'upward spiral' after being through the grrrinder of life is probably the only way to really genuinely influence those around us we care for the most...we can do our best to give 'heads ups' in other earnest ways....but our personal conscious trek of 'in the now' evidence is what turns heads and hearts to take that really good look themselves at what is really going on and coming down and what it is they can and should probably do for themselves by their very own fruition ...if they so well choose.

...end of love rant, for now : )

[ulli]

Posted by onawah (here)
Family members are the result of personal karma, but thank the Goddess, we can choose our friends.

This may be true for some.
For people who come here directly from other worlds the explanation of karma simply does not apply.
Family stuff can be so awful, that it operates more as a catapult, or springboard,
to shoot them to the exact place from where they can play their part. Polarities apply here.
Otherwise only those born into elite and high privilege backgrounds
would be populating the international stage of operations.

[araucaria]

Hi sweetie people
I find families are best seen from the standpoint of us being observer/reporters. Maybe some situations are interesting enough to warrant larger fratries. But usually when there are just two children, they will be as like as chalk and cheese in many ways, and in others on the same page. Often it may be that wildly different natures far outweigh any effect or nurture. But this can also be seen from the other side of the equation: parents experiencing what are unavoidably different nurturing experiences. It's all another variation on the oneness/manyness thing.

[Wind]

Hi all.

Yeah, I know the family stuff. I get along with my family as long as I don't start to talk about my opinons. I have very strong ones so it always ends up in debates so I just mostly keep my mouth shut. I'm a very calm person, but I'm passionate about the things which I find important. Then they wonder that why I choose to stay in my own space. Only one of them understands me. It must be karma... We teach each other to be better persons. Avalon almost feels like a second home to me.

By the way, I don't know about you guys, but this ongoing energy fluctuation is making me feel higly emotional. Not very usual to me.