Here and Now...What's Happening?

[gripreaper]

[1inMany]

Thank you so much grip, you have no idea how I needed that.

Schlepping my crap through the village today. Sorry. I hope I've put enough in to balance this. I feel like roots that go into the core of me are being removed. Some heartlessly ripped out, some ever so gently. Divorce is always painful, I've seen enough (and experienced enough) to know it is always hard. I certainly don't mean to minimize the painful experiences of anyone. But this...this...disconnection is different. Sure, there is the normal painful pulling apart, the constant reminders, emotional upheaval, self doubt, uncertainty, withdrawals. But there is this added component. Being aware there is more to it. There was more to it together, there is more to it apart. Knowing some of the life I lead elsewhere, and some of the life he leads elsewhere, and having first hand knowledge of that specifically, and knowing each other there...

I do remind myself constantly of what the beautiful blue beings said. That in some amount of time (they gave me a good idea) I will be able to see. Things will be completely different. Not just in my insignificant life, but this plane. I will simply sigh a relief of understanding, and say "Oh." Like, oh...ohhhhh...that's why. And that was such a comfort. For about a week. I want to know why now. I want to understand now. But...understanding like I do, I dare not ask for answers. Mostly I either don't like the answers, haha, or...they are so huge that I cannot possibly comprehend them. It is like when K was three and she wanted to know what dirt was made out of...or eyeballs. I guess I would like to understand to the best of my ability. Maybe.

I have a lot of questions about the moon. That won't surprise a couple of people. I wish I had the book of knowledge and I could flip to the pages. And in my mind, I hear someone suggesting "meditation." Ha. Yeah. I know. I've been soul searching as to why I have no motivation there, why I dread going there when it was such a powerful and mindblowing experience. Just being honest with myself here, while it was powerful and mindblowing, yes, during and after there was so much heaviness at the same time. Some internal, some external. I really don't enjoy that kind of attention from external sources. I don't particularly enjoy the crap, regardless of the source. I guess I feel so damned much heaviness as I schlep, that I just don't want any more.

Maybe later. I hope I can get back to feeling strong, realizing how much power there is in the energy in my body and in the "empty space" around me (Carmody's booster shot). I'm not afraid. It isn't fear. It's knowing how much it takes to just Be. In the face of What Is.

Much Love,

Oh, and just in case I left traces...

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[Carmody]

On the moon and emotions.

We, being flung about by our emotions, may end up being attached to said spun emotions.

Those emotions are great fun, yes. They have their ups and downs, and wild those swings are.

But, ultimately, the spin added by the moon is a false one. The moon is a false planetoid. It should not be there.

Scientifically, in analysis, it simply cannot be there, except by contrivance and manipulation. It is wholly unnatural.

And when we get beyond the false spin, we find the calm, and those spins affect us no more.

When we cease involving ourselves in this moon derived form of clinging and emotional Stockholm syndrome, when we cease allowing that pervasive coloration from pushing us to the ground every time we stand up...we begin the process of gaining our freedom from this place.

But, to not do it in negativity and the derision of cutting out our emotions wholesale, to leave behind the animal instincts in their place (sociopaths) ---which is banking, capitalism, war, secret societies, etc. Animals with cunning, but devoid of true functional depth.

To learn to swim in the toughest ocean flow in the known universe, as if we had two ton anchors and weights on our limbs at the same time we are at the bottom of an ocean..to master a swim to the surface and frolic...in that world.

That is what being on this planet is likened to.

Until then... spin, spin away.....continue twisting on that rope.

It is not the skill we must learn, to flop about blindly, but first, to recognize that this.... is what we are dealing with.

Only then can we build that skill in an effective way, with reason, causal relationships shown to be what they are.. and then, to swim to that surface and frolic...in a state of knowing.

[Flash]

Posted by 1inMany (here)
Thank you so much grip, you have no idea how I needed that.

Schlepping my crap through the village today. Sorry. I hope I've put enough in to balance this. I feel like roots that go into the core of me are being removed. Some heartlessly ripped out, some ever so gently. Divorce is always painful, I've seen enough (and experienced enough) to know it is always hard. I certainly don't mean to minimize the painful experiences of anyone. But this...this...disconnection is different. Sure, there is the normal painful pulling apart, the constant reminders, emotional upheaval, self doubt, uncertainty, withdrawals. But there is this added component. Being aware there is more to it. There was more to it together, there is more to it apart. Knowing some of the life I lead elsewhere, and some of the life he leads elsewhere, and having first hand knowledge of that specifically, and knowing each other there...

I do remind myself constantly of what the beautiful blue beings said. That in some amount of time (they gave me a good idea) I will be able to see. Things will be completely different. Not just in my insignificant life, but this plane. I will simply sigh a relief of understanding, and say "Oh." Like, oh...ohhhhh...that's why. And that was such a comfort. For about a week. I want to know why now. I want to understand now. But...understanding like I do, I dare not ask for answers. Mostly I either don't like the answers, haha, or...they are so huge that I cannot possibly comprehend them. It is like when K was three and she wanted to know what dirt was made out of...or eyeballs. I guess I would like to understand to the best of my ability. Maybe.

I have a lot of questions about the moon. That won't surprise a couple of people. I wish I had the book of knowledge and I could flip to the pages. And in my mind, I hear someone suggesting "meditation." Ha. Yeah. I know. I've been soul searching as to why I have no motivation there, why I dread going there when it was such a powerful and mindblowing experience. Just being honest with myself here, while it was powerful and mindblowing, yes, during and after there was so much heaviness at the same time. Some internal, some external. I really don't enjoy that kind of attention from external sources. I don't particularly enjoy the crap, regardless of the source. I guess I feel so damned much heaviness as I schlep, that I just don't want any more.

Maybe later. I hope I can get back to feeling strong, realizing how much power there is in the energy in my body and in the "empty space" around me (Carmody's booster shot). I'm not afraid. It isn't fear. It's knowing how much it takes to just Be. In the face of What Is.

Much Love,

Oh, and just in case I left traces...

Attachment 24132

Give yourself a chance. It takes time.

[1inMany]

Posted by Carmody (here)
On the moon and emotions.

We, being flung about by our emotions, may end up being attached to said spun emotions.

Those emotions are great fun, yes. They have their ups and downs, and wild those swings are.

But, ultimately, the spin added by the moon is a false one. The moon is a false planetoid. It should not be there.

Scientifically, in analysis, it simply cannot be there, except by contrivance and manipulation. It is wholly unnatural.

And when we get beyond the false spin, we find the calm, and those spins affect us no more.

When we cease involving ourselves in this moon derived form of clinging and emotional Stockholm syndrome, when we cease allowing that pervasive coloration from pushing us to the ground every time we stand up...we begin the process of gaining our freedom from this place.

But, to not do it in negativity and the derision of cutting out our emotions wholesale, to leave behind the animal instincts in their place (sociopaths) ---which is banking, capitalism, war, secret societies, etc. Animals with cunning, but devoid of true functional depth.

To learn to swim in the toughest ocean flow in the known universe, as if we had two ton anchors and weights on our limbs at the same time we are at the bottom of an ocean..to master a swim to the surface and frolic...in that world.

That is what being on this planet is likened to.

Until then... spin, spin away.....continue twisting on that rope.

It is not the skill we must learn, to flop about blindly, but first, to recognize that this.... is what we are dealing with.

Only then can we build that skill in an effective way, with reason, causal relationships shown to be what they are.. and then, to swim to that surface and frolic...in a state of knowing.

I intuit this is quite true. (You know it is, and don't need validation from me of all people, but I needed a starting point.) A couple of years ago, my Grandpa got a message to me. We were talking about ruling influences, and knowing myself. Asked where to look, he replied "the moon" and chuckled. As is always the friggin case, I couldn't find anything to explain this. I looked at the phases of the moon and tried to make correlations to moods that way. I tried looking at moon astrology, whatever the term is for that. I tried looking for hidden knowledge, which is a lost cause because it is well hidden. Now, after all this time, it is becoming clear. Thanks to your posts.

I'm not nearly as emotional as I used to be. I attribute that to spiritual growth (lack of a better word). I still identify influence(s) of the planets. Generally speaking, please...I still don't get it mostly, but I do see there is influence. And the moon...this makes sense with the pull of the water on the planet, and in the human body...and the emotions are somehow water based and I can't quite pull that info up.

I was looking for something a while back, and found a website selling candles powered up with full moon energy. (Completely unrelated to what I was looking for.) And it is then that I began to wonder...is this a good thing? Magical people who worship the moon...who look at the moon as a goddess...is this a good thing? Let's say it is artificial...meaning it was placed after the formation of the planets. I don't feel pulled to honor the moon, as I would the Sun let's say. Of course, as was eluded to, it could have been placed to make the "game" more interesting, make the "school" more difficult or efficient. I play that over in my head and wonder if it is just another thing to grow beyond.

And then there are the deep emotions of a Cancerian. On the one hand, you have the thought that allowing those to move through is the healthy way. And emotions are part of this experience, so I would surmise that experiencing them is part of the point. However, being ruled by them or becoming so attached to them that they take over...well, that's not healthy. It does give experience though. On the other hand, there is the thought that the planetary influences are something to grow beyond somehow.

I don't know. I'm sure this is rambling. I will excuse myself, haha.

Wait, before I excuse myself let me play that thought out. If the emotions are influenced by the planets, and by the moon...what to do with that information. I mean, you can't really say "well, I am having a ****ty time of it because of the planets, or the moon, so I will stop having a ****ty time of it." You can't really just not experience the stuff. And you can't really deny it, be in denial or avoidance of the stuff. So somehow the key must be to allow it all the while knowing why it is happening, but not let it take you over....

Okay, now I am excusing myself...

[Crystine]

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LITTLE MOON
A Joe Belt pencil portrait

[Crystine]

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How's this for DETERMINATION?

[Carmody]

Posted by 1inMany (here)

Posted by Carmody (here)
On the moon and emotions.

We, being flung about by our emotions, may end up being attached to said spun emotions.

Those emotions are great fun, yes. They have their ups and downs, and wild those swings are.

But, ultimately, the spin added by the moon is a false one. The moon is a false planetoid. It should not be there.

Scientifically, in analysis, it simply cannot be there, except by contrivance and manipulation. It is wholly unnatural.

And when we get beyond the false spin, we find the calm, and those spins affect us no more.

When we cease involving ourselves in this moon derived form of clinging and emotional Stockholm syndrome, when we cease allowing that pervasive coloration from pushing us to the ground every time we stand up...we begin the process of gaining our freedom from this place.

But, to not do it in negativity and the derision of cutting out our emotions wholesale, to leave behind the animal instincts in their place (sociopaths) ---which is banking, capitalism, war, secret societies, etc. Animals with cunning, but devoid of true functional depth.

To learn to swim in the toughest ocean flow in the known universe, as if we had two ton anchors and weights on our limbs at the same time we are at the bottom of an ocean..to master a swim to the surface and frolic...in that world.

That is what being on this planet is likened to.

Until then... spin, spin away.....continue twisting on that rope.

It is not the skill we must learn, to flop about blindly, but first, to recognize that this.... is what we are dealing with.

Only then can we build that skill in an effective way, with reason, causal relationships shown to be what they are.. and then, to swim to that surface and frolic...in a state of knowing.

I intuit this is quite true. (You know it is, and don't need validation from me of all people, but I needed a starting point.) A couple of years ago, my Grandpa got a message to me. We were talking about ruling influences, and knowing myself. Asked where to look, he replied "the moon" and chuckled. As is always the friggin case, I couldn't find anything to explain this. I looked at the phases of the moon and tried to make correlations to moods that way. I tried looking at moon astrology, whatever the term is for that. I tried looking for hidden knowledge, which is a lost cause because it is well hidden. Now, after all this time, it is becoming clear. Thanks to your posts.

I'm not nearly as emotional as I used to be. I attribute that to spiritual growth (lack of a better word). I still identify influence(s) of the planets. Generally speaking, please...I still don't get it mostly, but I do see there is influence. And the moon...this makes sense with the pull of the water on the planet, and in the human body...and the emotions are somehow water based and I can't quite pull that info up.

I was looking for something a while back, and found a website selling candles powered up with full moon energy. (Completely unrelated to what I was looking for.) And it is then that I began to wonder...is this a good thing? Magical people who worship the moon...who look at the moon as a goddess...is this a good thing? Let's say it is artificial...meaning it was placed after the formation of the planets. I don't feel pulled to honor the moon, as I would the Sun let's say. Of course, as was eluded to, it could have been placed to make the "game" more interesting, make the "school" more difficult or efficient. I play that over in my head and wonder if it is just another thing to grow beyond.

And then there are the deep emotions of a Cancerian. On the one hand, you have the thought that allowing those to move through is the healthy way. And emotions are part of this experience, so I would surmise that experiencing them is part of the point. However, being ruled by them or becoming so attached to them that they take over...well, that's not healthy. It does give experience though. On the other hand, there is the thought that the planetary influences are something to grow beyond somehow.

I don't know. I'm sure this is rambling. I will excuse myself, haha.

Wait, before I excuse myself let me play that thought out. If the emotions are influenced by the planets, and by the moon...what to do with that information. I mean, you can't really say "well, I am having a ****ty time of it because of the planets, or the moon, so I will stop having a ****ty time of it." You can't really just not experience the stuff. And you can't really deny it, be in denial or avoidance of the stuff. So somehow the key must be to allow it all the while knowing why it is happening, but not let it take you over....

Okay, now I am excusing myself...

you got it. Exactly that. Knowing where it is coming from makes all the difference in the world. Even if you free yourself from it, everyone else around you is still in the bubble. the more you remove yourself from it and remain in their midst, the more you grind against their flow and end up catching their flack.

Helping yourself and helping others, can be very costly, until some form of detachment is reached. Obviously, it can't be forced as that is no good either. Generally, only in the face of true detachment, does one gain the peace required so that others cannot reach them..at the same time some deeper parts of them (other) cease trying to grind against the detached being.

[PurpleLama]

IME, detachment comes less from removing oneself from that which is temporal, than spending one's effort to move toward that which is eternal.

1inmany, I might suggest spending your contemplation on the relaxation of every tension, beginning in the belly and expanding upward and downward and outward from there. When the practice is internalized, less chance is there for any outside interference, and much progress stands to be made. Just focus on the sensations, and follow from there.

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Of course, the perfect remedy for the friction Carmody describes is a healthy dose of DGAF.

[Flash]

Of course, the perfect remedy for the friction Carmody describes is a healthy dose of DGAF

Got to remember that one. lol

My late saying, repeating it to myself: "it has to be easy"

not lazyness here, this is not me, but just stopping to take the ardeous and most difficult roads, looking for the easiest ones in the solutions coming up. For everything.

I bet my next one will be DGAF

[Michelle Marie]

Here and now…

awareness of this type of illegal arrest hitting pretty close to home:

http://www.opposingviews.com/i/socie...-know-gun-laws

I'm glad he won.

Michelle Marie

[Michelle Marie]

My heart is full of compassion for you, 1in Many.

I sense that compassion is violet. Has anyone else ever sensed that vibrational relationship? Just wondering.

Anyway, lots of violet flame compassion to transmute the heavy energy into light as you transform into a free playful fun wisdom-laden butterfly soul that flies smack into Freedom.

Many more blessings and miracles to come ,,,Love,
Michelle Marie

[Playdo of Ataraxas]

That Sequoia is the most venerable cathedral I've ever seen. Incredible. One of my favorite books is Faulkner's "Go Down, Moses". He describes the old growth forests before they were clear cut. Would have been something to see.....

In other news of the here and now, I read this interesting article from Seattle regarding a highway tunnel they're digging beneath the city:

http://www.columbian.com/news/2013/d...nnel-drilling/

[Guest]

lol PL

1inMany I'm a Sun person too but I have three planets in Leo. When I was a child I was fascinated that there was a moon here. I called it the boon and told everyone that it doesn't belong there, much to the chagrin of my parents. In Native and traditional cultures they don't say "look to the moon," but "look to the Sun."

This whole page is synchronistic to my own life differing circumstances and situations but similar.

Shift just a little bit and watch as they come out of the woodwork. There's my own resistance as well.

Speaking of connections and invisible messages from the multiverses
I subscribe to Rahkyt's blog Sacred Space and Time. About an hour or so ago clicked on his newest blog then to this thread and read this page.

by rahkyt
genre hip hop

There is a Way to Find Love

There is a way, to find, Love.
There is a way to find Love.
We face the demons in the night
We scream out loud then run in fright
Til we find the loving place
Illuminate and shine our light!

There is a way to find Love.
There's nothing in between us
but the walls we put in place
We live our lives in search of dreams
and find ourselves in outer space.
There is a way to find Love.
There is a way to find Love.
Mystical magical wonderful beautiful we are full of light and love we're bright our second sight shinin through dimensions pretensions of soul as psychos like pyros light fires of tires and buildings come crashing down they clown we don't care we are flying higher and higher the fire burning planets like manic depressives we dip and dive flowin thru life livin like Ballas we follow synchronicity our paths shinin electricity climbin levels and levels ascension burnin skin yearnin we brighten and heighten third eye risin we out in space yeh the place of our birth this earth no hidin place we gone we out no doubt it's on ...

There is a way to find Love.
We face the demons in the night
We scream out loud then run in fright
Til we find the loving place
Illuminate and shine our light!
There is a way to find Love.
There's nothing in between us
but the walls we put in place
We live our lives in search of dreams
and find ourselves in outer space.
There is a way to find Love.
There is a way to find Love.
There is a way to find Love.
There is a way to find Love.
There is a way, to find, Love.
http://rahkyt.com/2013/12/12/there-i...love/#comments





Love


Nora

[ulli]

Snow in Egypt today...global warming for sure.

[Wind]

So that's where all the snow went...

[Billy]

Can i ask for prayers for my Mother Elizabeth. 86, I moved in with her a few weeks ago because she was falling down due to arthritis , First bad fall she fractured her wrist, the last fall she fractured her knee and the knee cap has become detached from the ligaments that hold it in place, She has been in hospital for 6 weeks now and is losing the will to fight on. My Father passed away last January.

This last few days she has been hallucinating due to a possible virus that they cannot detect, (Doctors description) seeing people who have passed away. My father being one of many, When i saw her yesterday she told me that earlier in the day " Everything was upside down " I asked what she meant. She said she was above her bed looking down. Hmmm i think she had an OBE. But does not understand the experience. I reassured her.

She is strong and wants to come home. Please pray that this can happen. If it is the will of the creator.

I feel it is not her time yet. Taking each day as it comes.

off to visit her again soon. Thank you Village.

peace

[araucaria]

Posted by ulli (here)


Snow in Egypt today...global warming for sure.

Ulli, you are just being cynical because you don't understand these things. It is an effect of global warming.

[araucaria]

Posted by billyji (here)
Can i ask for prayers for my Mother Elizabeth. 86, I moved in with her a few weeks ago because she was falling down due to arthritis , First bad fall she fractured her wrist, the last fall she fractured her knee and the knee cap has become detached from the ligaments that hold it in place, She has been in hospital for 6 weeks now and is losing the will to fight on. My Father passed away last January.

This last few days she has been hallucinating due to a possible virus that they cannot detect, (Doctors description) seeing people who have passed away. My father being one of many, When i saw her yesterday she told me that earlier in the day " Everything was upside down " I asked what she meant. She said she was above her bed looking down. Hmmm i think she had an OBE. But does not understand the experience. I reassured her.

She is strong and wants to come home. Please pray that this can happen. If it is the will of the creator.

I feel it is not her time yet. Taking each day as it comes.

off to visit her again soon. Thank you Village.

peace

billyjl, this is a very difficult time for you and for your mother. They say seeing loved ones is a sign that the end is close, but on the other hand, anyone might start losing the will to fight on after six weeks in hospital. If you can get her home, she may well have a few more years in her. Here's wishing the very best for you both.

[ulli]

Truth and lies. A magicians view of it....on TED talks

http://www.ted.com/talks/marco_tempe..._on_ipods.html