Posted by Freed Fox
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I can certainly relate to suffering being self generated, but I can also understand fully how that is a tough pill to swallow. Leading up to my 'Gaia' experience (again, a highly pivotal and profound moment for me), I was personally experiencing a great deal of turmoil regarding both my direction in life and my relationships with others close to me. During the peak of these difficulties, I would have been quite closed to the notion that I was the central cause of my suffering and in fact it would have probably made me quite angry. It was a very difficult process to see that my ignorance and chiefly a rampant ego was really the primary source of it all. I had to lose quite a lot to learn that lesson.
Even now, I have an incurable illness which has effected me on a daily basis since I was 15. It was the source of a great deal of suffering to me for several years, and made it easy to see myself as a victim of circumstance. However I eventually came to the point where I was able to shift my perspective, and see it more as an obstacle, or a lesson. It became more of a challenge than a curse. It still effects me, but I no longer really see it as a sort of unnecessary suffering (if that makes sense).
Anyway, I had another vivid dream last night, though not nearly as long as the last one.
I was riding in a car with my sister and my mother (who was driving). As we went along, I saw numerous tornadoes forming around us, but mostly behind us. There were at least four of them. I then looked ahead of us, off to the passenger side, and saw a massive white cloud formation which had beautiful, vibrant rainbow colors around the sides. I pointed it out, and soon after it changed shape. It turned into a massive, sort-of goat-man that was laying parallel with the earth, facing down toward the ground. Its face somewhat resembled a Japanese Oni. Once it had assumed this new form it began flying in our direction. Though the transformation was very surprising, I didn't find it alarming save for the fact that it was so large, that we were the size of ants by comparison.
We soon stopped in a town I'd never seen before, at which point I wandered off on my own. I soon found myself in the alleyways of a neighborhood in which every house had apparently been recently painted, each with different shades of bright colors. I quickly found myself unable to navigate out of this neighborhood because every house seemed to be surrounded by tall, chain-link fences without gates. Again, this wasn't alarming to me, but it was somewhat frustrating.
Well, that's about all I can recall. As always, thanks for humoring me.