I am an alien, can't take it any more I am taking Amphetamine

[TigaHawk]

As someone who was medicated by my parents because they did not likesomething which i told them about myself.... And then accepted the meds as also working.... Changing me for the "better"....

Just under 10 years later, whenever i'd mess up and forget to take them for a few day's... I dont think there is a more acurate way of describing how i felt other than to say that i felt i was chained up inside myself, and the gap in the meds was like having a crack in the wall i could look through and actually hear, see and feel that. When i was finally able to get my head around things and realise that there was nothing wrong with me, and decided to discontinue the meds permnantly, it also felt that i was now shouting/screaming releif from inside whilst also going postal attacking whatever it was that had confined me for so long. The differences between then and now? I am no longer pacified. Personality wise it was like i was putty that molded to fit my environment to purely survive. Now i have no issues going well actually, i dont like this or that and prefer this! And alot of things that i had never noticed before actully annoyed the **** out of me suddenly did. Which was fine by me as it seemed i regained a personality instead of just being numb.

The problem is all in your head, how you view yourself and your environment.

Only you can decide to change how you feel, you really do have to be ready to do it and theres no forcing ourself untill you reach than point as it just wont work. An example of that... I rather fancy someone. They do not fancy me, tho have had no problems with using me to their advantage, manipulating me and throwing me asside when done. My brain knows what's going on, its practicall got imaginary fluro pink/blue signs over their head flashing to stay away and why - but the rest of me has yet to get with the program, and whenever there is an oportunity to do something for - purely to spend time with or hang around this person i am still jumping at it while my brain is sitting there shakin it's head going you idiot....

Isnt being human wonderfull?

[Rocky_Shorz]

it takes 6-7 years to recover after frying out your happy juice pump in your brain.

it is also a shield from voices you shouldn't be hearing most people coming off the drug get put on a medicine to mute them, but it takes an understanding of what you have done to yourself to understand why new moons drive you over the edge...

new moons seem to be clear for distant transmissions, so we need a filter to stay sane.

it was created by shadow government Drug cartels to do exactly what it did...

they want lifetime pill poppers...

ps we are in the 3 day buildup to the New Moon now, this faze lasts until 3 days after...

[seehas]

Posted by provolon (here)
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Summary of the post: I am an indigo, I feel alien in this world always felt it, I have being suffering a lot, Attention Deficit Disorder: the Psychiatrist said, so I took my first "medicine" last night, Amphetamine something and it's working

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My problem was not depression, is feel tired all the time, just wanting to go to bed, no energy at all. Dr. said I am healthy might be a sleep problem, but I did a sleep test ($400 dollars) result was I was sleeping ok.

I have spent 20 years "Searching" in the new age, Reiki, chamans, Rebirthing, Hypnosis, Meditations, Inelia, Pleiadians, Abraham hicks, Books, Videos, Trainings, Energy Healing, Christianism, Buddhism, Sufism,....... so on... I really, really tried the unconventional medicine (I didn't try peyote, nor lsd etc, which might help). New age therapies only helped me few days or hours before felling tired, overwhelmed again.

I feel wonderful with the ADD "medicine" Adderall. I know Amphetamines can affect chacras, might fry the mind, etc.. Im rebel so y am rebelling from the rebellion and come to the conventional western stuff.


There are two kinds of aliens that born as human,
a) The ones that can contact their alien family, travel ships, remember past lives.
b) The ones that before coming to Earth told their family "please don't contact me" even if I yell you to do it.

I believe I am one of b) kind.. really feel abandoned and out of place, I suffer when I see suffering on the world, sick, abused and hungry kids make me cry uncontrollably. And feeling tired all the time prevents me to help... 20 years tired and overwhelmed is enough, I am trying the conventional way.

I am excited to read your responses, this is my first Thread from years reading posts. I work with Technology and I didn't know how to create a new Thread.. lol no place in home-place that says "click here to create a new Thread", never started a Thread in any forum.

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During a hypnosis I saw my self like the pictures on the top (without the wings lol)

brother you are not alone many of us here are feeling what you experience now !

its hard to motivate sometimes when even your loved ones throw stones at your head, if there was a red-buzzer for "IM OUT" this buzzer would be pushed by me since many many years because i feel so alienated here.

the feeling of beeing tired every day is something i can totaly share with you, but somehow i started blaming it on the cellphonetower they placed not that far away from my house / who knows.

we came here and we planed something before we came here, its important to understand and feel what this "plan" was, due to drugs and medication all the hints layed out in plain start to disapear in clouds and fogg and the confusion takes over, meditation instead does the opposite.


understand who you are and why you are here, we can all make a difference on this planet and to do so its important to be grounded and step outside of the confusion.

LETS GO !

[Maunagarjana]

Posted by Nanoo Nanoo (here)
Well you got what you asked for ... abandonment

what are you going to do with it ?

amphetamines will fry your spirit centre by reducing seratonin faster than your body can make it. Seratonin is pretty much the pre cursor to all mood and happiness feelins ,positive emotions and because it takes a while for it to be replenished you get into a downward spiral if you dont stop using meth.

Eat seratonin creating foods

Blue Berries
Banana
Strawberries
Oranges
Pumpkin Seeds
Fish Oil


and therer are more ..

the triggers for the use of meth or anphetamines are sadness or emotional triggers .. you can see with no seratonin to make you happy again that pretty much anything will trigger you to use more .. so you just have to look at the Meth and anphetamine cure and thats one word. Honesty.

maybe thats why you wanted to experience this ?

best of luck

N

ADD does not equal depression. That's a whole other thing. It may be discouraging, but speaking for myself, I am never depressed. I am perfectly content to stare at a wall all day. And if I had no other things to do, that's what I would do, and do it cheerfully. See the difference? It's more of a motivational thing. I have wondered if hypnotism could actually help with it, but I haven't looked into it.

[Magneticman]

Hey Bill,

You have now been thanked 463 times. cheers.

[Sérénité]

Posted by Chinaski (here)

Posted by Sérénité (here)
Hi Provolon
Im just wondering, have you ever had your thyroid levels checked?
Only what you say sounds familiar to me, what I went through in my late teens and early 20's. I couldn't get enough sleep, I could sleep all day but still be exhausted.

I wasnt depressed but I had no enthusiasm for anything. I was so tired I would feel physically sick at the thought of getting out of bed. Its like the lights we're on but no-one was home, constantly!

After some years due to other health issues I had some tests done. Basically my thyroid was useless. I went onto replacement thyroxine. After a month I was back to who I should have been.

It might not be the same situation for you, but maybe its worth ruling it out first? I agree amphets are a vicious circle, try not to go there if you can.

Sending you positive thoughts Provolon

great post.

I believe you can even get some thyroid glandulars on the net.

unfortunately, most conventional tests will indicate a healthy thyroid, even when the opposite is true. as far as the thyroid goes, finding the right doctor is half the battle...

this is a very good suggestion. take your body temp with a mercury thermometer. if it is below 98.6, you likely have a thyroid issue. the thyroid gland is the body's master regulator. many times when you correct the thyroid, you fix the body.

Thankyou Chinaski
The stuff online is from natural dessicated pigs thyroid, ive often toyed with the idea of getting some as the UK doctors wont touch it, they just give you yearly basic TSH level blood checks and wont even check your free T4 levels which is a better indicator all is not working well.
The generic thyroxine Im on supposedly works no where near as good as the grains, so needs increasing every so often.
But its more profitable to big pharma that way, so thats what we get!

Id be interested to know if anyone knows more about the dessicated grains available?

The body temp is def a good indicator too. Mines always low, along with my blood pressure. Infact, maybe I died and someone forgot to tell me




Provolon I hope you get sorted, we're all here in this with ya!

[Agape]

There's nothing like your own Mind . Especially if you consider yourself an 'alien' ,
comes down to question what kind of 'alien' are you ?

Do you remember any specific features of your species ? Where do you come from ?

Apart from the human 'thing' that does not quite fit in, how would you describe yourself the best ?

There's another friend here who said but yesterday he is Procyon Starseed .

P.S. For the rest of the folks here ... now lets presume Provolon is other than regular human entity , how do we know if he can tolerate Amphetamines better or worse than the rest of you , same goes for thyroid function. Eh ?

Try to inquire first , where does he come from and whether those chemicals are natural in some form on his planet .

There have to be differences ....

I've heard from people who claim ET origins who said they have very high tolerance to many chemical preparations in concentrations and doses that would be harmful to humans .
On the other hand, and that's what I know from others like me, some of us are more like litmus paper ,
I don't tolerate chemicals in food, medicines that people pop in few times a day knock the life out of me, hormonal supplements are no no where I'm concerned,
have list of safe tried medicines that work for me in minimal doses when necessary (unless I eat all the box and say bye life on Earth ).





It's definitely feeling odd here unless you are first-plan human , all these devices and software and most of the infrastructure are built so they can serve everybody but especially first to ten-plan humans, there's whole cascade of human levels beyond ..

and un-classified ET levels coming in from outer space ..

[DarMar]

Brother,

Self destruction is condition of mind manipulation and you are much more powerful than that. Anxiety knows to come when people like us doesn't have place to share thoughts and ideas. But as I can see you are here now
And you're sharing.
I'm not here to tell you what you should do, but as you can see from many replies of members that apparently you're not alone and we swim in similar situations.
To stay on positive path is i think one of greatest challenge on this planet and from some experiences it is well worth walking it.

Felling uncomfortable in human body is very common problem as human environment is very conditioned and tends to put alot of boundaries around person.
In any moment helps to communicate with people same as always constantly reminding yourself: "I'm complete creator of my destiny"

Yeah, I'm (b) type also and discovered that one in very early age, though there was some tryout interventions through my life, but when aware I don't agree to them in any case ... positive or negative.

There are alot of perspectives my friend about beign (b) type here in now™..
1. You can feel alone and suffer
2. Blaim others for problems
3. Claim your rights and play .. just for fun of it
4. Understanding advantage and why B type and making use of it
5. Learning, playing, enjoying, helping, exploring......................

The only thing that makes difference in all of that is YOUR choice, no one has power to choose for you and never will have.
To choose is sometimes hard, sometimes heart does it for you, Same as I numbered few options up there, one can take positive or negative viewpoint on all of it.

viewpoint will create thoughts in that direction, and if you feel tired, you have choosen to feel that way.
Never should be afraid to choose and experience any of that paths, never should feel uncomfortable in your body cause it is actually great if you are aware of it.

Walking positive path brings more positive experiences and vice versa.
No one should be afraid of anything, and we all more or less walked some negative path in life or experienced pain. Without doing that it would be hard to reckognize positive one.

So yes, there are more of us and we are here.
And I bet we will have epic laugh after earth experience.


Have fun and stay sharp!

[Anchor]

Posted by Maia Gabrial (here)
You have the strength to overcome this....

And all the help you need from the forum.

There are people on this forum who can help you remotely.

[Sloppyjoe]

Provolon,

I have a lot in common with you, I am an Indigo child and young(22) just like you. I also suffer from feeling tired all the time and feeling like the energy is being sucked out of me on a daily basis. I am healthy as a horse, taking weight lifting and diet seriously. In small moments I have high energy but for the most part I feel depleted.

Please don't take any drugs or medicine. I know how you feel man, you have to fight through it. I have always felt like this world is not my home, I've never understood violence, I seem to have known the truth since I was a little boy, I feel out of place in society. I know how you feel my brother, but you have to trust that you chose this life for a reason and keep on fighting. You are here to help change the world. The world seems so off to us because we are more evolved souls compared to most souls on earth, we feel like everything is dumbed down. I know that I don't have many interests because nothing really interests me! When I think of something interesting I think of space, aliens, ufo's, spirituality which I know is apart of my real home.

Please, as your fellow Indigo brother please do not take drugs. Do it the honest way. The honest way may be the hardest way but it is the best thing for your soul, your development.

Please message me if you want to talk.

[Nanoo Nanoo]

Posted by Maunagarjana (here)

Posted by Nanoo Nanoo (here)
Well you got what you asked for ... abandonment

what are you going to do with it ?

amphetamines will fry your spirit centre by reducing seratonin faster than your body can make it. Seratonin is pretty much the pre cursor to all mood and happiness feelins ,positive emotions and because it takes a while for it to be replenished you get into a downward spiral if you dont stop using meth.

Eat seratonin creating foods

Blue Berries
Banana
Strawberries
Oranges
Pumpkin Seeds
Fish Oil


and therer are more ..

the triggers for the use of meth or anphetamines are sadness or emotional triggers .. you can see with no seratonin to make you happy again that pretty much anything will trigger you to use more .. so you just have to look at the Meth and anphetamine cure and thats one word. Honesty.

maybe thats why you wanted to experience this ?

best of luck

N

ADD does not equal depression. That's a whole other thing. It may be discouraging, but speaking for myself, I am never depressed. I am perfectly content to stare at a wall all day. And if I had no other things to do, that's what I would do, and do it cheerfully. See the difference? It's more of a motivational thing. I have wondered if hypnotism could actually help with it, but I haven't looked into it.

I wasnt talking about ADD but thanks for the explanation.

Thhe use of most amphetamines will eventually cause depression if you dont re plenish what they depleat.

ADD is a damage of brain function from possibly using pharmacuticals at a young age. Poor diet etc , them brain can get lazy and unless you re develop focus on something that requires sequential progress you may not make any progress.

If you have ADD you want to get off any drugs and force your self to do something like Puzzles , Making Models etc anything that requires you to think of whats next in sequence. If you keep doing this you will re train your brain to be sequential and focuessed.

N

[Watching from Cyprus]

Posted by provolon (here)
Bill, I respect you and your work for years, I didn't expect an answer from you, and that makes me very happy.

I Read "don't do it" and that's what I have been saying and believing, I don't know what to do.. should I continue and I guess I should, being tired overwhelmed and keep doing new age stuff, meditations, books, therapies.

I know I don't came to this planet to succumb to human bodily weaknesses.

I don't understand the human condition, I really feel defeated, I should not say it, but I have been feeling like that for long time

help others as much as I can.. I am always helping anyone that I see that needs help, I am sure I could do more so much more, but my body and my mind does not respond me, I have no discipline, I procrastinate a lot, I want to be on bed all the time, sounds like depression, but I had depression in the past, which is sadness and crying, but this is not what I have been feeling, I feel numb, like there is a dark cloud in my eyes and I don't respond, make mistakes a lot, forget things.. I-am-not-here.

I am not used to attract attention by telling my problems, I thought I made the post with a possible help for others, but I see I.. I don't know..

I would love to be living in a forest with lakes, and Indian people as couches, maybe doing peyote once, and learn, live in peace, rehabilitate myself from living in cities with "normal" humans that make me sick, sorry but it's true I feel the sadness, and problems of people around me, like I eat them so that they get better, happens without me knowing.. I have a 3 year daughter and a wife, and I don't know how to change lives... do I have to change lives? yes.. I should stop spending 8+ hours for a paycheck.. it's depressing..


Thank you for giving me so great support that I didn't expect...

Bill you really made me think.. now I am sad, because I thought I have a great solution but agree.. it's not the wisest way.. thinking...

IT COULD HAVE BEEN ME WRITING WHAT YOU HAVE WRITTEN DEAR.. Although i am not on Amphetamine.. We are here to take over when it is time :-) Try to buy some Turmeric/Cucumin, and take 1 tea spoon either mixed in food or in a large glass of water, once a day. This will fix your mind ;-) Love Peter

[grannyfranny100]

Wow, so many helpful posts filled with many wonderful suggestions and no pitches for cure-all instant solutions like one sees on TV. Just knowing you are not alone has got to be helpful.

In the past seekers felt very isolated, alone and alienated. Avalon proves this is no longer true. Now you can read this thread and learn to trust an inner knowing of what rings true for you and your unique physiology. What a winning opportunity to learn your inner self as opposed to trying to fit into some socially engineered fantasy of human life on planet earth.

You might want to print out this thread, mark it up with your current thoughts, put it away and reread it a few years later. You will be surprised and pleased with the changes you have accomplished. You might learn which changes were difficult and even how some of the easier one were the most profound. And if you misplace the print out and don't find it again for twenty years, it will be even more astonishing!

Now that I am almost 70 years young, I want to warn you that you are gathering puzzle pieces of the gigantic puzzle that is you and that you will be putting these pieces together for an entire life time. It sure isn't a child's 3-4 piece puzzle to solve quickly and instantly gain applause from family members.

Sometimes you will experience major break throughs on a section of the puzzle and other times you won't even want to mess around with the puzzle. You may want to work the puzzle in a logical, straight forward left to right, top to bottom manner. And if you are really anal retentive, you may want to measure the inches of the puzzle you completed. I guess for some folks that is a way of measuring accomplishment.

Other times you may want to group pieces together by related colors or patterns. You might feel you are making progress with the puzzle fragment. Or you may feel discouraged if the puzzle fragment lacks a connection point with other parts of the puzzle. Just accept that, laugh and realize that ultimately you will find the connection point but you don't have to find it today.

Meanwhile another puzzle piece may catch your eye and you may find its home location immediately as easily as a child's puzzle. Just remember that it is you who choses which puzzle pieces to play with and in what order to complete the puzzle. The puzzle is a life long process contrary to the media hype to sell pills, books and video tapes as instant puzzle solvers.

I have a sister in her early 60s and unlike me, she is just starting on her puzzle late in life. She is just starting to turn the pieces upright with the color and pattern showing. For years she focused on doing her kids' and grandkids' puzzles and ignored her own puzzle. You are ahead of the game starting on your puzzle earlier in life. Congratulations!

[provolon]

Posted by Watching from Cyprus (here)

Posted by provolon (here)
Bill, I respect you and your work for years, I didn't expect an answer from you, and that makes me very happy.

I Read "don't do it" and that's what I have been saying and believing, I don't know what to do.. should I continue and I guess I should, being tired overwhelmed and keep doing new age stuff, meditations, books, therapies.

I know I don't came to this planet to succumb to human bodily weaknesses.

I don't understand the human condition, I really feel defeated, I should not say it, but I have been feeling like that for long time

help others as much as I can.. I am always helping anyone that I see that needs help, I am sure I could do more so much more, but my body and my mind does not respond me, I have no discipline, I procrastinate a lot, I want to be on bed all the time, sounds like depression, but I had depression in the past, which is sadness and crying, but this is not what I have been feeling, I feel numb, like there is a dark cloud in my eyes and I don't respond, make mistakes a lot, forget things.. I-am-not-here.

I am not used to attract attention by telling my problems, I thought I made the post with a possible help for others, but I see I.. I don't know..

I would love to be living in a forest with lakes, and Indian people as couches, maybe doing peyote once, and learn, live in peace, rehabilitate myself from living in cities with "normal" humans that make me sick, sorry but it's true I feel the sadness, and problems of people around me, like I eat them so that they get better, happens without me knowing.. I have a 3 year daughter and a wife, and I don't know how to change lives... do I have to change lives? yes.. I should stop spending 8+ hours for a paycheck.. it's depressing..


Thank you for giving me so great support that I didn't expect...

Bill you really made me think.. now I am sad, because I thought I have a great solution but agree.. it's not the wisest way.. thinking...

IT COULD HAVE BEEN ME WRITING WHAT YOU HAVE WRITTEN DEAR.. Although i am not on Amphetamine.. We are here to take over when it is time :-) Try to buy some Turmeric/Cucumin, and take 1 tea spoon either mixed in food or in a large glass of water, once a day. This will fix your mind ;-) Love Peter

omg you made me cry again when I re-readed what I wrote.. quick update of my state, I stopped the "medicine".. I feel like a plane that is still flying but their motors are not working, but still flying, so ok for now.. let's se.. our brothers "upstairs" must be having a great show.. bastards!!! lol

[provolon]

Posted by DarMar (here)
Brother,

Self destruction is condition of mind manipulation and you are much more powerful than that. Anxiety knows to come when people like us doesn't have place to share thoughts and ideas. But as I can see you are here now
And you're sharing.
I'm not here to tell you what you should do, but as you can see from many replies of members that apparently you're not alone and we swim in similar situations.
To stay on positive path is i think one of greatest challenge on this planet and from some experiences it is well worth walking it.

Felling uncomfortable in human body is very common problem as human environment is very conditioned and tends to put alot of boundaries around person.
In any moment helps to communicate with people same as always constantly reminding yourself: "I'm complete creator of my destiny"

Yeah, I'm (b) type also and discovered that one in very early age, though there was some tryout interventions through my life, but when aware I don't agree to them in any case ... positive or negative.

There are alot of perspectives my friend about beign (b) type here in now™..
1. You can feel alone and suffer
2. Blaim others for problems
3. Claim your rights and play .. just for fun of it
4. Understanding advantage and why B type and making use of it
5. Learning, playing, enjoying, helping, exploring......................

The only thing that makes difference in all of that is YOUR choice, no one has power to choose for you and never will have.
To choose is sometimes hard, sometimes heart does it for you, Same as I numbered few options up there, one can take positive or negative viewpoint on all of it.

viewpoint will create thoughts in that direction, and if you feel tired, you have choosen to feel that way.
Never should be afraid to choose and experience any of that paths, never should feel uncomfortable in your body cause it is actually great if you are aware of it.

Walking positive path brings more positive experiences and vice versa.
No one should be afraid of anything, and we all more or less walked some negative path in life or experienced pain. Without doing that it would be hard to reckognize positive one.

So yes, there are more of us and we are here.
And I bet we will have epic laugh after earth experience.


Have fun and stay sharp!

Thank you DarMar... - you all gave me a home work, compile all this GREAT info, sumarize it, share my story, DO the efforsts, and share my results.. yes might help the yonger ones.. so this is day 1.. might make a small jurnal outside and post the link in the .... what am I talking about... I know me, I have tried all those things all my life without success.. I am lost, confused, procrastinated, blahh..

I give up.. well, I give up to the destiny and I'll do my best to not use the prescription, I appreciate all your energy work, reikis, remote energy, and please give it to the babies, kids in need instead, their suffering is greater than mine I think I can handle keeping working on improving my self all this Terrestrial life.

We have faith that we all people on Earth will improve.. correct?

[Akasha]

Posted by Rosieposie (here)
...Another aspect to consider is diet, I do not function AT ALL with meat my body shuts down and energy drops to 0% with body aches and getting out of bed becomes a struggle...

Hi Provolon and welcome to Avalon.

Here's a couple of short vid's linking a.d.d. alleviation with a plant-based diet:

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=m6JupL84vY0

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=27-AdHA0Jzg

Pm me if you want any more info'. I'll be happy to oblige.

[onawah]

I've been taking those same supplements Chinaski named (as well as others) which I buy from Vitacost--their shipping is free with orders over $49, and they have a great selection.
Jarrow is my chosen brand (my Naturopath likes it and I knew a guy who was very knowledgeable about supplements who went to work for Jarrow after researching them, and still liked them even after he'd changed careers).
Vitacost doesn't carry Now brand, but that's a good one too; there are better brands than Jarrow and Now, but for the price, they are the ones I recommend.

Magnesium is not easily assimilated, so using magnesium oil topically is a good solution, or taking ionic magnesium, which is what I do.
Vitamin D3 is really important, as is iodine, and many are deficient in both.
You need to take Vitamin K with Vit D3, and Natto is a good way to get K.

I was diagnosed with a hypothryoid and CFS when I was in my 50s, though I had been suffering from those conditions for many years before the diagnosis, just didn't know exactly what was wrong.
I lucked out by finding a doctor who practiced Integral Medicine, a combination of allopathic and alternative methodologies.

It's very difficult to get an accurate thyroid diagnosis from a mainstream doctor.
Thyroid disorders are epidemic in Western countries where fluoride and chlorine and bromine (hormone disruptors) are widely used, and most people who suffer as a result don't even know why. Lyme Disease is another in that category, and we have a whole current thread on that subject might be well worth looking into. There's a lot more to know about it than most people think.

A friend of mine in her mid 50s just had a veritable nervous breakdown and actually checked herself into a mental hospital for a couple of days as she was depressed, suicidal and having panic attacks--big mistake, as she quickly discovered.
They wouldn't even give her drugs, just basically told her to shut up and wait until the doctor saw here, which he didn't until 2 days after she was admitted, then for about 10 minutes she saw him and he was no help at all, though they charged her a couple thousand just for that.
She checked herself out and went to a Nurse Practitioner who gave her a couple of prescriptions for psychiatric drugs, "just until she started to feel better".
They made her sick, and of course, in a very short time they weren't helping anymore with the anxiety--the suggested solution was, of course, to up the dosage.
My friend figured out pretty quickly that was not the direction she wanted to be headed in.
She made an appointment with a herbalist who didn't even have to see her bloodwork analysis (she just asked about her symptoms) to know that my friend had a dysfunctional thyroid, and she started her on a cleansing protocol to get the poisons from the drugs out of her system along with some herbal endocrine support.
The next step may be thyroid supplementation, maybe hormone cream.
But she's feeling much better already.

Another thing that you are unlikely to hear from a doctor is that if your thyroid is shot, the rest of your endocrine system is probably out of whack too, especially your adrenals.
Exhausted adrenals make for overall exhaustion and depression.
So Royal Peruvian Maca is a great supplement in this scenario, as it helps to rejuvenate and balance the endocrine system. It's also very energizing.
There is a great website about thyroid, CFS and related disorders at:
http://thyroid.about.com/bio/Mary-Shomon-350.htm
There's an article about Maca there too, at:
http://www.thyroid-info.com/articles...ller-herbs.htm
(You can get Maca at Vitacost--there are a couple of brands that are good, Navitas and Maca Magic. There are two kinds you can get, raw and gelatizined; the latter is heat treated, and easier to digest for some, but I prefer the raw.

I avoid all pharmaceuticals. Although I get my Armour Thyroid through a prescription, it's actually thyroid extract from pigs.
The synthetic version called Synthroid, is fraught with all kinds of side effects. It should be outlawed.

It has been very discouraging to realize that the cause of most of the problems I have had in my life, and they have been many, can be traced back to chemicals and viruses courtesy Big Pharma and the chemical industry.
The first lethal encounter I can recall was the monkey virus contaminated SV40 polio vaccine I received as a child in the 1950s.
That gave lots of people CFS, fibromyalgia, cancer, lupus and made some psychotic.
Not a good beginning for anyone's life, but it's given me lots of lemons for making lemonade.
You do the best you can.
I would have preferred to be an active, healthy dissenter/activist on issues like these, but I have not been physically able, so I am an "armchair activist" instead.
But one thing that has helped me deal with the discouragement and disillusionment is knowing that I am setting an example for others who have been poisoned and disabled by TPTW by not giving up, and by continuing to find and implement the solutions that really work.

There is a treasure trove of good information on prevention and staying healthy on Dawn's thread:
https://projectavalon.net/forum4/show...hat-you-think-

And this new thread is probably worth looking at too. Candida may be your problem, and there are some ideas about how to deal with that:
https://projectavalon.net/forum4/show...acteria-alone-

Good luck on your journey, and in your fight!

Posted by Chinaski (here)

Posted by provolon (here)

Posted by Chinaski (here)
hi Provolon, I am not an indigo or alien of any sort, but I can relate with a lot of what you've written.

just practically speaking, I may have some tips. the wanting to get away from everything and everyone is usually a result of not having the strength or power to deal with it all. and you are clearly fatigued!

some new-age techniques are alright, but when it comes to resurrecting a terminally fatigued body they won't do sh!t. they generally have no practical benefits whatsoever. sure, positive thinking will help some, but it sounds to me like you require a nutritional overhaul.

Ribose powder is wonderful. that alone might work miracles for you. when used with coenzyme q10, carnitine and magnesium, resurrections take place. diet is important, of course, but while you're trying to work out which is best for you, I enthusiastically suggest taking these super-nutrients. it'll cost you a few bucks, but I don't think you can afford *not* to take them.

the spirit can only do what the body will let it. many people will say you are not your body, you are only your spirit. it sounds nice, but the second you become terminally ill you realize that it's the stupidest sh!t you've ever heard. you are both, of course. your spirit is clearly a unique one, one that deserves to express itself to its fullest potential. drugs are but a Band-Aid, and I very rarely think they are required ( though I would not judge you one bit if you took them, if they indeed offer you relief. but I would strongly encourage you to try every other option in the book first!). i'd also encourage you to think pragmatically here; doing useless sh!t like putting rare stones on your chakra points and chanting to the moon on a solstice will get you nowhere. take it from me. please consider my recommendations. those supplements will change your life.

[] Ribose powder, coenzyme q10, carnitine and magnesium - where do you recommend me to buy them?

pretty much any health food store, my friend. if you must go thru the net, vitamin warehouse has very good prices. just scan their inventory.

'Now' brand ribose is the cheapest, and works just as good as anything else. I also take 'Now' l-carnitine, and 'Now' magnesium malate. they also make a good coq10, but I prefer the 'ActiveLife' brand...but that's just me.

[M6*]

Thank you, Onawah, for this wonderful post....as well as everyone else
who has shared their wisdom. I really appreciate it! M6*

[Molly]

I don't recommend drugs at all.
You sound like a highly empathic & intuitive person, this is a gift that often feels like a curse. You need to unplug. I know it sounds harsh but you can not help anyone unless you help yourself. You need to take time for yourself, to be alone, to center yourself with no outside influence. Try a creative meditative practice like drawing, painting, sculpting, picking up a musical instrument, gardening, anything creative. Even if you just end up tossing it out later, you did 'work', you put out creative energy. That's basically how it all narrows down in this world.. you have the lower/destructive vibrations/frequencies, then you have the higher/creative ones..there's too many to label & pinpoint & everyone has both within them, it's a matter of being aware of which one is running within you at too much of a pace to keep up with, then balancing it out with more of the other so that it doesn't overcome you.
I'm sorry if that sounded complicated, I'm not very good with words but I think I made it at least somewhat simple.

[provolon]

Well.. I continued the drugs, I am really lost. Maybe none of you have never felt like. I had already being fired 3 times in past 3 years, in my current job I am having same issues as previous jobs.. (and I know what's next: get fired, get depression for not having job, get another job in 3 months, learning curve for another 4 months with a lot of stress then blah..)

Enough is enough, my plan now is do 2 things: 1) drugs, 2) follow all of your advices.

It feels wonderful being able to breath and see even if it is artificially, my intention is to have it only as support once I get control of my life again..

Molly, thank you for your message, I didn't even have mind for myself, for hobbies or anything, many of you might not believe me but really felt awful. When I got better it only lasted less than a day

Update: shaman, said I am suffering because my path is to be a healer (and I agree), and do all these new age stuff, counseling, coaching. I am living the "occidental life" he said I can do both lives - so... that's what I am planning to do now.. Even when I felt the worst, I did not stop reading Project-Avalon-Forum, and seeing new age videos (contactees, inelia, hicks, bashar, shamans, energy, aliens, etc..)