Here and Now...What's Happening?

[PurpleLama]

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[Free Will]

Thank you Ulli and all Villagers..Happy Birthday!

i made some buttons for the occasion.

[donk]

OHMYGOD that is sooo great whitecrow! THANK YOU!!!

[donk]

Marianne - my sister makes cakes like that, she's been on them cake war shows and everything....if anyone ever needs one and are within an hour or so of DE, she does a nice job and has fun with it.

[donk]

Man that pic made my day, I was about to lose it with all the last minute cr@p here at the cracker factory, nic withdrawal (though I found a nice lead to deal with that, will post if it works). can't thank you enough...

[1inMany]

PL, have you heard of a band called Pixies? You should check them out...

I said no. The reason I have a hard time with this sort of thing is because I feel so much compassion for people. I would have normally gone as far out of my way as I needed in order to help. But some things occurred to me which took this one decision to a more spiritual level for me, if you will. The universe has repeatedly, over the last week, given me opportunities to learn about compassion and guilt. After being asked to do this one thing, a little birdie whispered "compassion for self" and something about how this is as important as compassion for others. And, I am being given the opportunity to make a choice that would normally be accompanied by a guilty feeling, which serves no purpose, as I have been reminded. This is a complicated issue for me. I am having a bit of a struggle with it, because it just doesn't feel right to say no. Don't get me wrong, I can say no to a lot of things, but when it is helping someone...it's a little tougher. There are times the highest good might be served by not helping. Tough concept.

Much Love,

[donk]

Sometimes saying no, denying someone (not enabling), is serving them by not helping....

[ThePythonicCow]

Posted by Marianne (here)
I don't know about the pics in the albums ... I always thought they had to be hosted somewhere else... could well be wrong.. will ask Paul.

One can upload images to post as attachments to a post, but one can make it look better by using the [IMG] ... [/IMG] markup with a link to an image that is hosted on some other web server.

[ThePythonicCow]

Posted by Wakytweaky (here)
2000 will be yours Ulli, we just ask Paul to close the thread for everyone but for you !

No need to do that ... my magic powers enable me to re-order posts on threads.

[another bob]

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=KgI6EeYbV84

[Belle]

Posted by 1inMany (here)
I said no. The reason I have a hard time with this sort of thing is because I feel so much compassion for people. I would have normally gone as far out of my way as I needed in order to help. But some things occurred to me which took this one decision to a more spiritual level for me, if you will. The universe has repeatedly, over the last week, given me opportunities to learn about compassion and guilt. After being asked to do this one thing, a little birdie whispered "compassion for self" and something about how this is as important as compassion for others. And, I am being given the opportunity to make a choice that would normally be accompanied by a guilty feeling, which serves no purpose, as I have been reminded. This is a complicated issue for me. I am having a bit of a struggle with it, because it just doesn't feel right to say no. Don't get me wrong, I can say no to a lot of things, but when it is helping someone...it's a little tougher. There are times the highest good might be served by not helping. Tough concept.

Much Love,

I hear you, One. This is a familiar struggle to me.

Raised to be a 'pleaser', it was always easier to deny myself and my needs to help someone else. Guilt...I was raised Catholic...need I say more? Jewish mothers can't compare to the Catholic Church when it comes to guilt.

Saying no to my children was always the most difficult. But I learned to ask myself in any situation: was I was really helping them or was I providing a crutch for them to lean on. imo, my 'job' as a parent was to teach my children to stand on their own two feet, no matter how much I wanted to step in and 'help'...that they know how much I love them and believe in them sets a good foundation. Children mimic their parents...what is being taught by denying yourself...perhaps that you are less than others, your own needs not as important as someone else's? I wanted to raise my children to be compassionate and confident...what I said mattered much less than what they saw me do.

Somewhere along my journey growing into myself, I came to realize that I can only give what I myself have. If I'm 'running on empty', I cannot give from a full heart...bits and pieces of resentment come to rest within no matter how much I would try to deny it. The result would be moments of frustration or impatience or anger way out of proportion to what triggered it.

I'm not saying 'be selfish'...that's the bs the guilt-mongerers throw about. Taking time to nurture yourself is not selfish. Only you can know, deep within, what the best course of action is in each situation.

Be kind to yourself, One...you deserve it and your children will thank you for it. The time will come when they want to take care of you like you are now caring for them...would you want them to be torn between their needs and yours or would you want them to give out of their abundance?

[Belle]

By the way....Happy Birthday, Village! Woooo-hoooo!!!

"We're number one! We're number one!"

What's that? uh, oh....

"We're one year old! We're one year old! Whoopeeeeee!"

Love you all.

[Dennis Leahy]

Posted by Wakytweaky (here)
Today, I asked God, or higher self to give me a hand to go astral and it did... I made it out!

That calls for a standing ovation! (since I could not find a flying ovation)



Dennis

[benevolentcrow]

Kudos to all of the Villagers, we deserve a pat on the back for maintaining a thread that is a positive driving force on Project Avalon. I am proud to be a part and a special acknowledgment to Ulli for sticking with us all! Thank you fellow Villagers and Happy Birthday and Happy 19000 plus! Booyah!

[astrid]

So that's what the party was in my dream,

I was invited to a party that was in a forest with animals dancing and
music and a big fire in the middle, so beautiful...

Happy Birthday to all the Village,
lets all stand and raise our glasses shall we??

Here's cheers to the future of the new world, of which we are all very much a part of

Big love to all of you !

[ulli]

Posted by 1inMany (here)
......
This is a complicated issue for me. I am having a bit of a struggle with it, because it just doesn't feel right to say no. Don't get me wrong, I can say no to a lot of things, but when it is helping someone...it's a little tougher. There are times the highest good might be served by not helping. Tough concept.

Much Love,

As long as one knows what one is doing, and why.
Mostly people's reactions are based on their habitual patterns, and so it can be just as tough for a harsh personality to switch to a soft feelies response as it is for a compulsively helpful person to say " you'll figure it out...I need to do my thing here..."
If it is done in the knowledge that other people have their own inner reserves to tap into, and will benefit from doing so, in the long term, it is quite easy.
All those other responses only create more dependencies.

[Belle]

Standing Ovations?

[Sierra]

Catching up, catching up! I just have to thank every one. So this is probably a TL; DR ...

Posted by Lisab (here)
Dogs in cars! Dogs in cars always make me laugh. They just look so happy!

I've got a laptop coming this week and i'l be back posting. Lots to catch up on miss you all. Welcome all new comers!

Oh boy! I’ve missed you Lisa!

I be well 1InMany, I be well. (Hug Kiss)

Thank you for “You Raise Me Up” VS. I love that group. I'm glad you are back.

Posted by Free Will (here)
i poo poo my fear of not belonging and instead i offer my most sincere tender-hearted love and support to everyone..my heart goes out..deeply touched by the sharing here, i can relate with so many people here..let the miracles begin!

Dear Free Will, Poo Poo! Poo poo away! Poo on Fear! (giggling here) (Fear wriggles like mad as the Villagers hold him down for you … to do your thing … ) Thank you for your PM. Going to get some of those awesome micronutrients for hubby, who subsists on a diet that would send most people screaming into the wild (Yes, I feed him healthy stuff, and he feeds himself awful stuff …) . Welcome to the village, miracles every day here, every day. You belong, you sooooo belong.
P.S. Your adorable avatar is up there in my top three, with Fractal Being’s baby hedgehog in hand and Earth Angel’s kitten with buckets, just too cute for words.

Posted by 1inMany (here)
Sierra, I was just sitting here pondering this whole situation with manic depression, as M has decided (unbeknownst to anyone else) to get off all her meds. The reality of one who is living in that brain, in that mind, is so difficult for some people to truly empathize with or to truly understand. And it occurred to me that this must be what it is like for each person with a disorder labeled psychiatric by the rest of the world. Grandiose thinking in manic depression, or the perception of being completely worthless...these are real to the sufferer. Real to the point that any other REAL cannot exist alongside it.

1InMany: Very real. So real. I see now, how his brain is really affected. Not his mind, his brain. Because I can see it, I suddenly see the usefulness of helping to organize and prioritize. Last night I told him he had seven minutes to get the recyclables from downstairs and then dinner would be ready. Told him again at five minutes (he kept talking and talking) lol. He didn’t make it back in five minutes, but he was there as I was scooping the fuji apple/red onion/white wine/butter over the game hen and the food was not cold and I was not annoyed lol.

Posted by 1inMany (here)
I was reading recently that many Wanderers who come at this time to help experience these types of disorders...I am not saying I believe this or do not, but whoever these beings are that come with these afflictions already decided, or programmed (obviously I am not the one with all the answers), have such resolve and love as beings that they risk all and believe somewhere way down deep that they can see the light through this magnified confusion.

It is dangerous to come here. There is a reason reincarnation is part of the system. Nobody gets it right in one pass. It is funny. David and I have caught ourselves so many times having telepathic synchronicity … I am constantly quoting stuff from the TV before they say it, and David quotes me as I am thinking something (and vice-versa). Despite the evidence, the quantity of it, the reality flows over his darling oblivious head. But … the fact that he DOES it, confirms to me, he is a pretty special fellow.

I cheer and root for you finally getting off the last drug Effexor! I hope the healing is gentle and fast! <handing 1InMany the patience to count the little tiny bits and screw the capsule back together>

Posted by WhiteCrowBlackDeer (here)
I’ll just write the flash that I saw:
Hubby is walking away. He’s choosing life over hellish situation and control. He only needs a little push of encouragement that it is okay to make this choice.

These action steps also tells me a couple of things: Hubby’s okay and thriving, though it might take any where from three weeks to three months for it all to settle in his bones.

I know you know this, eliminate anything from diet or drink that triggers depression; incorporate activities that promote bliss.

My heart goes out to you, Sierra and Hubby,
With Love and a Hug,
Paula

Hi WCBD, Yes, for the first time, he is taking action steps. The first time. He is asking for help. Miracle.

His diet (covering face with palm) is something else that needs a miracle. He grew up poor, very poor, so he grew up on junk food. When I go shopping organic healthy food comes in the house. When he goes shopping, oh horror, he even goes to the blow out bin and buys junk food that is 50% off. And he is THRILLED when he scores a “saving”! I no longer judge him, I’ve given up saying anything to him … but yeah it is an issue. In the last year, I am finally getting to the point, when junk food is in the house, I don’t have to eat it. And I am FILLING the cupboard with semi-healthy gluten free and organic sweets. When I eat them, I can tell they have quite a bit less sugar than the main stream media junk food does. My goal is to get to the point, where I have made enough home made stuff, that he doesn’t buy the junk sweets at all. But I’ll have to be a hell of a lot faster than I am now lol.

I send the Highest and Best into all the multi-dimensions of
Hubby, and Sierra, and Boss
so that each may direct to where it serves them.

Hehehehe, Boss is not gonna know what hit him!

Posted by amandapoet (here)
Sierra and 1inMany I am sending my love and intentions for healing to both because I can truly emphasize on so many levels of both your ordeals --- I know that it will all come out all better in the end...it's just that the journey of getting three can be more than arduous at times....

Thank you Amanda. It sort of feels like plodding up the hill in skis, REALLY hard work. Then, suddenly the hard work comes to fruition and it is free fall fly jump and whump time!

Posted by Rahkyt (here)
Sierra, for you, in your need and per your request, I intend energetic support toward your highest potentiality in this situation.

Whatever your husband is going through, may has guides and angels and ancestors and all who love him support him through his free will choices, no matter what the outcome may be.

Thank you Rahkyt. (hug) After reading your post, I immediately sat down, got quiet and requested the entire gang of guides, angels, and ancestors to come to our aid.

Posted by another bob (here)
Dear Sister, I was feeling you yesterday, and I almost posted a note here asking if you and your husband were alright. Thank you for letting us know what's going on, and be assured Mazie & I are sending our fullest intent for the best outcome to this current situation, as well as the general condition you guys find yourself in. It is very hard to see any apparently stressful and threatening circumstances as gifts, although in retrospect we may be grateful for them, or at least understand what they were all about, and what they were designed to provoke in us, in regards to our long term evolution and soul development. Of course, that doesn't make the immediate acute hardship much easier to bear, particularly when there is little space to reflect, due to the intensity of the present circumstance. Consequently, please know that you are both held in loving arms, and that there is a terrific amount of light being broadcast your way, from those who cherish you here.

I feel cherished. It makes me cry. This village stuns me at times ... Thank you Bob, thank you Maizie. I know it is a gift ... a long time coming (the best kind).

Posted by modwiz (here)
You caught me. Using 'ass', 'hurts' and 'drive' in the same sentence is asking for trouble. Especially to someone you told about llama who had to be fenced off lest they hump anything that moves. I sure asked for that, Fred, set you up real nice too.

Apologies to you, Sierra. Strange juxtapositional conversations here. You are in my thoughts.

Bad Illama! Well Rad, since I can laugh and cry at the same time, no worries. Thank you for the thoughts and did you see 9E's rastafarian goat? That goat is awesome. I thought it was a dog at first ... I hope your ass has recovered (snicker) …

Posted by benevolentcrow (here)
Having been raised in a poor household with an abusing alcoholic stepfather who beat my Mother both physically an verbally on a regular basis, I can have compassion with what some of the Villagers are going through.

She stayed with him for 57 years. I can only attribute that to them having a contract when they came in to this world.

Life can be a real struggle at times. I can't say I have completely put that past me, we can forgive but it is hard to forget. Still visions of my Mom with black eyes and bruises all over her and Christmas trees being thrown out the door or Thanksgiving dinner thrown up against the wall, there are flash backs still.

I have tried to put it past me, and try to live in the now, (thank you Eckhart Tolle) and all of the teachings by enlighten and awake souls. It has taken me 61 years to get to this point. I think now that I am a better person because of what I went through.

Wow BC, that sounds like it was very rough. I'm glad you know you are a better person for it (and there was a reason to go through hell). I find that realization really helps, and I find it provides a path to closure as well. (hug) (btw, I'm 63. Crones rule!)

Posted by ulli (here)

Posted by modwiz (here)
Just got back, last night, from visiting 9eagle9 for 49 hours. Great lady and mother. Wonderful hostess too. 12 hour one way drive. Boy, did my ass hurt.
So, Eaglespirit and 9eagle9 are two PA members (one is now a former member) I have met in person. Two I really resonate with. After eagles a (l)lama would be cool. My ass hurts thinking about that drive though.

So let me get this straight:
whichever involvement with 9eagle9 one chooses...
Whether the horsey-riding-lesson route,
Or the keep-your-Internet-distance-to-get-a-spanking route
or the go-visit-in 3d route....
One ends up with a sore ass.
She ought to consider starting a dominatrix school.

Oh Ulli! Falling down laughing ... gently patting ModWiz on his sore ass (with a ten foot pole considering the liberties I am taking.)

Posted by astrid (here)
@ Sierra, can you please get me permission directly from your Hubby for me to do some work on this issue,
this allows me to go in deeper and work on more levels.

Love to all

I got it Astrid, I got it. You have permission. Wow, I was terrified to ask, and he was like, “Oh yeah, anyone wants to help, you tell them to go for it.”

Posted by Flash (here)
Sierra, I am truly with you, you are in my thoughts as well as your husband, much love, Flash

Hi there. This is Flash`s daughter. I can see you`re very worried about your husband. That`s a good thing because it`s a sign that you love him very much. I just want to let you know that there is a difference between wanting to commit suicide and comitting suicide. Some people may hate their life and want to die but they`re too afraid of death to do it. Or maybe they still have dreams and hopes that keeps them alive. So keep in mind that your husband may think of death, but there might have a few things keeping him alive. You seem like a great person so i`m sure you`re one of the reasons he`s staying alive. Anyways, i hope everything will be ok for you and your husband. I`m suporting you guys 100% and always will. I love you all.

Sierra, as my daughter has had communications with you, I thought of sharing a bit of your difficult time with her, more are in the spirit and love with you, easier the situation will get. And she has, in my idea, a wonderful heart. So love to you and your husband, Flash

Thank you Flash. (hug hug hug) Please tell your daughter:

Thank you Dear Heart. I do love him, very very much. We've been married 24 years now, and I can't imagine not being with him (I refuse to stare into that abyss, I'll cross that bridge if and when ...). He has told me repeatedly in the last week or so that he would not be alive if he was not married to me. I suspect ... I was in the same place in a previous incarnation, and I was given the gift of a mate that loved me to keep me living. I hope I was grateful and learned my lessons well to apply to this lifetime.

Guess what! Not this weekend, but next weekend, we are going McKnao hunting. This is because I did a life between lives regression (ask your mother) and was told I'll recognize McKnao in his new body by him raising a paw at me. David's support group told him that we need to go get a chat, oui, immédiatement! Thank you so much for your love and support. Love, Sierra

Posted by Anchor (here)
May you receive the guidance necessary so that your perspective and viewpoint allows for love in place of the fear, and I ask that you be helped with releasing the fear to make way for love.

Sierra, in addition to asking us for assistance, ask your angels. Ask his angels.

Mentally take your husband by the hand, call to him, allow your intent to be fixed on love and support at every level of both his-self and your own self. Love Love Love.

Zoot zoot zoot

Doing it, doing it Anchor . Angels have been deployed. Thank you for the clue to call my husband from within, and intend him with our High Selves in love and support. Zoot zoot zoot! (He was (metaphorically speaking since he has not seen the video) zooting me like mad last night lol and I was walking around looking like a grinning fool.)

Posted by eaglespirit (here)
Sierra...May Loving Balance bring all matters to a new and heightened arena for You and Your Husband.

(hug) Thank you eaglespirit! A balance between the highs and lows is exactly what is needed lol. And love, always.

Posted by Rocky_Shorz (here)
I still think we could give her a section under spirituality that only the brave dare enter...
she had style...

(Spirituality? Spirituality? OMG Rocky, she’d kill us!) Noo, I think we’d need a separate section entirely … labeled “Abandon All Hope Ye Who Enter Here” or “Here Be Dragons” or oops almost got carried away there … <ducking and running>

Posted by Rocky_Shorz (here)
and no one handles a foam bat better than her...
too bad she grabs the wooden one occasionally, looks like it really hurts...
as long as the door is open for her, some day she might hop back in and join us...

She was only on a vacation, so the door is absolutely open for her (koff koff ... er ... parking that wooden bat at the door where the programmed brains usually go...).

Posted by Wakytweaky (here)
Sierra...... I'll send all my best to you both!

Grabbing Waky's best! (hug)

Posted by 1inMany (here)

Posted by Carmody (here)
http://www.curiouslittlemonkey.com/b...ing-effexor-xr

Oh My Goodness! I'm doing this!!! Thank you so much, Carmody!!!!

Much Love,

Yes you are 1InMany! You GO girl!

Posted by Samsara (here)
My dog friend Kandu has passed today. My son in law took him to the marina, his most favourite place, before going at the vet. He was too weak to go out for a swim, but I'm sure he enjoyed it. He will be missed. We have a new friend on the other side. Last night, my dauther dreamt that Kandu was running with the deers in the forest.

Holding each one of you in my heart. Love always.

Holding you in my heart too Samsara. It hurts. Tell your daughter Kandu will come to visit. McKnao visited me a lot after he died, I was such a nag. (hug)

Posted by benevolentcrow (here)
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

Author unknown...

Thank you. I have to tell you BC, I actually look forward to death in that one respect, that I will see my beloveds again. But I'm not waiting to die to see McKnao. I've bugged him for three years now to come back. Going McKnao hunting in a couple of weeks.

Posted by ulli (here)
It's so quiet around here....
what is everyone up to?????

Here and Now....
my fear of the moment.....

Ulli, I'm on hour six of responding to every one's loving posts. oh my sore ass sitting here writing this! I love you all! Zoot zoot zoot!
Sierra

Posted by PurpleLama (here)
Don't worry, it looks to me like the cat has things under control. I don't think he will let you be the buffet, but you've got to watch out for some of the women around here, they've been known to get up to some gender specific cannibalism in the past, if you know what I mean. I mean, it's not like I'm naming any OP's or moderators, or anything.

PurpleLama, I'm sure I have no idea what you are talking about ...

UPDATE: David is on medical leave for four weeks. He is going to group therapy five days a week 9am – 3pm. He is being put on Prozac for long term depression, a temporary med for anxiety, and I have not yet found out about the third med. He can’t drink, since it is a depressive. We came home (he from meeting with the shrink, me from the dentist where I find out my cracked and infected tooth cannot be saved (Yay!) so I can get a bridge!) last night and he zooted me all evening long. He is hopeful for the first time in years.

Village, thank you so much for the miracles. I do believe he is going to be all right. One way or the other… He is asking and getting support, and us Villagers know how important that is!

I love you all so much! HAPPY BIRTHDAY VILLAGE!

Oh god what a miserably long post ... no one will read it!

Summary and bottom line: I love you!

[ulli]

@Sierra

How can anyone NOT read your bubbly posts...
Especially when they contain such good news about David.
By the way, you aren't the only one who did a double posting today...
Muggins here did it, too, but I won't ask you to go and find it...
too many pages have passed since...like water under a bridge...

[Sierra]

Posted by ulli (here)
@Sierra

How can anyone NOT read your bubbly posts...
Especially when they contain such good news about David.
By the way, you aren't the only one who did a double posting today...
Muggins here did it, too, but I won't ask you to go and find it...
too many pages have passed since...like water under a bridge...

Good thing I am a mod and can delete long winded double posted posts!